October 2018

BLM WHM SMN SCH THF RNG BRD MNK WAR DRK PLD > 99

Hazard

Anyone know who this is?  I am SO embarrassed now but I'm kind of over it, but I LOVE it that I get SO embarrassed because it means I still feel something. 

This month I remember writing a big long thing that explained the song Hazard.  The song implies that the singer is a psychotic killer who killed "Mary" and so the police ask him where the body is and he can't remember doing it.  I explained that this is totally wrong.  I said that the truth is that Mary was a whore and that she was hazardous.  You know when they mention that whoring is the world's oldest profession, they aren't saying that the practice is dead and gone.  If you are like ME you think to yourself well those things are in other countries, the LESS civilized countries, and besides WE have porn and that helps keep people from doing illegal things, right?  Well, I don't think so and in that vain I explained that the "psychotic" was set up to fall and that the "river" is basically a change in the culture that all believes the WRONG thing about him and he is taken away.  So if this was say about a PERSON that was being "taken" it might mean that a WHOLE LOT of people believe the wrong thing, like a DEATH, and that somewhere that whore is still whoring in another city... and lo' and behold this boy that has "something not right" gets put in jail because people don't like him.  

Ok, so enough about Hazard and Richard Marx.  Wait no, he's done nothing wrong... PLEASE don't take him away, lol... but like Careless Whisper, I think there is NO WAY a 17 year old wrote that song without help.  It's too perfect.  But that's my opinion.  

This is the very last month that I spend relatively happy(which was nothing compared to a few months prior, wink wink).  Keep in mind that at this time I am getting weekly "floggings" from the church lady and every time I want to go outside and "relax" with a cigarette I get to meet my wonderful neighbor that seems to always be out there when I'm out there, but my sister totally blasted my psyche down to a lower level, one that I didn't think was possible.  I will say more on that later.  

Ok that's enough for now, next month my sister moves in and I explain what happened. 

PS. I'm noticing now that I have no pictures for October so that means I spent most of the month doing nothing but preparing the room and NOT playing the game, but it does look like I started playing again in May and June of 2019.