20 yrs and no cure for cancer

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Today in the WSJ(Wall Street Journal) it said that students that came out of law school expected to make more than $100,000 a year to pay for what has to be at least $120,000 in tuition per student(FL Coastal in Jacksonville charges about $20,000 per semester which times 6 is 120k). The story was about how schools had inflated students expectations in an effort to charge more tuition. Schools said that more than 86% of students would have a job after they got out of school which sounds like 86% get 100k after school and reported this as fact. This is untrue so people are suing the schools.

In a message to God an angel said that in their prayers all the poor people found out how rich the rich people were who could afford to hire these people without some sort of legal insurance and cried out in unison, FK YOU!

Coincidentally, the Devil sent a message saying that insurance companies would join policymakers(aka. congressmen, they do love to chg their names don't they), to fund a national legal care bill that would provide legal help to people that perhaps spoke a different language for some reason.

Also in a rare appearance, THOR threw his hammer down and said he would like to read where it says that the FL DUI law intends for everyone to do community service which was the claim of the District Attorney at a certain court proceeding that will remain unspecified.

Also, it is perhaps a bit much to ask that the WSJ speak proper English when they are writing their stories. But since they are probably used to addressing financial types, perhaps it is NOT too much to ask.

Example in today's paper: "A dog was used to secure financial papers before a budget was presented to India's parliament on Friday."

You know I am all for making English the national language of the nation in an effort to welcome everyone to the simplicity that should be everyday commerce between benign parties. I am all against people changing the contract, which people do perhaps when they bring you a receipt with one too many beers on it, or charge you $1100.00 for fixing a passenger window, like my dad was charged yesterday at a Cadillac dealer, but one thing that is difficult to agree on is how smart should you be to be allowed to do business.

We have quite a bit of foreign workers working here who because they don't understand English, may not understand what usury laws are. And since they are spending money that is not technically theirs, why not withhold telling them that their 0% $10,000 loan will rise to 13,000 a year later with all interest due if they go past due once which btw raises their rate to 50% or whatever cuz they are a bad risk which is actually another way of saying "learn English fool". My dad is a national citizen but he is 70+ years old and speaks Spanish first, English second. He is very intelligent but is perhaps too understanding when someone says we can also clean out your fuel injection which hasn't been done a long time according to our computer. They don't take into account that maybe had that done somewhere else or test to see if it needs it and of course what they didn't mention was $70/hour rate of labor. REALLY? I mean what kind of training does it take to work on a car? I realize it's not exactly customer service simplicity and stuff but man, where are these people that can afford that? You basically hired a lawyer. Lessee, lawyer + school bills = lawyer pay of 120/hr, now take away 50/hr spent paying back school bills = same pay as Cadillac mechanic... so all lawyers should go work at the Cadillac dealer and omg no banks, no schools, and no 3 years of wasting your time studying stupid shit.
Ruf!
Anyway, my point is that not only do we need to speak only one language but we need to speak it so that a 6th grader can understand. Understanding is the goal people and if I make something hard to understand then I have atttacked you, usually without provocation, and if this is being allowed then it needs to stop.
Now I am not citing anyone with crimes of course but I am pointing out that mean people suck!
I still remember one guy about 20 years ago calling the credit card saying that he wanted his VISA card to say DR in the front of his name. It was sort of a problem for us cuz then his name would not come up alphabetically in our sorter but we accomodated him and I thought wow must be nice to be a doctor. A few years later I got a different guy complaining about his car repair he charged and that he wanted to dispute it but after many car repair people got tired of getting their payment yanked out by a dispute, another procedure was put in place which not many people know about. You have to take your car to another mechanic and have them do the repair and say that the previous mechanic did it incorrectly in a statement you send in to the credit card to dispute it. You can imagine how many mechanics are willing to do this and why suddenly all disputes regarding car repairs came to a halt.

Anyway, this doctor after me telling him we would send him materials to fill out and the work he would need to get his money back for a faulty reapir or whatever at the end of the call he says, "Yeah, and remove that DR from the front of my name..."

It's a small wonder there is no cure for cancer...

Why 3 wishes?

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You ever wonder why a genie gives its master only 3 wishes? Why not an even 4? Why not a round 10?

This is a maximum. It's the most times you can demand something with privilege before people start to turn on you.

Should think about that the next time you are in a relationship because, you know, I am SUCH an expert on relationships...

What does Syria and Godzilla...

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The situation in Syria is so similar to recent events that you wonder if what they need is a fresh perspective to gauge what must be done.

I am not in the practice of offering solutions because that frankly takes too long. But I am in the practice of rendering a problem to its functional parts.

When we go into a country to give soldiers weapons it's a lot like giving an assassin payment so that we don't have to do the dirty work. It's obvious now then that this is why this practice has failed so often. When there is a "secret" assassin, then the assassin has to be kept quiet, the money has to be justified and then rerouted, the person of contact has to have morals that are questionable but at the same time noble... which is a contradiction. He has to want to take out Syria but philosophically he knows that these weapons will be abused just as food to Somalia was abused. The warlords will take half the weapons give them out to fools that they send into battle that are perhaps too "noble" to be given command responsibility, and then sell the rest of them for the sake of their "gang". Lo and behold they soon run out and need more weapons because they are suffering "heavy casualties" that noone can ascertain.

Hmm, I think that about covers why we shouldn't give arms to rebels.

Should we send our soldiers there? Yep. Should they get combat pay and bone up their HALO skills with a bunch of drone ships and so what if we get some civilians because those are too stupid to stay inside till it's over? Yep. Will we save money doing it this way and in the process get some "police" and "politician" caliber brave souls that are somewhat above corruption? Yep. Do I sound like an incredible buffoon saying this?

I just watched Bill Maher last night and although I agree with a lot of what he says, to a great extent, but I don't think we should tell the world there is no god. You are gonna find that many people will look at the great men in their lives and wonder if they are corrupt and all too often they will say yes simply out of envy or out of a wish that they too were "born" into money, or simply out of a wish to have had more education. He did a skit on the poorest state in the union Mississippi (We used to spell this state as kids a lot because we could get away with saying PP). Poor people need money and with a bigger government, aka Democrats, they get more social programs which makes them richer. So it's backwards to think that Mississippi would go for Republicans, because Republicans = less government, less government = less regulation, less regulation = more monopoly yay!, more monopoly = hotels for rich people, poor people hoping to land on go to jail... with rich people not all that worried about it.

Was that enough to analyze the problem well?

But, and you have to watch it to actually feel what they are feeling with all earnestness, they believe that if they just hope for a better government that it will happen. They believe that they are the underdogs, destined to win. They believe the South will rise again sort of like the Occupy movement believes that rebelling against the government will teach those Wall Street goons some fear.

I remember the movie Godzilla and one the most memorable things said in the movie, which changed my life btw, was when Matthew Broderick talked about his public protests against Nuclear Bases. 20 years later he works at one with the military trusting him with their secrets. A reporter asks him what happened to the old rebel she used to know, which was him, and he said yeah I found that by joining the enemy I could understand what it was they were trying to achieve and in this role, "I could effect real change".

So for those that think I haven't achieved much in my time on this Earth I say this from the movie "it's gojira you morons!" Which means Big Lizard! Dragon!

Yeah I know it's annoying to read my stuff. It's probably a little hard to agree with, sort of like Jenifer Lopez who doesn't do concerts, doesn't speak Spanish, went out with Black guys appears in magazines even though she isn't in any movies that you can remember and comes across as the representative Spanish chic for the Latin community, or sort of like Kim Kardashian who is so annoying with her famous stepfather who tries not to object to anything she does which makes you wonder if she is been spoiled from day one because she is way too confident to be all that great, and besides are those boobs real cuz she's just too good looking to have all that?

Well if you agree with that then the annoying feeling you are feeling is prejudice... yeah it makes your thinking faulty.

Stop that.

Both those women work very hard and even though some of what they say is annoying, what they do, like doing whatever they want, like Madonna does(and btw I am so sorry Madonna for using them in the same sentence cuz compared to you they suck), is what you should judge.

Well that's enough talk about Syria, Syriasly.

Stories are about feelings

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Feelings are a part of most tales and if you believe in fairy tales then the Cyclops exist right next to Icarus and the Minotaur.

I spoke to my mother yesterday and she spoke of people trying to convert her to catholicism while she was growing up. She mentioned how they would not let the regular layperson read the bible and that only the preacher was taught Latin so that he could read the Latin version and he would even preach his sermons in Latin.
Very backwards.
She mentioned the confessional and called the whole practice of doing what you want and then cashing in a confession as rubbish.
But there is a lot of usefulness in confessing your sins. People build or destroy and if they are not allowed to return to building, then they continue to destroy. Such is the binary nature of humans. In fact that is why gangs should not be allowed. People that get together to destroy become confused. They continue to build something that is in fact destroying society. This is the fundamental problem with corporations. If I wronged someone, good or bad I would hear about it. They would simply comeover and explain that my car is in their spot and then I would realize that there are other spots out there in the parking lot and we would come to some form of agreement about how this relationship would grow. Enter anger. Hah!

But seriously, what if someone came up and sed that Jerks Inc. had licensed parking out to members only and sadly I was not in the club? Well that's what's wrong with corporations, they are nothing more that a large gang, working against the greater good. They can say that all they are doing is registering everyone so that there is more order in the world, but the fact is that I get wronged and the corporation gets blamed and it has no one person to name, even though there usually one person that is abusing their power.

What happens if it turns out that I am the one that is wrong? I get removed. You see how that is wrong? The corporation cannot be removed, see, and people of questionable morals may get demoted but in a crazy twist, if they get away with wronging someone, they get promoted!

Yeh, it seems easy to understand and obvious to look at but we are all just bleh so what, at least it's progress.

Well such are where the feelings come from in such tales as Icarus. If you are going to escape a group of people that hate you, you have to do it quietly using secrecy as well as a tremendous amount of effort and wonder. But as many will tell you, using magic is wonderous, if you find yourself able to fly you may feel that you are omg I can fly! But most of the time, magic is very short-lived. The nature of magic is that only you know or few people know the secret and if you tell too many people, the magic doesn't work. The sun in the story is the truth or the light. Using magic too close to the sun, FLYING to close to the sun, causes the magic to fail. Young people are especially susceptible to ruining their magic.

The story of the Minotaur is another curious example of a beast so horrible to he was part man part bull. But if someone is hated enough, people treat him like he is a beast. People in fearing him cause him to become a person lost in a maze of righteousness vs. torment. Anyone coming in contact with this person, enters his maze, finding in it corners and dead ends and two exits, the quest of it is all fueled by fear. He must go back the way he came or finish what he started. So in this tale of fear Icarus and his father are thrown into the maze of the Minotaur but the truth is that they are just threatened by someone dangerous... someone ruled by fear, who imposes his fear on others. Usually this someone works for a king. Yeah, sounds evil doesn't it, but it's not so fantastic now is it?

The cyclops were men with only one eye. They were supposed to be the direct laborers of the gods. I think they were titans or some such I can't remember.

I remember playing Dragon Age and coming across the story of golems. Amazing creatures twice as strong as a regular man because they had sacrificed their very soul to be imprisoned in these vehicles of death. Is there anything more noble than someone that sacrifices their very lives for the sake of the public? But that is where the affinity ends. A golem is about as dull in intellect as the armor he is wearing. He is about as capable of independent thought as the next one which is in sync only with whoever controls his control rod. This is the duality of public service, because though their own lives are a testament to what all humans should aspire, the lives they affect are inaffably affected by the will of the golem's ruler, whose vision of good will is as tantamount to tyranny as is your mother's.

Worse still is the cyclops, you can see well with one eye but with two eyes you can see both. Again with the binary. People can see good and evil or since everyone is good in their view then they can see what is in their interests and what might be or isn't. People have two sides to their brains, two cheeks, even two butts if you count what they say as adding to what they are full of. But a cyclops has one eye. All he sees is what he must do and not what he mustn't. He is a slave of the gods, a Balrog, a servant of Sauron or Zeus even, (hey Zeus:) his only eye being godless yet self serving. When people speak about serving the one eye they are talking about what must exist out there. It MUST! There are people that want to get together and build and to do that you can be blind and even a little off center, lazy even, but to work for the eye you must be able to see your prey and see nothing else. It is said that prey have their eyes far apart so that they can feed and see a predator coming from a wider range, but that predators have their eyes close so as to refuse to be distracted and to maintain their focus. A cyclops has one big eye, an assassin, a one purpose terminator like the cylons from Battlestar Galactica.

Anyway, that was intense but it all gets back to what I was saying at start and that is that most stories are about feelings and interpretations. If I am your preacher then this is what I got out of those stories and I tell you so that you won't have to spend the hours it took me to put it all together in my head... plus it's free, you like free? (Bsterds!) If you believe in superstitions then you can rest assured that someone will sense that and use it against you, much like having fear.

I wonder if I have always had fear of women. I really don't like to have my feelings hurt so I loathe to talk to good-looking women but WOW have I had my feelings hurt anyways (people out there are warning girls off not to talk to me).

I sometimes wonder how much money the world owes me.

PS. If the composition is a little hard to follow, that's part of the getting to know me! Follow me?

Junior

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When I was a Junior in high school I had just left public school to start at a private baptist school. I placed first in a district rally in 9th grade and that allowed me to seek to run as president of the FBLA club.

When I went to private I thought I would run for class president. I would play tennis over the summer and my father liked to take me to the bowling alley to get himself a beer while I played video games. So it seemed logical to me to promise them a bowling league and tennis club. The election was one week later and even though I was new in class, I was elected the Junior class president.

About a week later the finest girl in the school sat next to me and made it obvious that she wanted to date me. It's about that time that I started to think that I was irresistable or at least that I was top tier stuff when it came to women.

The year didn't go so well though. I wasn't allowed to use the car to do what was required to start up the clubs I promised. The fund raising that was needed to raise money for our prom was up and down. I was able to score very well with alternative selling of gifts that made little money but when it came to selling M&Ms which made a lot of money, I sucked.

Later, it became obvious that they wanted to impeach me. The principal herself came into the class to ask if we had done anything to start planning the prom which was the Junior cabinet's responsibility and we had not. She asked the whole class why they had voted for me and I remember her saying that perhaps my election mirrored what really happens in real politics.

It was not my intention to deceive anyone but my actual follow through was not in sync with what I had planned to do as president.

I managed to wrangle staying president and remember wanting to leave that school with dignity so I was offered concurrent enrollment for my senior year. I thought it was a GREAT idea. So logical. I would leave with honor and still impress everyone by being in college. Since my birthday was later than August, I would be 16 when I started college. I thought I was pretty smart "cheating" my way past my senior year. (I really did have a good freshman year in college btw).

But some things I missed: socializing more, dating, talking about people to find out who was worth dating, getting laid at prom, taking a low class load to focus on socializing, and having a girlfriend.

I think that pretty much set me up for what happened the rest of my life. In an effort to get ahead I sacrificed a part of myself to look good.

So that's my personality, I am very impressive to look at but not very socially adept. I am woefully blunt and incredibly crass with sharp truths. It doesn't help that I have a baptist background and have spent most of my adult life hanging out at bars hoping to hook up with girls that I don't really have a lot in common with. Displaced. I don't like drugs or doing anything illegal and yet it seems I have the burden of being someone that does illegal things precisely because people have no trouble talking about me even though that is not something I can allow myself to do. Of course I have done illegal things, everyone has I guess once or twice, but it's like I have that bad form of being a vegetarian in a circle of meat eaters.

Well, it's time to stop that. My first 20 I spent becoming brilliant, my second 20 I spent ruining that, and now at 40 I guess my next 20 I should spend with my wife hopefully in some form of redemption for sliding all over the place for most of my life.

Problem is, there's no eligible women out there that are over 30 no kids, and as righteous and impulsive as I am. At least I don't think so.

Aniston

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I think that Jennifer Aniston looks amazingly like one of my love interests just without the blue eyes and blonde hair but because I am sort of an artist I can tell that.

I have the hardest time drawing people but I do tend to look at their faces more to see if they would be easy to draw. Pretty faces are easier.

I just read in People an article about her and I think they are just so full of hogwash sometimes. I think she is doing a fine job and the roles she does is part of who she is. They think she should "stretch" her abilities more and take more serious roles but in the vein? of commercial or art, it's really not necessary. She has found her lode and she is mining it well.

Would we ask Angelina Jolie to take more serious roles that pay less?

Yeah right, then we should ask Tom Cruise to do a comedy, because acting like a buffoon is SO hard to do.

That was sarcasm.

Painfully aware?

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I was sitting outside some days ago reading as I usually do and I felt something on my leg. I moved my hand down to figure out what it was and it felt like a bunch of shrubs or moss. Then I noticed a big yellowjacket wasp on the floor missing a wing.

It could still crawl and was proudly moving away from me with all it's legs intact but missing the one thing that could take it back to its nest. It was sad to watch but I was oddly satisfied that I got out of messing with it and not getting stung. I have been stung before and this wasp was the size of a cockroach. It was big.

It crawled for a while and I wondered if there was any insect alive that would face up to it even in this broken form. It looked like a snowflake in some ways but it was deifinitely missing a wing.

Suddenly it stopped on the rubber rail that is supposed to seal the garage. I wondered what happened to it since i didn't see no insect or creature near it. Then it seemed to convulse and it flipped down two lengths to the area THAT side of the garage.

Nevertheless, it continued to crawl down the edge of the rubber thing and after a while I stopped paying it attention. I was so afraid of it before and now this was like the second time in my life that I felt remorse for something I had done. I didn't mean to take it's wing but it happened.

The first time was when I tried to take an ant off of a bird's leg and accidentally broke it's neck. It just chirped and chirped and it felt like I was the one dying but I wasn't.