Old times

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:51 RDM:20 THF:75 WAR:75 DRK:48 RNG:43BRD:20

This is the background that I used to have when I worked with Citibank. I was let go due to unsatisfactory performance but I guess the end was a long time in coming. They were using people to call and attack me on the phone and one time, after the lady had asked me the balance three times and refused to allow me to transfer her to someone else and then threatened my job and dared me to hang up on her, I hung up on her. I knew they were listening but I was on the phone with her for several minutes and was tired and didn't have the energy to tell her off like I might have otherwise.

So now I am unemployed for the first time in a very long time. I am deciding what to do next and at least I am collecting checks till I find work again. The system they use to rate calls is very elaborate and one wonders that it is fair at all. There are like 50 steps to acheiving a good score and if you miss any one area, you fail. Now you have to wonder if it is even possible to check off 50 things on a 3 minute call but that's the procedure.

Truth is they need to get a different quality department or at least rotate them out once in a while. People can't help but be corrupt when it comes to things like this. Even I am corrupt sometimes when it comes to takeover calls, but at least I am
responsible about hanging up on people or yelling at them. Some people have the idea that customers should rule and that the citizen has the final say and that children should have a proper mother or whatever, but imo the ruling body should have autonomy and freedom and then the rest should be happy and follow that example because they choose to, not because they are made to.

The sad fact is however that in my case I was singled out and fired because of others and not because of my inability to do my job well. I was lied to and given no warning that my job could end and when. They made me sign papers that I would improve my quality when in fact performing well on the phone might as well be a 2000 question test timed for 5 minutes. Those who pass... were allowed.

Not a bad idea however, if there is one thing I am learning is how to be unfair to people and how to treat them with prejudice even if I don't know them. I have to ask myself though if it's possible for me to be ruthless like that, to just give up my ideals out of anger. I mean I have, but can I do it just to make a place nicer. When I start a linkshell, should I give them another chance? Is there room for forgiveness even if like 10 people don't like the person? I like to think that there is but usually people are real hardheaded when it comes to weak people or people without self-control.

My idea is to go back to school but how do people go back to school and spend money at my age when what I should be doing is buying a house and getting whatever job I can?

I think I want my Ph'd.

I am spending time with my relatives and they seem busy as always and it is really inspiring to see them doing well and staying busy and having stuff to do etc. I want stuff to do but I want it to be important. I used to believe that educating people was like being Jesus. You brought light to the uneducated ones and so it was that stupid customers became good customers. But if you are going to have conflict in the workplace, you have just a mess of people who have no values talking to your customers and teaching them how you are and how to be. It won't be long before
people start calling in and asking for supervisors instead of speaking to associates who tend to be just stupid punks they hired for the farm or wherever that could speak the language. Why would you want to speak to someone with no sense of values?

If I were customers I would just call and then fax my request in and then I would straight away ask to speak to a sup. If my problem is not solved after that one contact, it would be time to switch companies.

Sadly that is what is supposed to happen but people just don't like the idea of using their freedom of choice. That is why I believe in divorce. Marriage is all nice and useful and stuff but if someone just outright believes that they are always right then it's time to go. Of course in my case I always listen and I think any problem can be negotiated so I don't expect to have a divorce when I get married.

Shadowrun comments

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:49 THF:75 WAR:75 RNG:44 DRK:45

Well today I have decided to talk about Shadowrun and tell you which jobs should go with what abilities. I used to only play the Dwarf because I am a tarutaru in the game. But as it turns out it probably the hardest character to win with. He has a bunch of spots or essence. The other jobs have less essence but they are able to regenerate theirs. The dwarf automatically sucks other chararcters spots when in close range. This keeps other from teleporting away and keeps them from smoking up. Smoking is very useful for avoiding grenades and even for running faster if you are a troll.
There are four characters total, the troll, the dwarf, the elf, and the human.
Right off the bat you figure that the human is like the bland one of the group but actually he is the one best able to use techs. For the other characters, tech ablities use up spots but humans dont use any spots and have their magic regen. It's gonna be impossible to explain the game in any great measure so for today I will talk about the dwarf.
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The dwarf is not so slow as the troll but is much slower than the elf. He has more health but much less health than the troll. He is useful against trolls however because his spots are what keep the troll from dying, but without spots he takes a lot less hits to kill. The problem is how to get him close to the troll without the troll noticing soon enough.
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Smoke is very useful since it lasts a very long time and when you unsmoke, if someone is nearby you can literally re-smoke and keep evading. Because they are so full of spots, its possible for dwarfs to have almost 3 people resurrected so rez(as its called in the game) is useful moreso for dwarfs. Humans and Trolls only have enuf spots to rez one person so its better if the elf and dwarfs get rez.
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Still, unlike elves that can regen their health, dwarfs need a Tree of Life to get their health back. But they are very weak attackers if they get rez and tree as their first two abilities. But you have to choose which type of dwarf you are going to be. If you are going to be a rezzer then you need to get smoke first then rez and then teleport for evading attacks and keeping your attackers alive. If they kill you after you rez someone then they die too so its useless to be a rezzer and want to kill too cuz you just jeopardize your team. Naturally, what is fun in the game is to be a killer and not a rezzer and actually I have tried that before just to be a rezzer and help the team like a white mage but it really doesnt work. You have to stay on the prowl to be good at the game.

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As a dwarf, I like to get summoner first thing. People with pistols don't do well against summoner and since dwarfs can hold up to 3 beings, it is comparable to getting rez esp if your teammates are not so good at the game. The next thing I get is smoke. Even though tree of life is what gives you your health back and is perhaps more useful to getting you money for weapons, smoke is what saves me more times than not against grenades. It wasn't until I played troll that I realized how useful smoke is. Trolls dont die from many things but two grenades or 3 and they go down but a troll with smoke is like 3 times as tough to kill, esp since they can regen their spots and then re-smoke about a second or two later. It was during the inital grenade volleys that I got used to using smoke as a troll and with dwarf the same thing applies but even moreso when you have your allies near you trying to kill off someone trying to "kill the rezzer" which is so often the battle cry.

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The next thing I get is Smartlink. The elves are usually the ones that catch up to dwarf and kill him off and there nothing better against elves than Smartlink and an SMG(sub machine gun). But since SMN is so useful I don't use weapons till later when people start to get more ablities like Gust, which damages you when smoked, and Anti-magic generators which people use to steal the spots from trolls and kill summoned minions alike.

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Next is rez. Always you should try to get rez as soon as possible but for me if I have rez and a weapon I end up buying weapons the whole time and end up useless as a fighter. You can only have 3 items at the ready but I am able to special-select tree of life and rez so the first 3 on this list is what I use with the addition of teleport if the match lasts long enuf for that.

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My favorite weapon for the dwarf is the SMG but if a Gatling gun drops from a troll I will get that to use esp since dwarf can run pretty fast with heavy weapons due to their high strength. I dont use the gat except as a long range weapon since the dwarf has not a lot of health. Those elves are usuallly the ones that really get my goat due to their teleport spells which is really the most useful ablility in the game. That's why I use it as dwarf because I am so used to using it with other jobs that I have no trouble instituting it to the dwarf. It's not useful terribly for dwarf because he can use it maybe two times and he is out of magic or spots but like smoke, once you are used to it, it becomes almost second nature to hit it when the time comes which is usually as an escape tactic.

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The rifle is also a good weapon for dwarf because it is so useful against trolls. Most other char are so fast that rifle doesn't hit very often but with trolls, the rifle is optimal esp with the use of the auto 3 shot. Since elves and humans usually lay waste to dwarfs its often the troll that you will be used against. I try to use anti-magic also but that is another style entirely.

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The great thing about this game is that it is so challenging mentally. Your choice affects what you will be able to do for the upcoming round and that's the challenging part. If you get rez then no smoke for you, if you get teleport you might be stuck with the pistol until someone drops their weapon(if you really believe that a pistol vs SMG is a risk worth taking).

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It is a lot like FFXI in if you are a Galka, you will probably prefer troll, if you are tarutaru you will prob go for dwarf. The graphics are top-notch and prob what is great about it is that you have to take your time getting to know the areas so that you are not stuck in some corner when your foes arrive.

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If there is something that I would like for them to do to the game it would definitely be to add more characters without messin up the ones already there. It is about time for a sequel but I just know they are going to doof it up like they did Halo2 or Soulcalibur. Changing the abilities of characters people have painstakingly become adept at does NOT make the game better. "thot you knew".

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It would also be nice if they did some cinema cutscenes like in FFXI and added some quests like they did in Unreal Tourny 3. I would also like it if they added some more areas without getting rid of any of the existing areas. Once again the removal of people's expertise in certain areas really does a disservice to loyal fans. I even love the 1800magic skits and I think it would be nice to add them as a reward maybe as an unlockable feature.

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Still another style for dwarf is to give him strangle and anti-magic generators and gust. Nothing totally takes someone out like the one-two punch of strangle-grenade. Strangle is also useful for keeping ppl away from you and for slowing ppl down that are trying to escape with the artifact.

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Oh and definitely keep the same announcer, he sounds so tough when he shouts "artifact taken" that he shakes you out of apathy even if someone else is doing the most of the killing.

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They also need to up the strength of the servers and stop ppl from using Vista. I don't care what ppl think, there is some serious lag in the game and opting for Vista when ppl on xbox are strugglin with lag, puts you at a decent advantage.

Hohito is cracked

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:49 THF:75 WAR:75 RNG:44 DRK:45

I started to really miss singing Karaoke the other day and so I thought it would be fun to level BARD. I got him all the way to level 10 in no time flat. I even used the Bastokan Aketon which lokoed kinda weird with subligar but now at level 12 with slacks he looks like a player. Hah!
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Last night I talked to one my old friends and she said she was no longer involved with her husband. It has been so long since I wanted her and she has been married for so long and we have been friends for so long that it kind of feels weird to ask her out. she is like a sister to me, but deep down I know we would make a good couple. It's weird thinking of a girl like that and not just being excited by her. Truth is she is just normal looking and sexy sort of but when she hits those high notes in Karaoke and looks into my eyes from "way over there" I get lost in my head. Dreamland.

Well I leveled BRD so fast that I decided to go ahead with RDM also since it wouldn't take so long. The truth is that I have re-installed FFXI on 360 and am itching to try it out with my large LCD tv. It just sucks to type with the controller but it is easier in some respects. Macros are a necessity with 360 and it takes a long while to set that up.

I tried subbing SMN and it really was the bomb. BRD/SMN for levels 1-10 give you an extra hit no the mob and Carby doesn't diminsh to zero for some reason. Maybe it's the "Blood of the Vampyr" ability which is regen and refresh for people with signet. I am not sure why.

I sort of wanted to go out to the bar today but now it's late. I don't want to just play the game and I have to work early tomorrow but I still feel like I should try to go out.

It's funny because I don't have a whole lot of promise to getting promoted at work but my manager keeps instilling in me that maybe they need me up there. I mean HOW could I be promoted and I am so close to being in the can right now?

Still, it's nice to see people believing in me and smiling instead of being scared of me. Yesterday I showed up late to the bar cuz I was playing FFXI so much I lost track of time. I totally had a great time but now I wish I would have shown up sooner.

It's hard to take a break from FFXI crack, lol.

I have no idea

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:49 THF:75 WAR:75 RNG:44 DRK:45

I have updated the links to the left to allow you to now see a weaponskill chart. I have also added a weather link in case you like to see the map of the country and such.

Once in a while I like to use my BLM to nuke stuff just to find out how high my damage can be. I have recently started using BLM with DRK sub with the idea to become a decent enfeebler of monsters. For example, I could use Frost with Absorb-AGI or I could use Rasp with Blind or use Choke with Absorb-VIT. This not only allows my BLM to help melees in Dynamis but as it turns out, with the amt of skill given by the Relic gear for BLM, my Dark skill is up to 299 with DRK sub. I don't know if this makes sense but I believe that with a DRK sub my sleeping ability goes way up. I will have to test my theory in Dynamis as a sleeper one of these days. BLMS don't have the ability to Sleep like an RDM due to their lower enfeeble skill, but the spell Sleepga II is a more powerful spell than Sleepga which RDMs get for subbing BLM.
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Even better is the use of BLM as a sub for DRK cuz with my elem skill at max and dark skill at max, most of my spells stick on the monsters and I am able to triple with Rasp>Blind>Absorb-DEX for a Ninja tank and max evasion or I can do Bio>Drown>Absorb-STR for a Paladin tank and max dmg reduction. With my elemental skill merits maxed, I outdo all BLMs out there leveling up with me as DRK/BLM, nevermind my Ice potency max and my GSD skill being maxed.
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It sounds stupid doesn't it. I have no idea what I am talking about do I? Why doesn't he sub what normal people sub?!!
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My next project is to use RNG/BRD. You think?!!!

Where War goes, Whm follows

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:49 THF:75 WAR:75 RNG:44 DRK:39

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There is a lack of trust sometimes when I speak to customers esp with ones that repeat my name several times like I am some sort of demon with some true name. It is interesting to note that though some people use "handles" that let them repeat it to their hearts content, and still others like to use their full names in every sentence like as if only their first name is not sufficient to identify them. These people tend to be rich.

On other fronts, playing WAR is becoming more possible. I find that many people love to get into merit parties now and have even found more mages to boot. I also find that THF is more playable now. I love to take him to Nyzul Isle and play him against birds but honestly with Haste he is WAY too good for words. I cant use his WS with SA or TA as often as I would like and that makes it tougher to decide when to ws.

I tried THF/RNG 2 nights ago and I was a little plastered and we went to Nyzul Isle with this one guy that all of a sudden pulls out a Mandau and proceeds to go to town with like 1400 dmg from Mercy Stroke. I had a lousy time with it. He was even pulling and making me look bad. I didnt do too badly but I had on AGI gear and the /rng belt but for some reason I thought I would try Meat Mithkabobs.

This was horrible. I was missing like crazy and ws were not hitting; more esp my ranged attack was not hitting which was the main benefit of /rng. I was rueing the day and pretty soon I find myself coincidentally not able to SA the mob cuz the other thf had found a new hobby which was to make me miss SA as often as possible by pulling hate. I had never met this guy before and I would have booted him if I wasn't such a gimp for using meat with ranged attack. Later I tried to pull hate to get the birds to eat my food but I was totally unable to. When the food wore off, I switched to squid sushi and I was in heaven but just then the other thf ses brb 5min. Well I was wiser than to wait for him to make us all suffer for 15+ minutes or more like I had made them so I immediately said [disbanding party].

Next night I resolved to go with my /war since I had 2 merits in double attack and was all set to max out my DEX for max dmg. To my delight I found a BRD and RDM willing to pt. This is like the optimal pt for birds cuz BRD can sleep and RDM can Haste and that leaves all melee earning TP super fast without a lot of pull time in between. But then RDM ditched and we got SCH. This was fine since I had checked him out first for healing and he sed he was good. We had THF THF RNG NIN BRD SCH. We had been sitting there for a good hour with thf thf thf brd and could not find a nin and that is why rdm left, but eventually the thf changed to nin and just like that we were good and going to exp. One of the thf wanted me to get rid of brd so I told him w/e and sent him on his way but then he agreed to pt so I added him. He seemed a little weird and later that night he pulled a ridiculous mess of mamool ja and I wonder if it wasn't intentional.

I was totally doggin him with dmg tho. The Brd had put dual attack-up songs on us and with Berserk up and Warcry I was doing just as much dmg as the guy with Mandau. It was really just ridiculous. 1400 was one of them but I didn't record the top. As a matter of fact I think Mandau guy was hitting 1000+ far less consistently than I was, but that is thanks to the BRD.

I found myself loving /war and now I think I am just going to use /war from now on and forget about /rng for a while. It sucks since I earned the Shark Gun (using Imperial Points) for the sole purpose of using /rng with it but I will give it a rest for a while.

We got like 30k exp that night and I have about 1k left to get my 7th GSD merit for WAR after which I might start upping my double-attack merits to 5 and then maxing out my Savagery merits. Savagery has 2 merits on it now but the next one will cost 5 pts. Ouch.

I still have to max out Freeze II again since they upped the max recently but that also costs 5pts and I am slow to do it since I like using WAR.

I am thinking of using my WHM as a tank since I often find that one detail missing from my late night merit selection. Since I can Haste myself and heal myself and noone is probably going to take too many hits if I take them all, I find that the most important thing to that end is to find items for WHM without too much -enmity and spell interruption gear. I don't want to sound crazy but WHM/WAR works pretty good against Lesser Colibri esp with Flash and Provoke but it seems like overkill and since I haven't done 75 levels of tanking, I just know I am missing something important. I can't decide if Blink or Stoneskin is more important but I know I can't quick cast those spells during the fight while healing. I also wonder if /WAR provoke is more hate than WAR/ provoke. If it is less, then WAR/WHM will prob work better esp with all the +enmity gear out there. Sadly, the buttersheep doesn't get to use Flash which would really make him stand out and grab hate back from the rest of the hate pullers.

The hard part of /war tank is going to be to teach people to let me get into yellow so I can heal myself. The next hard thing is to get club up to max which is not TOO far off since it is at 210 or so but it is not going to hit very often without acc gear and without food against birds. I love to invent things and this is just another of my ideas since I think I know so much. I have that if I go with another war/nin and tank as war/whm, that it would be better for the sake of the party since I have so much skill with GSD that I would still hit enuf to keep +enmity effective and I could still use blink at the end of the round for at least a couple of shadows. Still I wonder if I should use evasion gear since it would useful due to have thf at 75 my evasion is maxed.

There is no hope from ash

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:49 THF:75 WAR:75 RNG:44 DRK:45

Ever since I can remember I have wanted to have a more successful experience online but I have found myself often outdone by people with more will. I am ever so rudimentarily taken sometimes by simple selfishness that I lose track of what really offensive behavior is. But I am old now. I no longer find anything so right or so wrong that I will complain endlessly. ` I think I understand that the greater good is not always my version of good.

I have taken some time to level DRK and I find myself very happy with my choice of subs. People are so taken aback by my choice of subs in my other jobs but I like the fact that I find it useful to do my thing my way.

Yesterday I was partying with a bunch of people and we literally were thre all day. I have my DRK now to level 45 and I wonder if that might be the next job to level to 75. I like SMN tho and since RNG is not too far off, I am half considering leveling all 3 jobs in 10 level increments.

Getting their AF for all 3 jobs could prove quite a bit of fun since there is so much of it to get. Matter of fact, I have yet to get any of the level 40 weapons for them and that might prove fun too.

I use DRK/BLM as my job for him. It sounds stupid until you realize that I have maxed merits in Elemental Magic. The skill therefore surpasses regular BLMs in elemental magic. I could basically sit there and nuke and do a better job. That is all fine and dandy too but I also have maxed GSD merits. So I usually take hate and tank most times towards the end of the fight. I like to get hate cuz it shows Im doin that right thing. I don't have +enmity or voke so if I am just nuking or doing ws and trashing the mob, then I know my sub ain't gimp. It's funny tho, cuz noone will invite me but when they do, hah! they all end up bowing.

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What is LOVE?

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:49 THF:75 WAR:75 RNG:44 DRK:39

Well I had a great time in Las Vegas but I managed to not sleep very much and drink a whole lot several days in a row which put me in bed for like a week. I have to say that I won't be doing that too soon.

The really best part of the trip was the Burlesque show. It was top-notch. I also got a kick out of this one place with a theater up on the sky that looked like it was showing on the sky or something but it has been a while since I went so now I forgot the name.

I have started to play SMN more now and it is nice to use it esp with Level sync parties and such but I still kind of miss WAR. I have him at 5 merits for GSD and I want to get him with 7 so that he will be up with my THF. I also think it is only right that I merit to max his double attack ability but I really don't play that much anymore. Most of the time I can't find mages when I search for ppl to merit with which is usually after 2am.

I have really dodged Dynamis of late because of various things but hopefully I can go Tuesday coming up. Friday I can't make it cuz I work until 2am.

I haven't played Campaign for a while and I just know my medal has expired. Darnit.

I have started playing The Last Remnant and it is a nice game but it is taking too long. The battle sequences are a bit chaotic. Sometimes you are involved and other times you are not. The commands don't include the majority of things you can do and you really have to play it for a long time to get a knack for what works and then it's good to start over. I am still on the first disk but since I haven't played it in the last couple of days I think I might put it down for a while. My XBOX overheated or something and now I have to send it back and have it repaired. I think it overheated but the tech staff probably don't like to use that word. I know it was terribly dusty. The fan that I bought for it was filthy. I think instead of voiding the warranty when you open it, there should an optional cleaning device sold because that or overheating, I think, are probably the major causes of breakdowns,

I have started to build a bar at my house and learn how to make drinks on my own. It works better than trying to learn piano again. I am oh so not musical nowadays. No piano and no karaoke has made me a very dull person but I find also that I am not so spastic either. I sometimes wonder if women were meant to be musical and men not so.

I am going to buy the new campaigns when they come out but I still haven't done all of the WOTG missions and I think it is just pointless to have more missions come out when the previous ones aren't finished yet.

I find myself in tough times with my bar friends. I really can't see them that much anymore and sometimes I wonder about their disposition towards me. Are they jealous that I have more money? Do they think that I think I am "too good" for them? Do they talk about me? Since I have only one person I want to be my rank 1 friend, aka my girlfriend, I have purposely not hooked up with my friends for days on end. I know how it will be and I will just be doing them a favor by not shafting them for my girl when the time comes. As it is, I see them once a week, my best friend once a week, and my sister once a week. I think that's useful without asking too much of them. Still, I sometimes shaft them just to play games.

I sometimes wonder if the games are what keep me sedated or if it's my friends or if it's my sister. They are all very exciting people. My bar friends can play poker till the sun comes up and we still would go on if it wasn't obvious ( aka. the SUN) we should stop. My best friend can talk forever about everything and we really chew the fat about everything. Sometimes I literally have to force him to hang up the phone cuz we will just keep on talking. My sister has like this huge house that I could get lost in and she often has parties with many people there that makes hanging out with her a whole lot of fun. FFXI takes forever to do anything and while we do stuff we talk about things to no end as long as noone offensive is chewing on someone else's "gimpness" which makes the game totally engrossing even if it is just to check the AH prices or to farm of to synth stuff. I even campaign sometimes and enjoy myself.

So what do I need a girl for?