Dr Jones is jonesin'

BLM:90 WHM:90 SMN:90 THF:90 WAR:90 DRK:90 RNG:90 PLD:90

Well the level cap was raised this past month to 95 and I have a new Level break quest to finish if I want to get to 95. Trouble is I don't really want to get to 95.

It's amazing sometimes that I can think of so much to do when I am outside but now that I am here and typing, I can't think of what to write about.

Oh I saw a couple of movies and thought that I would change my Gillian to someone else but nah. I am starting to like Neve Campbell and I even started watching Sarah Silverman for a while but EW! She acts so gross I actually have to catch my breath sometimes. Watching that show is like seeing retards in porn. Your watching it, you don't like it, but you kind of have to see how it ends, plus everyone else thinks its funny so...

The other day I was thinking things are binary and stuff and then it occurred to me that things are actually more stable in 3s or 6s. The most stable structure is and equilateral triangle right? So I believe the next World Trade Center should be a pyramid. The only thing I wonder about thought is whether the bottom should be a square or not. I mean we know that 2 dimensionally the triangle is stronger than a square and that you can't have a structure with only aline but what about the bottom? Should it be like a mall area down there or should we hold to the strongest structure theory? Even so, it's not like we could just forego the concrete and make it out of marble so divining some great stucture is basically just a dream.

I wonder if that's what I have been doing all my life, dreaming. Putting off the really hard fight for when I am good and ready. Am I good and ready now with my too-old lungs and too-old stomach and too-old bank account that has no money? Heh.

I keep saying that I am going to get my Ph'd but I dunno. My eyesight is not what it used to be and I wonder if people are too smart for me now and I wonder if my presence might compete with the younger professors of the school who really believe and know their material and what they are teaching. Still, I have my old professor teaching my favorite subject and even though she gave me a D that I didn't earn, that tells me she liked me!

It's funny how most people react to my presence not with accolades like my brother and sister do but with "here's the scar to let you know I was in your life!" Bam! Do I really earn people's ire so well? People have been scarring up my life pretty badly from my car to my television to my computers. I used to get harassed everywhere from work to the bar to the game and even at the movie theater. I used to wonder if I was so special and had done so much wrong that really I had deserved this ire from the general populace.

But I don't think so now. I realize that people just pick on weaker people and if I am walking around with a big target then people gonna walk by and pluck that everyready battery from my shoulder. Strangely, the philosophy of it is that noone should think they are special which brings me to my reason for writing today.

People should be either for more government (Democrats) or less government(conservatives). This means what exactly? Well it means how hard do you believe you should work. And this is the trick question because you think that it's easy to answer but wait for a moment. Should you cheat? Because you know cheating is work too. People have been cheating me a great deal and I could take this to mean that I should be cheating them back because oh well that's society. But what if cheating is work? What is it's ok to cheat on your wife as long as you do the work that it takes to keep it a secret? So what if you are drinking and driving if you are taking the steps needed to keep it safe? So what if you are committing crimes as long as all of it is under control?

You see that is what I was saying a couple of years ago about legalizing marijuana. You could make it legal but the fun of it will be gone. Sure we could make doctors prescribe it but from what I understand doctors don't really KNOW what marijuana is? That's whats so screwy about the whole profession. I realize that we are paying them beau coup dollars to know what is wrong with us but I wager that they don't KNOW even 50% of what could go wrong with us... never mind putting them in charge of pot or cocaine or whatever.

More disturbing is what becomes of society then? After we legalize the drugs we don't know about and allow prostitution and heroine or whatever, what then?!

There is a battle going on with right and wrong, sounds so much better than good and evil btw, and wrong is usually right. I mean the only real evil is pain and even that is a matter of perspective. I mean how do you put a leash on pain when teens are paying people to pierce them?

For one reason or another the constitution gave us the right to bear arms but why? Well for one thing there used to be a lot of bears out there but mainly the reason for that I think is that we as commoners have the right to overthrow our leaders when they become tyrants, and that becomes impossible if only the leaders have the guns. This is what control is. To control us they must take away our weapons and take away our swords (our mind's blade of righteousness) and then we become the sheep Jesus spoke about.

My professor used to believe and teach that the environmental ethics of the world disallow us to feel good about eating meat. In the trials of the trooghaft, if I remember the title, some people are ok to eat and some are not but people are of slightly different species in the story so its easy to make the distincition but at the same time it justifies racism. It's an amazing story and it ends with the everything tastes better with BBQ sauce mentality. But I argued that how can we exercise such an ethics when all the world does not have that luxury, that luxury of an ethic.

It's by the same token that we cannot give up our right to bear arms and "trust" our government. I am of two minds when it comes to government because I know that it is only finally after the whole world is under ONE government that we can all give up our guns and put our trust in the government. At the same time, it is only with several governments in existence that we can choose the more charming governemnt.

So the world is lost not on right and wrong but in its ability to choose. A friend of mine said that to me once, that I must choose my path, my path to be his friend. I have not regretted that friendship or any of those good times. It was then that I realized he was a very wise man and a good person imo.

So to have an ability to choose we must have 3 sides.

Rock-paper-scissors.

The people that believe the religion, the people that rebel against it, and the people that use it to like food for the spirit.

You must choose, but choose wisely. For even though the cup of Christ brings everlasting life the wrong cup brings eternal death. This is from the third movie from Indiana Jones. Indiana is trying to choose the right cup and picks the cup of the carpenter because Jesus' father was a carpenter, a simple man. A simple life in fact does bring plenty of happiness. But you can choose the rich cup, the cup of kings as the other character put it and you saw what happened to him. But is it so bad? I mean you might not be happy but you're rich! You win! Hahahahaha! Anyways, the point is happiness is different to different people.

There is another option, yes the lesson here is... you could let you father die. Yah... Not fighting is always the third option. It's the page from the bartender's book of axioms, "don't start no trouble there won't be no trouble". But it's not always true is it?

Still paper is one of the choices. Not scissors like many lawyers would think, not rock like many cavemen would think, but paper. Yes paper, like many married-you-wanna? types would think.