Cake

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After seeing the movie Cake a second time I got more of the gist to the story.  It was funny at first but then it got more serious.  It's nice to see that plenty of people everywhere experience trauma in some form or another.  

At the end there is this part where she sits up and exhales and this second time watching it I finally understood that the whole time the whole movie was about her denial of her son being dead.  It was about repression.  It resonated with me in a lot of ways.  

She is a great actress.  It's funny because like SarahK she is proof to me that there is STILL somebody good-looking enough with no children that I could STILL maybe get with, to have children, even if those chances are few to none. 

Remember Dumb and Dumber... "so there's a chance?!!!"  lol. 

I was reading recently in the news that some guy flagged down a cop with his arm wrapped in a towel and was then shot 4 times by the feral cop.  What the hell are you doing in law enforcement?  You have to ask yourself that.  If you don't trust your buddies or your community or people asking for help, WHY are you out in public making yourself a target?  Y0u should be holed up in a trailer somewhere or back at the station dispatching or processing forms.  There's plenty of work out there for honest cops that are afraid of people, without giving those cops GUNS.  

How can you expect people to believe in their city when people are getting shot by police?  

Ok, well enough about cops.  They have enough to worry about without suddenly believing people "out there" are against them.  

In other news, I have to decide how to spend my slightly saved up money.  I want to go see a movie since I haven't gone out in a while but I also have some projects I want to get done.  

Ok well not a large story today.  Maybe I will add to it later.  I'm trying to guess the meaning of the title now.  Maybe it's like you can't have your cake and eat it too.  Like since her son was killed she was in mourning seeking attention from everyone and yet while collecting all of this good will from people that were trying to help her recover, she was denying herself the injury.  She was keeping herself sick, perhaps languishing in the pleasure of all the attention.  All this help that was supposed to help her get well, has instead become like a drug.  Something she depends on regularly, instead of something temporary.  She can't have it both ways right?  She can't want to get better and keep everyone around her sad and burdened with her needs, that she should be taking care of herself.  

Maybe this movie is not just a little, like my life right now.  

Oh and that reminds me of the confederate flag.  You can't have your cake and eat it too means you can't tell that youngster that he was wrong about supremacy and take down the flag that is causing all of this mischief, and deny that this guy used that symbolism to commit mass murder.  That somehow in part, this "allowed" racism wasn't a part of his thinking and that he did all of that on his own.  

More importantly, heritage is a huge part of how we continue to exist successfully.  If we allowed Israel to bury everything about the Nazis and say whatever they want about the Nazis, we would actually believe that Hitler was an anti-christ that was just born evil and was propped up by satanists that 'popped" up out of nowhere to railroad him into the dictatorship of the most powerful country in the world.  Is that what we want?  Do we want to believe in "strangely evil" people?  Or do we want reasons, and history, and memorials and the truth? 

Don't allow black people to start up their cause, black power, so that they can check off those boxes that make them something OTHER than fellow citizens.  Don't allow ISRAEL to check off Jews as persecuted and separate from the rest of the world, they are not.  Don't allow a divide.  FOCUS on history... don't destroy it.  

Hold that thought... ok now imagine the Bible is no longer true and is forgotten... there how you feel now, enlightened yes?  Do you feel free of a lot of anguish and pain?  Free of the anguish and pain of a whole lot of people?  They ALL died so that you wouldn't have to.  Remember that.  History is not about plugging your brain with reasons NOT to fight, it's giving you the examples of what happened that CAUSED us to fight.  And those reasons happen over and over, unless we wash it(brainwash it) all clean and now there never was a fight and POOF, fights can't happen... YAY! 

PS. Ok, now the rebuttle.  If there is some secret Freemason/secret- ish society that keeps checking off boxes that make them all reconcile their "whiteness" then drive past the flag to re-assert their belief in that... THEN I want the flag GONE!!! I believe there are plenty of secret societies and these subtle symbols, like the thief marks in Skyrim, are not just slightly backdrops for a cause.  So if they can pull that out of that guy, that he and his family are in some "cause" then it's gotta be stopped.  

This is my least favorite life" is playing in my head now.  It's from True Detective.  I like melancholy shows.  They are like Stain or Nickelback.  They make you think your life is sad and pointless much like alcohol dulls your senses.  All music in nightclubs are like that and like Alanis or like Jen said about Billy Joel... "that's enough honesty" which actually is NOT honesty which was like her life as a lawyer.  In reality, after the show or song is over, you are supposed to quickly go back to being normal.  These "drugs" are supposed to be temporary.