Silent Hill sort of
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Holy shit, I have pages and pages of notes to use on this blog. I don't usually care about editing that much and frankly ever since my dad died, I don't do notes. But I feel that finger starting to point at me from somewhere so here goes a better blog than most.
One thing I learned from my time playing Dragon Age is that preachers and most holy people DO NOT BOW. In the game, I tried to bribe a preacher and she did it, I tried talking to her nice and she did it, I let Leliana talk to her and she did it. Remember when you had to try to get Sven out of that cage? You had to save your game like the many times you had before and try all different scenarios where you get to see if he will get released.
One thing that DOES NOT work, especially if you are a preacher, and didn't work on that lady in the game, is intimidation. I have seen it in many other games and I have felt not just a few people try to intimidate me but it doesn't work. Now this comes not because I was once in charge of $100,000 credit signing authority, it's not because once I had three of the best looking women in the bank all talking about me in close proximity to each other trying to vie for my attention RIGHT THERE in front of the whole call center, it's also not because of my ostensible faith, it's because I have(or used to have) people that depend on me. One thing that cannot happen to preachers or even for drug-dealers, is that they BOW to intimidation.
Remember I told you to FILL IN your house of cards? This is why.
It's important to note that, I am not a drug-dealer, and never have been. But because I respect people especially when I am in their "house" or "territory" and because of my missionary work, I have learned how people think in those places.
Now this is not to say I understood those things then. After I stopped going to the bar, years ago, I spent a lot of time decompiling trying to figure out who I offended and why this all happened and where it all started, etc. etc.
Wow, none of ALL OF THAT STUFF is in my notes so you know this is gonna be long.
It's all good. People will use that to justify attacking you. If people start to say It's all good or just playing or just joking or chill out, that's domination working. Real friends don't rile you up... therefore there is no need to CHILL OUT if you have good friends. It's possible I am too sensitive to these things, it's also possible that many "religious" types are too sensitive. Be that as it may, I do not do things with malice or malignment. Domination is as much an anathema to me as is trying out our new Dead Baby Floats... how do you make a dead baby float you ask? Really?
Now I will admit especially in earnest that I have not been as peaceful with my posts of late. There is not just a little anguish and cynicism over my father's death and I have been watching horror movies like Silent Hill, trying to understand how IT IS POSSIBLE for people to be cruel to their own people, ie. trying to understand where it started. And we will cover the movie also in this blog which means PAGES of stuff to go.
Insults can be useful. Not long ago I was talking with my preacher about cursewords. One guy would say dadgum it instead of using(GD it) the lord's name in vain and the preacher would still zing him for using a curse word. It doesn't matter if the word is the N word or not, it matters if in the process of putting that out into the physical world it occurred to you that this might hurt some people. You can't have forbidden words, and if we all agree that there SHOULD be forbidden words then there should be forbidden words like "communism" "nazi" "nigger" and "jew jugs" ... "bouncy bouncy jew jugs... baby got back... black black ~Black is the color of my true love's hair" ... what? This has nothing to do with Sarah Silverman... nothing.
I love Sarah, now just stop it and let me have this moment where I think she loves me back... there. Now it's gone.
Oh, so getting back to insults. People that ASSUME we're friends can get away with anything and by that point they say to you "just joking" "I didn't mean to say your girlfriend is fine" or "CHILL OUT I was gonna give you your wallet back." But life long friends are different. I used to play poker with some friends of mine and soon we were all stealing each other's money, hitting and even sleeping with each other's ex-girlfriends... mostly mine... and insulting each other albeit playfully. Once you're friends you know you pretty much don't have to worry about them wanting to hurt you and that's really the point of it right?
Ok, getting off track, do you remember Captain Jellico. "What a terrible captain", you think to yourself, HOW do people pick people like him for anything. Ryker gets offended that Jellico wants to use Picard, who was taken prisoner, as a negotiation tactic to keep the enemy out one of it's systems. Ryker of course disagrees and tells him "it's my duty to point out decisions that might be MISTAKES by my commanding officer, sir". Noone told him to HOWL this, but he has a point... though he didn't need to howl.
Picard is a great and wonderful captain all throughout the series but would he be useful in a war? Would he sacrifice one of his officers for a whole system or colony of people... doubtful yes? His ship is MORE important perhaps? Dunno, I will let you chew on that for a while. Jellico on the Enterprise is like Spock talking about Nixon going to China is like only a slimeball can negotiate with the enemy.
Please feel free to call me a slimeball at this time.
Ok, you can have an emotion of disdain, temporarily like liquor, but not hate. You remember what HATE is right? de TROy! Good, you are learning. The point of liquor is to go out and COME BACK to reality(like the prestige in the movie The Prestige), ie to appreciate how happy you are to be sane. To be weak and appreciate how strong you were. That's kind of the point of missionary work, yeah? Ok good now try not to BELIEVE that shit too much because then you would wanna screw the chief's daughter and they all love ya and whattayaknow you like the taste of human flesh... WHO KNEW!
Now again, I am not writing this for you guys. This blog is for people that wanna read at their heart's content AFTER I am dead or maybe I wanna remember these days when I am 80 (but not 85 because people DIE at 80, thems the RULES!) If I become a politician and they find this blog well I will have to do like Donald Trump did and just hope people understand the importance of privacy. In fact, it's a lesson he might be learning firsthand.
Ok, page 2, we can't change everybody. That's why when people go to the church you are at the preachers discretion. He is not going to change his message because Little Johnny likes to talk dirty and he likes dirty words and he needs to hear it like he likes it because what a great thing it would be to make Little Johnny convert to the preacher's religion. If you are in the preacher's house you do what HE says, period. Same goes for if we are in Mr. Obama's house or Obama's country. He is our leader and, whether we like him or not, our SYSTEM is more important than our personal feelings. Do you remember when Worf first had to deal with his wife? He asked NOT to work with the ambassador. And do you remember what Picard said to him?
And, do you realize people have started calling Trump, MR. Trump? And that we don't call Obama, MR. Obama? Weird.
It is my view that we should not tell people to stand up to evil. A preacher is a different story and certainly if I had people that depended on me, there would be a WHOLE NOTHER thing going on in this city now, but... it's just me; and it's my opinion that we should not tell people to stand up to evil. Evil, as I have said before is just a whole lot of people with different rules that ACT against you. They can have their rules, their language, and even their own mathematics(yes really this exists) AND still be good people, but the minute they ACT on you, that's evil. It is said in the Bible that the forces of evil are LEGION. That's because there are a WHOLE LOT of groups out there all with their own ideas and probably all trying to make money ever so slightly outside of the rules. So people should RUN from evil. RUN.
You should not be humble while boiling in a pot.
I'm not very grown up and all, but it occurs to me, that not many people know or have ANY IDEA what it's like... to boil in a pot. Turning the other cheek instills dominance and is the WRONG thing to do. Torture is infectious, and it must be avoided. To suffer for no reason and to allow that to happen to others(you shitbirds), is to ALTER reality. That HOLE is forming and things are warping around it. This part is in Silent Hill but I will get to the movie maybe soon.
I have tried eating an Oreo many different ways. I eat one cookie first then bite some filling. I have tried biting some cookie, then scrape some filling, then more cookie. Yesterday I bit into the cookie straight through for the first time I think then I wondered for a moment if I CAN'T do things the right way. I wonder, through doubt if possibly I am OFF center. I was eating a Big Mac recently and I turned it upside down and ate it that way. Why? Because that's where the sesame seeds are are, on the top. You can't taste them if you don't turn the sandwich upside down. Is that wrong? Is that OFF?
Remember that I am here to SHOW you what is wrong. I am not here to add a hole. I give you examples of when things went wrong for me, so that you avoid telling a cop that you can walk a straight line if he would let you. This is what it means to GROW UP is to add to society without being a part of the problem. Other people will say that to grow up is to be able to hunt, of course this lends to a reality where you should hunt what's available = outwit your fellow man = ok with Jesus.
And if I was Jesus I would say "good idea let's hunt him, let's become fishermen of men... and no, NOT outwit him" and then I would gong you on the head... "ROYAL earl of cheese, water of 10, skein of the rosary..."(Looney Tunes paraphrased). A fisherman of men CONVERTS men, it doesn't shake him for loose change.
Ok, I'll give you one example, a good one. I am in a bar standing on a chair. I was just dared by some guy to not drive so I showed him that I was fine. The truth is I was NOT fine. I did not take into account that rising up out of a chair and standing after you have been sitting there for hours might make you dizzy. At this point, I am dizzy and the bartender tells me to leave. What an asshole right? You can see that I am drunk and you want me out in the parking lot for some reason... so PEOPLE people advise him to call me a taxi... a thank you to those people. Out in the parking lot, after I "refused" to leave show up cop cars to handle me. WTF right? So they explain they called me a taxi and I go wait for it outside and one of the cops dares me to drive, so I counter that if I could pass his field test I should be allowed to drive and then he walks away. It may seem I was ornery but as you can see they weren't very nice to me. I didn't have any agenda or freakout, I was just sitting there and someone came over and thought I drank too much then decided to add poo to the world. This same cop "co-incidentally" is the one that is waiting for me at a drive-thru a week later at 10pm when virtually NOONE is driving around drunk but somehow he is there waiting for drunk people.
Yes, Joel I get it... ZIP IT!!
So I understand things much more than people that haven't tripped up, and frankly that was not a trip up, that was people ganging up on me because I wanted to speak truth and all they HEARD... was defiance.
Ok, so I am not trying to hurt people's feelings, please don't hurt mine.
People take more time when they care. I used to do outlines and notes for these blogs, now I just type it out and I don't edit it or outline it so much. Rand Paul used to say that Rachel was out to get him for exposing his plagiarism but the truth is... is plagiarism so wrong, I mean he is a really great speaker in his own way and it's hard to have, at least it is getting that way, a person that has a lot of money that WANTS to be in the public eye. Money is becoming more and more hidden and we are getting more and more PUPPETS. And yet he was willing to quit. I am sure it was not Rachel's intent to get him to quit. Should I quit this blog? Did I cause Alex to lose her job by being too "defiant" thereby making her defiant thereby making her followers "defiant". Is this our new word for allowing dominance is to stave off "defiance"?
An angel's company is worth far more than the wish he could grant you.
Remember this. It's hard and difficult to find people like you and soon you are at each other's throats over who uses the bathroom first but ALSO remember that the forces of evil are LEGION.
~Noone here beside you, now you're on your own. Noone there to guide you(like my dad), still your not alone... NOone is alOHne...~
"Witches can be right. Giants can be good. You decide what's right." If you understand this, you are ready to lead. You understand evil. You can CHANGE evil. Not quickly, obviously, but there is hope always, and that is the point, to be confused and not able to explain, but to have faith in the goodness of man.
Remember also that you will need a war chest. If you are young PLAN to be attacked when you get old. It will happen and you want a war chest. You will only need to make an example of one person but always ACT as though you have unlimited funds and that you could counter anyone at a moment's notice. Bet you're really confused now arentcha? Well, war chests get used up much faster if you attack first so if you have to worship money, at least do it right... ha ha Ha.
These notes and this blog is like the diary of Anne Frank. One day it will be valuable and after the apocolypse people will want to know what led UP to the apocolypse. You are perhaps wondering why must there BE an apocolypse, right? Well, that's why baseball is such a wonderful game because you have to go around the bases after you hit the ball. The game can't continue until someone HITS the ball. After a while, the players get tired, the audience gets tired, even the umpires get tired and mistakes happen... errors. And that's the point of life is to score the system. You risk, all the agents in place try to catch you RISKING it, and then you either win or lose based on how tired and experienced they are. Football and basketball assume people want to be on one side or the other but people should like baseball more so that they understand and can explain it to their kids.
You remember the movie Blast from the Past with Brendan Fraser and Alicia Silverberg right? And Christopher Walken? The son finally understands the apocolypse after he understands why the runner must go around the bases... "because he MUST."
~Ring around the rosey, a pocketfull of posies, ashes, ashes, we all fall down.~ (for kids)
So... Silent Hill. Are you all ready for the"expert critique"? The movie starts with the daughter, an orphan, starting to cry out silent hill and the mother trying to quiet her thoughts. The husband is very rich as he should be because Radha Mitchell is an EXCELLENT actress, especially in high definition... you will not be sorry to pause and play or slow motion this movie... what? That's EXPERT advice man!
So later we see her in the field with her daughter talking and contemplating visiting silent hill or better stated is to say they are deciding whether or not to "go there". When people say this it usually means "going to hell". You are deciding whether or not to fight it out which means you will enter hell and there will be lying and evil and fear, and people will ODDLY, not mind pulling up a chair to watch.
So the movie at this point separates. The mother and daughter leave without telling the husband who doesn't want them to go there. Then they decide to "go there" to Silent Hill. As they pull up to the outskirts they find a gas station. Strangely, a cop there hears the child being unruly (because some drawings have appeared that her alter ego made that she doesn't recognize) and decides to invade someone's privacy... It's strange but every time a cop dies in a movie if you pause and play and rewind you can see how straying from the rules got them, whatever(btw this should not happen to cops, I have said before that cops have a RIDICULOUS amount of power especially in their own city). Now this is not to say that the cop's death in the end is her fault, she was just curious, which is not unlike the nurse that was too curious that had nothing to do with the whole vengeance thing. I still have to watch it again to see if that is the case because I can't understand the nurse thing except that maybe there is no way to have a war without collateral damage. There might be more that I am missing but I can't spell it yet.
Now they get to the town and they dislike each other because the cop wanted to find out more or maybe warn her off of Silent Hill and the thanks she gets is to be disrespected... which is not unlike what happened between me and MY cop which was not my intention to disrespect him but ALL THESE OTHER THINGS had me on edge. So they are walking and they are in a gray area visiting, having already arrived in Silent Hill, and they are cut off from civilization as you can see by the lack of sky yes? No sky means you are in a bottle or a box. The radio cuts off or you get static indicating no connection to the outside world. They walk back to find a HUGE chasm, basically SHOWING them their reality. As they continue to walk they find these beings that spray stuff. They can't hurt you but they can poison you, much like people in TACO BELL can poison you... like I said... EXPERT critique. This way you can take damage but the image of the town still being vibrant and alive still exists for everyone else like it does for the Lieutenant and the husband that show up later but in color and with a sky, meaning that they are NOT bottled or cut off... yet.
So since she is a police officer she doesn't have to go find someone to BELIEVE HER that she was poisoned (like I had to) and she can just shoot the idiot which she does but which gives Radha Mitchell her chance to escape albeit with handcuffs now.
In this strange world, she is able to do the impossible which means she can move her cuffs to the front. I kept playing this over and over wondering what this scene was for ... maybe it was to show us she was somehow still in control of her reality at this point.
So off she goes to a bus route and she finds another edge of the world and finds Dahlia. Dahlia is not in charge. She speaks ubiquitous truths much like I do simply because she is this quintessential player in the grand scheme of things mostly due to who she is related to, which may have something to do with why she lives at Nathan Drugs. "Only the dark ones open and close the door to Silent Hill" she states as they ponder the extremity of the chasm before the two of them. Now you are gonna have to take mental note of this because you think that Dahlia is Alessa later in the movie because Alessa is grown up later in the movie but no, Dahlia is the main mother, the mother of Alessa. Radha or Rose is also a mother but she is the foster mother of ALESSA'S daughter, not Dahlia's daughter. Again, Alessa is Dahlia's daughter and Alessa's daughter is Sharon who also is the daughter of Rose who is the main character but who is only a foster mother. This part of the movie is really what makes it hard to watch because there are two girls, two mothers and different timelines messing with you. At this point, Sharon, who is Alessa's daughter, who is Radha's(the foster mother) daughter, is missing from the car and lost in Silent Hill. We find out later in the movie that Dahlia took her and hid her to protect her because she knew who she was, she was her granddaughter, but at this point the foster mother shows her the locket picture and gets Dahlia to scare her back to the car.
It's at this point that the foster mother finds the drawings all scrambled and re-drawn by Sharon's alter ego, the one that is telling her the past. This whole world is the past, a recounting of it by the daughter who heard of it from the mother or the nurse maybe and who now is planting clues in this "place" to show her what she came to Silent Hill to find out. So she finds a drawing of the school and follows the bus route to the school. It's there she goes down some stairs and finds a guy strung up still breathing but crucified. This guy is Colin, the guy that raped Alessa while she was still a girl. This is just the prelude so we see little hellish little girls screaming in anguish asking for help maybe the ones damned by Alessa later in the movie but really just terrifying the foster mother which causes her to run away and soon it is light again, with no monsters around since they never come during the day. The song Ring of Fire comes on and coincidentally plays to remind her that she is in hell... kind of like it used to often play at the bar whenever I walked in after a while. After a while of THAT, I liked to play Richard Marx' "Lord Have Mercy" song for some reason.
Chris is the husband and apparently he is money bags and drives a BMW and it appears that that is why he is allowed to live is because he has so much money. This is what I meant by war chest folks. If you have a bunch of money somewhere, witches won't come near you which is perhaps why they didn't used to bother me so much when I was rich. And you might think this is why I am poor is because I am too lazy but NO, I am not ALLOWED to get rich again, word to the wise. So Chris is talking to the mechanic who is too scared to go into Silent Hill because of the toxic fumes that will kill you if you breathe them despite the fact that he is smoking a cigarette which means... well it means mechanics know EVERYTHING about hell and know how to stay out and can point the way if you so choose, not the least of which comes across the point that they can be bribed with no problem.
So they wake up in a Bowling Alley which perhaps shows you where the moneyed people hang out that like to play Ring of Fire, then she goes to the Post Office following route 119 for some reason then she arrives at the school. There she finds a flashlight and learns of the part of the story of Alessa being called a witch. See at this point you can see how someone like ME can be called a witch by a group of people(ring around the rosie) except that witches don't come in SINGLES, only in groups. It's interesting to note that on the chalkboard the order of worship is God - Loyalty - Home - Country. This is exactly backwards. Country comes first. If God comes first then your preacher comes first and then loyalty to the preacher second means you are basically a slave and somewhere back there is your loyalty to family and then to the country. No, your loyalty or better your devotion should come to your country first and then to God and then to your family. And there should be NO loyalty. This is why I like SarahK and Bill Maher and Trump and Ann Coulter, is because they are not loyal, they are at the top of their ideologies. If they change their minds then that is fine but they are not LOYAL to the Republicans or to being Baptist or to I dunno, Scientology. Reality changes so it's important to be able to change with it. It's like I said before you must be able to hate your leaders, temporarily, while they adjust or YOU adjust. Obviously this doesn't mean a lack of loyalty is a good thing, it means country FIRST is all. Here at the school you find their symbol which means that the school is one of THEIR schools and perhaps that it is a PRIVATE school not a public school adding a specialness to the equation.
A recurring theme here is that the town was burnt by a coal fire but the overwhelming theme should be that it was the "underground" part of it that caused it to collapse. The cops father ran the barber shop and as we all know barber shops used to be a common place to spread gossip as perhaps it is done today with such places. If you have seen it several times the Lt. is talking to Chris, the husband, in the "sky" world and mentions that perhaps some of the people that died in the coal fire "deserved" it "a little bit". So here we see Chris pass Rose, the foster mother, in the same town and he can tell she has been there but can't find her and even though they are in the same place, Chris is wearing a mask, protected by the cop who is shielding him and who calls out to Rose to come to him but apparently she refuses to come to the cop or can't hear him until her purpose is done. In any case, they are in two different worlds, even though they are in the same town. Rose is getting followed at this point by some people in full body suits who carry a bird in a cage. This bird warns them of when Pyramid head and his minions will arrive with their darkness and power, so I guess it's a good idea to have birds. At the school she chases a girl that looks like her daughter and goes into the bathroom and gets led to a stall which is where Alessa was raped, we find out later, then there is this "colin" guy, a corpse, that has a message in his mouth. She takes it which is a key to a hotel room which directs her to the hotel next.
At this point, night falls and pyramid head shows up just in time since the men are about to get Rose but then finds out that pyramid head is not to friendly with ANYONE. She is rescued by the girl cop and she takes the cuffs off and they join forces against pyramid head who is locked out of a room but then they escape him for some reason when light comes back.
When they get to the hotel they find Anna who is a member of the church out on her own doing her own thing scavenging(probably because they are cut off like Cuba from the rest of the world) but hating Dahlia who was cast out. This is important because Anna now fills in the details of how the church thinks and their relationship to the town and to Dahlia. After they find the room, that Rose had the key to, they find a big hole in the wall that leads to a factory. In the factory they find Alessa or an alter-ego of her past self crying and then burning. We learn later that this factory is the place where they burned Alessa alive to rid themselves of Dahlia's child which had no father or which was someone "that we don't speak of" too important to point to. Their decision comes also at a time that she is being ostracized by society because of her "no-dad" status and because she becomes pregnant with the janitor's (Colin) baby which happened after the children didn't keep her safe or make her feel a welcomed part. The grill where she was burned is in the shape of the church's symbol which gives a clue to what happened.
Then nightfall again. Everyone runs to the church and since they are with Anna they are about to enter the church with her help but Dahlia is there to warn them to be careful what they choose and that evil wakes in vengeance at which point Anna gets IRED up and starts throwing rocks at her again.
This is important for you young people... DON'T believe everything. That's why we have laws so that there is PROOF of wrongdoing. You go off believing things, and you become a finger of death. Pyramidhead does NOT LIKE finger of death, I am here to tell you. So fast forward to pyramidhead picks up Anna, tears off all of her skin, and flings it at the church door as it closes. She is probably dead at this point...
So in the church, these people immediately file up to dislike the strangers but since the cop has a GUN, and fires off a shot, it's time to be civil, lol. AND... this is why we have guns. So now we get to speak to the preacher and she likes us and btw do you know our rules? lol. Now it's time to see the other side of the story. The church finds out that Rose is looking for her daughter and that they THINK they want to fight the demon and the cop wises up to the preacher and can tell that they are no match for reality, and that they must stay in this church to be safe so they plan to send her to the demon thereby getting rid of them. At this point we see the maps that were a major part of the game and she memorizes the way down and soon after the locket flies open with her daughter's picture on it, which is the exact image of Alessa, they attack them straight out and claim they were sent by the demon, which they know to be Alessa. The cop stays back to fight them and to make sure Rose can make it to the bottom in time before they stop the elevator. The cop is then forced to fight the church people and loses since she runs out of bullets. At this point, the preacher realizes that the daughter is an avatar which is why the mother is here and sniffs out Dahlia's foul purpose and that of her daughter and goes to her house and finds Sharon and takes her into custody. She plans to burn her but after she burns the girl cop.
Rose has to fight past nurses to make it to Alessa which is in a hospital and even though there is one nurse that is protecting Alessa it makes me think that this whole hospital doesn't want people to speak to Alessa... trying to think who this reminds me of.
So welcome to the truth and the whole story gets told. Alessa is found in a bed wrapped in bandages like the aeon figure Anima from Final Fantasy X. All of those people did this to her and now the "rest" want revenge but since they can't get into the church they can't have it. Now they talk to Rose and convince her to go back but with their blessing which means with their support. Now she is not evil and only wants to find her daughter but she is told that the Preacher means to burn her and so her purpose is made true.
At this point, we fast forward to they burn the cop and then begin proceedings to burn the daughter Sharon but they are interrupted by Rose. Rose is like the second coming. It can't happen unless enough people screw up, lol. So here they all are with there hands up each other's butt and the preacher hamhandedly tells them not only to burn the cop and the child for legitimate reasons that play into their fear, now she makes up some charges .. heresy... talking too loud... burn her for something... lol.
You see that is what happens to a star as it gets older. Common sense tells you that an explosion gets larger and larger and then fades out as the energy fades but that is not true of stars or lives things or organizations. One faulty leg and the structure FALLS on that leg with the weight of all the living things supported by it. Stars implode as do organizations with people in them. And if there is one thing that I can teach you with my sermon today is to watch out for that faulty leg. Watch out if you have faith in a system that has a hole in it, because the wages of sin is death. This means that what you get from adding a hole, is nothingness. Collapse. If you add killing people, like in the movie, or even hurting people to your organization... you just added a hole.
YOUR FAITH BRINGS DEATH!
PS. When I say religion or organization or the starship Enterprise, it's all the same, I mean gangs. Giants can be good. Remember that.
Also there are TWO reasons to watch Erin... one because you already like her and want to stay that way and the other because you are looking for Erin... see, that's my purpose is not to keep you liking her, my purpose is to help you FIND her... to shoo you in... happy to help.
Yes I know, confusing... are you happy you're reading this? Then good, you're learning, and hopefully I am charming you, now... as I tilt my head... lol, Imhotep... what?
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