Addiction to a zero

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The hardest thing to explain to a child is the concept of addiction.  She will not understand WHY it is you want him or her NOT to want, what they want.  The heart wants what it wants as they say.  As such it's almost impossible to put to words the feeling you get when you love a person.  I have spent a great many years NOT WILLING to say the words, I love you, even to someone I was sleeping with simply because she was not the end all and be all of my humanity.  She was not the one.  But why?  Who is this person that resets everything we know and how can we approach SUCH a person... with the intention of screwing it?  

What?  

So, to do this you must first delve into yourself.  Obviously, the first thing you will want to do is to imagine that person naked.  This is what they say to all people who have stage fright.  Imagine them naked.  In Erin's case I need to imagine her without makeup maybe and then maybe bald-headed with an eye patch, there ... NOW she's approachable, lol.  But seriously, that's what they tell you to be able to speak to people onstage is to imagine that they ALL feel shame because they are naked, thereby making you the one WITHOUT shame and therefore superior.  See that?  Now, this is way ahead of what my point is and that is to explain love and then explain our duty to people in this country.  Then we will explain what an addiction to zero is.  If you understand what addiction is, and you are trying to explain it to a child, you might start with something NEW like Praline Pecan ice cream or a Reese's peanut butter cup or maybe a nice drive at 100 mph or maybe 80mph, just enough to prove a point.  Once you like it, you can't stop liking it because now you KNOW you like it and now it's an option.  I don't like to make stuff forbidden but there IS stuff out there that is supposedly just that, even though curious people will STILL want to know why everyone is doing this forbidden stuff... like drugs and prostitution.  And once someone takes away what you know you like, there are going to be some bad feelings there now.  There is scorn.  That's why men, men like me, WAIT for a woman to make a move.  Now I don't mean they make a move like they walk over to me, I mean they give me the slightest indication that they are interested and then if I am not interested... it's not like I SCORNED them.  Women are not beholden to this logic btw, since most of them want the CONQUERING of them to take some time, which is really ridiculous I mean WHY so much ado when what will really matter is whether we talk and get along and find similar interests.  

Donald Trump did it best when he offered his number to many women, called a bunch of them up and then chose from ones that wanted a life with him.  I don't see anything wrong with that.  But he did LEARN from his first couples right?  Well, that's how I had to learn too.  I cared too much and then, well then I got a reputation perhaps of caring TOO MUCH.  So now people think it is my own fault that I am too afraid to walk up to women who show me no interest, but NO it is not that.  

Ok, so sidetracked.  So when you explain addiction you explain it as a bad thing.  People can take away what you like and now they are a drug-dealer, good job, you found the HUN ARMY, and now you are at their mercy.  You need their drugs and they give you drugs at their pleasure.  So word to the wise, watch what you like and NEVER like anything too much and always make sure everyone KNOWS you like whatever.  Addiction is abhorent and habits are like addiction.  I didn't realize this so I kept on drinking and driving and kept on "feeding the poor" by buying a lot of people shots and playing TV games at the bar.  I tried to keep to myself but I wanted people to feel welcome around me so I talked a lot, and oddly... SOME people at the bar... don't like to talk.  

Who KNEW!

Ok, so the point of that is to tell you that as you become addicted to the band, people will come around and say bad things about the band.  As you become addicted to the TV, people will come and change the channel.  As you start to have your ONE favorite drink, people will forget how to make it correctly.  

"How do you make a scotch and tonic with lime again?" 

In my mind this is shitty people but now with hindsight, I may have been provoking people with my addictions.  I also said I didn't like basketball once and whatdayaknow EVERYONE loves basketball all of a sudden.  People that are like me don't take hints because people like me don't believe in hatred or in territory or in other people's private business... OUT IN PUBLIC.  So don't expect me to react to some hint.  

Oh, so addiction is just that, you liking stuff too much which makes them want to interfere.  You ever think about public displays of affection(PDA)?  It's a public display of ADDICTION.  See that?  And this is abhorrent.  You are implying that others should be addicted not just to a woman but to YOUR woman, which is not a very nice thing to do to someone. 

And that is what addiction is but it's also what love is.  Love is addiction.  Love is the one addiction everyone is ok with.  It is not abhorrent and people already in love have no problem with PDA because they can empathize.  That is how you explain it to a child is that to be addicted to someone you must have sex with them but if you really want that to last or become all that it can be, you must BECOME addicted to them, before sex.  You must miss them when they are gone.  Remember that saying if you love something then set it free?  That's what that means is that if you miss each other, if you are both ADDICTED, then society welcomes your addiction.  Other people are then ok, with you being together.  They do not abhor you.  

Now being gay is an addiction also but in a much more chemical fashion.  You cannot forget sodomy and it is unhealthy and dangerous.  People know to stay away from burial mounds.  Why?  Because the germs that decompose flesh are there and they have no trouble decomposing LIVING flesh by mistake which is perhaps a good reason to stay away from the BAR!

Just saying.  

But also your feces is perhaps the most radioactive food there is to these germs.  That smell is not just for show.  You are in danger of those germs if you smell the fumes and indeed the very FUMES are dangerous.  Small wonder that messing with your anus, your "dirty" anus, can spell disaster.  

Trust me on this.  

But there is a good side.  Just like messing with heroin(very addictive), which I don't know anything about or with sleeping medication that can kill you(Michael Jackson) or with orgasms while stangling yourself(David Carradine/Bill), there is a reward for OUTRAGEOUS behavior that really makes no sense to someone that simply has some sex and gets all of that out of their system with their spouse.  

Masterbation and porn is this.  It's legal just like being gay is legal.  But this addiction, this WEIRD addiction, can be abhorrent.  You wouldn't do this stuff or talk about this in public.  The public, once it finds out, will not softly applaud your "interesting view" on orgasms.  And if you think about explaining this to a child that THIS is how it should be.  It's just stupid.  And if you have ever been just about to masterbate and you are bothered and looking for stuff and trying to figure out WHERE is that lotion and ice and thingamajig and then promised yourself you will do it THREE times this time and then gave up after your first orgasm.  Then you understand what stupid is.  EVERYONE married isn't running around looking for their favorite porn or for their favorite item to use or for the remote control that just got lost JUST when you wanted to MUTE it... everyone ELSE is happily married, addicted to their spouse that doesn't make them look like a rabid dog when they get horny.  Gay people can't wait long enough to get a girl horny so they "wait" for a guy which a lot more like NOT having to wait.  And why should you.  Addiction is a serious thing.  Addiction is madness.  It's no small wonder that you should NEVER stream porn.  Someone could make you crazy and control you.  Word to the wise.  Btw, I have gotten rid of all porn in my house.  But someone has interrupted my porn in the past and since this streaming is new, I warn you that it is dangerous and MUST be controlled.  

Oh right, Muslims. 

Well, I was wondering why the church was not praying for all those poor people that died and it occurred to me that they don't like the gays.  If there is ANY exclusion of people, I cannot be a part of it.  And this has nothing to do with Islam it has to do with prejudice.  Now as I have explained addiction is abhorrent.  It's no small matter to a church and to a society, to control addiction.  It is madness, as I have spelled it out for you here, but you cannot exclude your own people.  I can't say I love the gays because I am not gay though I have strange tendencies, and yet it still does not make me mad, I don't allow that, but I have to wonder if those people are getting treated like I am, like THROWAWAY people.  Maybe I can't see it.  I know there is a math there and that at the center of the country, where serious people discuss the fate of others without blinking in a boardroom of their peers, that the powers that be will include only the most trusted and the most sane and the most loyal, with power, but is it MATH?  Are gays being excluded because of this "proclivity"?  

I am of two minds.  I BELIEVE in telling our children everything good and then, once they are old enough, letting them choose and risk to their hearts content, but SHOULD I warn them off about gay people.  We can be soft about undocumented people or illegals but we ARE being soft.  They don't have A RIGHT to be here.  Is it the same for gays?  Sodomy IS dangerous and addiction WILL happen and once it does that person will NOT want women again and the country will not have children and MORE and more people will not want to have children which is a danger except when you think about people addicted to money who ALSO don't want to have children... lol.  Because just like the kid explained to his dad who wanted to learn how to play SIM CITY, "don't have a kid because all they do is EAT!"  

Such are the dangers.  And sadly the rich people in power ALWAYS seem to have money and don't have any children.  Oh ok so now I am getting to Donald Trump and why we need him as president.  Have you heard of ... wait did I finish my point up there?  Yeah ok , addiction to a zero.  Masterbation and porn are addiction to a zero.  Gay people are close but not as bad since technically they MIGHT be in love but as you can see now, only the women are in love really... the men are changing partners ALL OVER the place, lol.  But you can see how that environment allows women to be as casual about their affairs nearby without the fear of someone ADDICTED to them or CARING TOO MUCH.  As before yes?  Like Trump in his early years?  Like me?  

Boy, you are learning all kinds of things today aren't you?  

Ok so why do we need Trump.  Well, we need Billionaires.  Have you ever heard of the game The Horde?  It was a 3DO game that allowed you to build stuff much like Civilization Revolution but was much more simple.  The towns came pre made and you have to build walls and fund knights and employ all manner of expenditures to stave off the horde of demons and keep your city alive.  It's good training tool too if you ever want to run the world... what?  So in the game there is this dragon that you can hire.  You might think OH BOY hire the dragon! Yeah, you think it would be a good idea except that when he breathes fire he doesn't just breathe fire on the enemy... he breathes a big long line of fire.  As you might guess, this tends to get a whole lot of hordelings if they are all bunched up together out in the wild but if you use him in your city... SPLOOSH... there go some civilians, there go some houses, there goes the wall.  So that's why we need Trump.  Because of the wall?  No, because of that saying that came with the dragon whose name was Mongo or something.... it read... 

Mongo, he might be a moron, but he's OUR moron.  

And that's billionaires.  They are morons.  They don't get it when it comes to religion and equality and laws and rules... and they don't have to.  What we need is a dragon on our side.  What's the first thing that happened once this influx of technology and computers occurred.  We got hackers.  People speaking for you online, messing up your reputation online, even buying things for you and making your life complicated all because of this misplaced trust in society in general.  And what was the solution to this?  What was the solution to hackers?  What IS the solution to hackers?  We need hackers on OUR side.  

See that? We need Snowden back.  We don't need him to come back and get forgiven and get put in mental facility... we need him to TRAIN the future NSA.  We need OUR moron to fight the morons.  We need our moron Alex Wagner, to fight the morons.  We need our Billionaire to fight the billionaires.  We need our Jesus to fight the Jeezuses.  In all things we don't understand, like places where no man has gone before(Star Trek) we need our Kirk(Scottish for church) and we need our PAIN.  

Now, "Kirk to Enterprise."

PS: Well... I was gonna end it there but I forgot to mention our duty.  We have a duty to leave each other alone.  Muslims can hate gays to their heart's content.  You can hate ME to your hearts content.   But we are all STILL a society.  We all can insult each other BECAUSE we share the same laws.  Do you understand?  Because an understanding... IS THE POINT of the Constitution.  I can drive drunk, stick a thingamajig somewhere, say increasingly exponential things about the inverse approximation of a Riemann Sum and I still can't be put in jail because we all have an UNDERSTANDING.  That is what manners are.  That is what they call RULES of engagement.  Once you lose that, you have chaos.  Now I have mentioned before that I have SPARED many people from my wrath because I did not want to fight.  That doesn't mean that I can't, it means that I DIDN'T.  What... was my point?  Oh, so we all have a duty to leave each other alone.  Every person is holy.  Remember the Indian giving Wesley Crusher advice?  "YOU are a holy person, Wesley."  In the fight to help everyone else(Christians) we sometimes forget we have REAL needs that only SOME selfishness can cure.  Everyone deserves respect, until they lose it.  Anything less than that and we don't have an understanding anymore... and that shouldn't happen.  

You know when I was arrested for DUI(after police report said of being asked to leave 3 times which I remember NOT being asked once). it reminded me of the movie The Edge, where the billionaire gets asked why he doesn't just sick his lawyer on the bear, to which he replies, "no, uh... I wouldn't do that to an animal".  I say that to myself nowadays, remembering how I spared SO MANY people...  a lawsuit.  I even told this to my father on his deathbed, that he should be proud of me and of how I suffered, so that others wouldn't have to. 

Oh and one final thing, religion is a LOVE of society.  Be careful with that.