Ginger

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I have always wanted to date a blue-eyed redhead perhaps because my first girlfriend had big blue eyes.  Or perhaps I should say the first girl I lived with.  My best friend for a while, who was Irish, said that blue eyed redheads or "gingers" as I have come to understand is what they get called were naturally attracted to brown eyed brown headed people, like he was.  And which is also what I am.  

Now, there are some REALLY I mean HUh-really good-looking gingers out there like Jessica Chastain and Emily Blunt I suspect and Zooey Deschanel... I suspect, I'm sorry that's just funny thinking about, lol but yeah I wonder if (in my dreams) somewhere there is this island of beautiful women and they are like "where were YOU"?  And I MISSED OUT!
 
But my old me, knows that what I really should do is bond with someone of my OWN race.  Now I don't think I am against Mexican people or Black People or Asian People but if you come at me that I am racist because I won't have one of these types of children I have to say I would not have a ginger's baby ... so there... don't make me... and I don't wanna... she better not be good-looking... whoever you set me up with that is a blue-eyed redhead... lol.
 
But in keeping with that trope, I need to have children from a brown eyed brown haired girl to propagate my "species" if you will.  So whenever I see a really good-looking brown eyed brown haired girl I get excited especially IF they do NOT look
like one of my relatives.  So naturally you might think Erin Burnett and Ann Coulter are immediately out but you know... not so much... lol... again it's a tentative racism if you will.
But Rachel Maddow and Anna Kendrick and Kate Beckinsale all have to know "it's like that" if they ever catch my stare lol.  They are ON my LIST.
 
Ok so enough about that.  My purpose today is to point out that women are becoming a "thing" of the past for me.  I once pointed out to "someone special" that my needs were wearing off and that it would be just a few years left before my desire left me and I think I am almost there.  After my sister blasted me out of existence for inquiring about her past too much or after maybe venting about the videogame too loudly while she was next door, well my spirit is damaged.  I don't FEEL excited anymore like I used to.  I don't even blog like I used to and I used to want to start a YOUTUBE and now it's meh... people won't watch and if I start to see how they aren't paying me I might not want to support "fiends".
That brings up another "feature" about me I wanted to end with is it's important to me who I work for.  At Citibank I was more or less the James Comey of Citibank.  Everyone was pretty much in agreement that there was NO WAY I should still be on the phones.  And by that standard I was happy that I was supporting all of these people by sacrificing myself so that they would be happy in their jobs.  I was of course Lawful and Good in what I did and now alone and suspecting my siblings of "questionable things" I wonder WHO is worthy to be my wife?  Who is worthy to have me work for them?  Who is worthy enough for me to be in their city?  Lmao, you think?  Well, that's my dilemna now I want to explain things and now that I actually know a lot I have the ability to explain a great many things and start my own church.  I wonder if that's what the problem was with that church is that I was too much a leader type.  I push.  I want to know they are clear in their thinking and when they are not right I can't put up with it.  At Citibank I had that a lot but I put up with it because I just weyleyed people with my reputation.  There are amazing things I did for the company that followed me around in my days at Business Card and it colored me as someone unquestionably sincere when it came to the ethics of me.
 
Now, I have made mistakes but it doesn't change me.  I figure those out and STOP doing those.  Ok, now because of the recent video of George Floyd, which was the name of this famous hurricane that led a LOT of people to leave northeast Florida, there is a lot of unrest and protesting going on but I also believe that it will pass.  I don't want a violent neighborhood but there must be an accountability of "control" that is abused.  There must be control but too much and there is no freedom.
 
I have not had a lot of freedom but I daresay I sort of diminished reality so that I understood it to mean I was retired but it is apparent to me now that people intend for this to continue... that I will be harassed if I try to get a job... if I try to speak to lawyers... if I try to speak to groups of people... online...

That is GOING to happen and it's going to be terrible if you try to stop me... I will leave it there. 

PS. Can you feel all these women coming OH SO CLOSE to reaching out to me to become my soul mate... yeah... so brave... (hint: 50 vs 1, that's not bravery)