The earth is a swirl

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The earth is a swirl. 

Cinderella.  What a curious name Cinderella, a form of cinder isn't it? It's like that old kid's poem, ashes... ashes... we all fall down.  It seems like if you are tortured enough, like Cinderella, then she can make wishes to make up for it.  Question is, what to wish for?

I have been watching old youtubes of Into the Woods and in the movie she asks the tree to go to the ball and meet her prince and she can talk to birds which means she is someone special but she doesn't know it.  In the end, she realizes she didn't have it so bad in the first place.  Her wishes came at a cost... a huge cost... and isn't that always the way with wishes?  She even says later that there are times when she actually ENJOYS cleaning/torture.  Well then WHY did we have to go through this whole movie?!!! 

(smile)

I have the same problem.  Do I wish for my old job doing Customer Service?  I was kinda tired of doing customer service and I wanted a leadership role and I was seeing a lot of problems at the bar.  Do I want to become a policeman?  I have actually not been very good at keeping my word and I fear despite my good intentions, I might not be able to pay the bills on time, if you get my meaning.  Do I want my father back?  I can see that's impossible.  Do I want to BE a father or do I want a "replacement father"?  Well, I can see also that I will never love someone like I loved him and to BE a father... well, that seems like a LOT of work.  Do I want my DUI removed which was "planted" on me despite measures I took to prevent it?  I am not sure, again, a LOT of work. 

All of these "wishes" and still I can see by the movie like I can in my head when I think about it, that it would come at a cost.  Wishes are not free.  Still, I know that I am simply low energy and by that measure I know that my energy is being siphoned and by that measure I know that it must stop and that I can stop it at any time by simply fighting back. 

It reminds me of the hurricanes we just had.  For posterity I will name them.  The first was Matthew which hit Houston.  The next was Irma which made its way here and pushed over the tree that in an odd way, represented my father on the tree line(5 trees missing the huge one right in the middle).  Then we have Jose which was going towards New York and then we have or had Maria which hit Puerto Rico.  ALL THE WHILE the hurricanes are coming and hitting places, I thought to myself of Sucker Punch and the lessons of it but the most hilarious quote of the movie that I thought of was the final line of the movie "you have all the weapons you need, now fight", lol.  Yes, FIGHT the hurricanes, you bawdy people!!!

And then the actual moral of the movie became clear, you can't fight and win, you can only fight and... entertain.  The world is a swirl.  Size matters and usually size wins.  Once it's done it's done.  Can't go back in time unless you are reading a picture book of future events and you change them. 

Many people think the earth is flat, they doubt our scientists that think the earth is round... as well they should.  Scientists are first and foremost human and the first duty is to the truth so scientists as humans know that their first duty is also... no wait, it's to their belly.   Yeah, the old "kids gotta eat" line will probably be etched somewhere as a quote of the ages.  Kids gotta eat... I kinda wanna change the title now.  Kids don't know what they are doing.   They are not "human" yet. 

To be human, is to be. To be or not be, which means for those that don't know... to be sane or not to be sane. Cogito ergo sum, I think, ergo I am.  See?  So to be sane, you must be able to choose, and that's where we are with the mess about the national anthem. 

The nation is going through a tough time now deciding whether or not to stand for the national anthem.  I don't have to tell you that music is foremost the BEST way to calm the beast.  People do it in many ways, you see.  Some of them use religion to "explain" things, others use laws to "define" things, and still others use family and bloodlines to "impose" order and your "place" among others.  But always when we go crazy we can count on music to calm us down.  You understand what music IS don't you?  It is ying-yang.  It is confusion.  It takes what you were thinking and through musical notes it makes it seem like a NEW understanding is being made and this HOPE continues and you add more and more music and soon you have... a national anthem.  It's all about the country folks, one law one land one people one language, it's not hard. 

I suppose this is a good time to tell you all that I am a Nazi, I mean Yahtzee! Something we can all agree on is that our constitution is paramount.  Without it, we have THIS GUY(two thumbs) telling you how to act and by the way I am right about this and you ARE better off doing as I say because ~you'll neva find... another love LIKE mine... someone to HOLD YOU... the way I do...~ Of course, first you have to like me and I'm pretty sure that's not happenin. 

Nazi's were all about the law first.  That's what I am about.  Germany first... I mean, America first... I mean Petrie dish(thanks Sarah).  But once we take the boring news and the boring movement to unite the WORLD that really doesn't need uniting,  we are gonna need something SPECIAL right?  Let's call it "righteousness"  boy does that feel good... let's imagine for a moment we are watching the news and Sarah and her buxom breasts show up to give an interview and she totally can't tell what we are looking at, even though she DRESSED that way; I mean just cuz her dark hair and eyes and pretty smile sort of OUTLINE her whiteness and accent her upper breast regions, and this coupled with fine clothing and stringy arms and fingers that could perhaps crook their fingers "this way"... don't make the news any more worth watching... AT ALL. 

That's ying-yang, boring laws and news (white ying) buxom breasts and righteousness (black yang)  and that's what the world is, it's ying yang, it's music, it's a swirl.  The more you want order and follow it the more we become weak to infection and become overall weak; the more we enjoy what we do, the more we lose control of what we do... and pretty soon we have people skipping having children to DO MORE WOMEN... MORE OFTEN... I am totally against this by the way... this is a TERRIBLE idea...

Ok, there go my ideas for the month.  Remember discretely that a CLEAR sense of the truth is to know there isn't one and that the wisest thing to say is "I don't know"... and to understand why that is wise is to understand it like I have explained it for you here.  If you are too soft you become a slave and if you are too hard then you must KILL your master or you might even end up owning slaves!  Aren't you just happy giddy reading this?  Well, try not to think of me as a hellspawn for TOO MUCH longer... 

This is part of my diamond-ness, you see?  I am a diamond in the rough.  Only someone that has been to hell and back can understand the world, and hell does not want you to leave and you will not want to leave it but if you can DEIGN to believe in greatness... that you are great... you will take these words... and make the world a better place simply by calming yourself and responding to threats with slowness and a sense of wrath that INCLUDES everyone in the equation, and not just yourself. 

I am missing something but I'm already tired again.   I am noticing that the church I go to has become increasingly distant but that's ok I guess.  Twitter is less interesting and Erin ... oops I totally forgot to talk about Erin.  I am so TOTALLY cheating on her with SECupp that it's awful... that's a joke of course.  But after a good show with Erin I turn on SECupp's show and you know what that reminds me that I first started to like Erin's "show" because she came on after Crossfire and the reason I turned on Crossfire was because of SECupp, so... fair is fair I guess.  By the way, I would totally watch Ashleigh Banfield's show too but all these times I have forgotten to record it and I kinda sit there and then the message comes on that the recording of SECupp's show is over, so meh.  It's a lot of news already and actually once in a while late at night I catch Rachel and Lawrence and sometimes Chris Hayes but ... again it's a lotta news. 

I have to keep going to church.  I need to fight back and to do that I will have to keep going there and showing my face.  When I was by myself with my dad, I had TORRENTS of people over the years annoying me everywhere I went but now with just going to church those "shadows" stop showing up but if the people at church are going to hurt my feelings like they just recently did,  I'm not going to trust them and getting that trust back ... well, let's just say ... I do things slow, REALLY slow ... I am a farmer ... I grow things and you know that's all there is in the world ... farmers and reapers.

You can either grow things, or you can steal or buy or REAP, what other people grow.  Growing things is slow. 

PS: you can see by this that Nazis' are simply white supremacists gone mad with righteousness.  They start pointing(remember finger of death?) at people that are not "white" and suddenly the country is FILLED with illegals and even if it is (like us), the first sin they made was to think SACRIFICE was normal, and we have talked about that... haven't we...