Unwinnable

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After this blog you will know how to self-psychoanalyze.  It's perhaps my best blog.  I guess I should mention Joel first and get him out of the way.  He is awesome.  Sometimes I am reticent to tune in because I might not like him or something but one thing I CAN tell more than others is that he is truly humble and at the same time grand and at the same time, trying his best to be funny, lol.  And he's getting better at it, lol.  No Joel I don't want to "get my own stage" lol but that was hilarious man.  WTheck would I do with huge amount of followers, probably screw it up, but you know maybe not.  That's part of the reason I never went into management is because I knew I would turn out like Bill O'Reilly.  What I mean is, if I were married with children, leading people, especially young single women, is perhaps much easier.  And even when you go off the rails, you need someone there to turn you back on like I said in a previous blog.  And it's going to happen yes?  If you think witchcraft is forbidden or Hitler is forbidden and MLK Jr or the Confederate flag is forbidden, our children grow up having to learn the lessons themselves... and history repeats.

I was disappointed to hear last night on Rachel that towers were being taken down that were originally erected for the white supremacists.  It's a caving by government to unlawful forces.  It's a rulebook written by the winners.  It's these here JEDI erasing the existence of a planet on the map.  The new Star Wars are crap btw.  Noone's gonna quote those movies at all and I think that was on purpose was to make them "normal" movies now, instead of ones that mirror a religion or that can be worshipped.  They are chock full of errors and the "powers that be" want it that way, in my opinion.  They did the same to Superman and to the Avengers and other hero movies, they made them less inspirational.  I just saw XMen Apocalypse and even though it was awesome the first time, I could see that it needed some refining that didn't happen perhaps.

OK, so sidetracked, maybe I'm just old and I was NEEDING that inspiration a while back.  I remember loving Dragon Age and playing it now, it's boring.  Why did I love it so much? I keep asking that.  Did I need the practice wooing women?  Did I need religion and it offered me one?  Did it make me believe in dragons or undertstand them better?  Don't know, but now at this stage of my life, after already knowing what I was learning, it's a little like being a year late to the prom.

Ok, let me address Bill O'Reilly a bit.  This is why we need marriage.  People need to be in a marriage at all times.  You have a need and people understand it and people will let you do what you need to get in one... HOLD ON there buddy get your hands off that girl!  Yeah, "the world kneels at love"(The Village), but they don't kneel at one-sided love.  See that?  It's kinda obvious to us men, and it's really obvious to women and sometimes they OVERCOMPENSATE for that but meh, the world is like that.  We gotta believe in "climate change" so that people don't start suing oil companies and the government for all those dead cancer patients... so meh, if we can't attack or WRATH directly, a sideshow where we "have no idea" what is causing it, is perhaps appropriate.   Now when that girl came on Lawrence and gave her depiction of she went this way and he wanted to go into the bedroom I was disgusted.  It was obvious to me she lead him on, but just now I am imagining having to work for someone that you had sex with, that's a bigger than you... how would that feel... that ONE-SIDEDNESS.   Yeah, it's incredibly awful to think about and yet I know he got his feelings hurt.  It's gambling with souls.

Somewhere there is a Muslim saying to himself, "that's why hijab".

Ok I don't have to explain that since that's like a whole day of thinking for you right there.  But, that's why I never went into management mostly is because I needed to get married first then I could lead people, that included single women.  Btw, I am amazing and awesome.  It's like Travolta said in the movie Michael "I put a block on you".  I do that a lot.  I will say something terrible because I am about to be in love, but that "place" is reserved for my wife so OUT you go.  I also repress my feelings a lot which is very hard especially if a woman is particularly awesome.  My aunts and my cousins are sometimes really good-looking, and I have a lot of em, and that's the messed up part is if you are honest... and then have to deny that someone is good-looking and in shape and has a beautiful spirit.  Good luck with that.

I think I am in the right place at this church.  I am tired.  I don't need a completely awesome woman like I used to and like I tell you guys in my blog, once I see the eyes of my child, it will be like a new world where only the child and wife exist, if I choose wisely.  Now the easy way out is to just pick some 17 year old, plan the wedding in a year, let her go out with anyone she wants to for a year and then buy her a Porsche, see, it's not hard(it's kinda hard).  But that part of her that is wicked has not grown into wickedness yet so no matter who it is, she is going to make a good wife.  Now it would be incredibly irresponsible to put a girl like that into a marriage where the husband buys prostitutes.  It's a little one-sided right?  And if say this GUY used to frequent the bars a lot, it might be your DUTY(doody) to keep him unhappy and maybe SHOE him away from your young people, right? Fair enough.

Ok, that's enough honesty.  Now I have a bunch of things before I teach you about getting rid of religion for good and how to be self-sufficient, and then take you right back to needing religion.  A couple of nights ago Rachel was sounding a lot like a conspiracy theorist.  Isn't this great?  You realize she was calling people conspiracy theorists when Obama was in charge and now it's not so strange now that the WORLD is strange.  Well, the truth was that she suspected that Russia was involved in the election and she was going to prove that they were guilty of helping Trump get elected.  She said not only that Trump and Russia were angling towards that great new find of oil that sadly they cannot get a hold of until the world recognizes that their "laws" cannot stop them, but she also mentioned that the FBI was one-sided with regard to Hillary and Trump.  See, this is why I watch... no pun intended or allusion or allegorical reference or any of that.

It's funny because you either believe in coincidences or you don't.  If you do then you are home free but you probably don't mind people bumping you out of the way.  If you don't, and most policemen don't or shouldn't, then all of this is someone's prearranged Adjustment Bureau's BOOK of how things should plan out.  See, this is why the people in charge have a plan for YOUR life, this is why you can change TIME by changing their book (through a LOT of effort... btw you make 1/1,000th of what they earn) and it's why nothing is coincidence... unless you're unimportant or something.  While we make money selling weapons to Nicaragua, it's nice to have a war, while we make money on mercenaries it's nice to have a war, while we make the world into a company run by oil, it's nice to have a war... this is perhaps not coincidence.  Still, like before if we can't come out and say it, then we can just act like Rachel and call all of these THINGS strange.  It's just a strange bit of coincidences then.  I also had a round of strange coincidences like in court when they asked everyone if they had had an experience with violence to just stand right up and confess it so that they could take you out of the jury pool(at a murder trial).  Yeah, strange coincidence there, and one guy in the house asked me if "I was ready" and I could see that this setup was to make me feel disconnected to the city because now I was in a HOLY courtroom denying the truth to room full of people in court.  Quite the magic spell, like a group hypnosis except that the spell was not meant for me, it was meant for them.  Plus I got to see some judge that is supposed to be all about law and order, do spells... thanks for that.  Again my point is I don't think that was coincidence.

Now like they said on the show, the FBI is looking out for itself and even though it has a duty to the truth it's first duty is... survival.  Same for me, I sure would like to stand up and claim violence and wait for that one officer to "sideshow" me with a "I didn't tell you to reach in the glove compartment" last words that I would hear at a corrupt hospital, so no I didn't stand up and honor my "oath" to these people.  I give my word to people and they can take it or leave it.  That's how it should be.  I can't honor things to my enemies.  If you care about me and I care about you then you believe me and if you don't well... don't be too upset if I leave or something and you don't see me for years.

OK so that's the preface and has nothing to do with the psychiatry.  Pain is psychiatry.  When you eat some bad chicken, you get an allergy to chicken.  It's physiological at that point.  Your body doesn't want any more "bad" chicken so ALL chicken has to go.  Same goes for black people.  Some black people kidnapped my dad once, so to speak, and since then he didn't like ALL black people.  You may have had a bad experience with Jews and their "ways" of dealing with money and non-Jews and now you think Jews are the bad people.  So all you have to do is recognize this and you can self-psychoanalyze and cure yourself.  How?  You could take some anti-depressants, you could take some mind-numbing regular drugs that de-sensitize you to the "trauma" you are experiencing, or you could REALIZE what it is. That's what psychiatrists try to do is investigate your life and eventually you come to the cause of the depression or the anxiety or the "delicate" parts of your life that you can't deal with.  In a movie, with Greq Kinnear and Selma Blair he thinks he will get her to overcome her fear of dogs by buying her a dog and surprising her into taking a trip to a kennel.  Obviously this is why you should leave this stuff to professionals because later she leaves him.  But what you can figure out from this blog is that you can do this for yourself.  You can figure out that not ALL dogs are bad dogs, that not all witches are bad witches, and that the people that influence your life and try to control you are like fleas in your house.  One at a time, you can remove the fleas and eventually your house is free of fleas.

Pain causes this.  It causes fear.  Fear causes you or more accurately your body to dislike things.  You can be oblivious of terrible things like "regular" people or you can choose not to go where these things exist pretty much physiologically but also psychologically.  And once you have a handle on this, you can keep yourself out of harm's way and explain it to others in a way that makes sense and they don't think you are just a paranoid.  And that makes no sense right?  Who would turn themselves into a paranoid?  That's like believing in spontaneous generation.

One of my earliest science projects was a study on spontaneous generation.  People used to think that if you left a piece of meat in a plastic bag, organisms would spring up out of that meat and that it would get rotten... all on its own.  This is false and was proven false by scientists and that was my project.  Meat doesn't get rotten on its own.  If the meat is perfectly sealed from exposure to the outside, it won't rot.

Same goes for people.  They don't get crazy on their own.  That's a BIG problem with CNN by the way.  They don't want to talk about the many people that should be in jail after all these "homegrown" terrorists but they should.  Crazy is caused, it's doesn't spring up out of people because of bad parents or mad cow's disease(actually it might) perhaps but the most likely explanation is those people are "disturbed" by other people.

And now that you know this you can self-psychoanalyze.  What is the cause?  Where does the hatred come from?  Well, it comes from illegals.  People that are IN THE BUSINESS of doing things illegal.  They use violence and hatred to KEEP their secrets and in so doing, this violence, this BELIEF in violence, spreads to other people.  This is control, do you see?  These WOLVES shephard around their flock and keep their secrets.  This is also sort of like possession isn't it?  They OWN you.  It's quite evil.  Now, some people have no choice most especially if their parents brought them into one of these "rings of fire" (Johnny Cash) or if they have relatives that exist there or if they, like most immigrants that come from the countryside(like my parents), have no idea people are willing to do this to each other.

Until the end of time, the oldest profession will be with us.  People want to steal their love and I have to be honest I wouldn't mind having a little PAID love if there were no strings, but if you analyze it you have to agree that it disseminates society.  It makes love and sex cheap at one end and violent at the other.  It's like bipolar disease but for a community.  Now just like liquor, this madness can be controlled yes?  But it would take a society that was FREE of violence.  And we are not there yet. 

This is why we can't go into Syria and hold elections.  Our election was a perfect example of what NOT to do.  One candidate had ties to leadership while the other exposed her ties by using an outside country.  Which would we rather?  I mean one of them had total control of the election making it UNWINNABLE, and the other "changed the rules" to win.  You can't fault him for that in my opinion.  Now at this point, I am ok with it but what if Russia wants more?  What if they are holding that little easter egg of an accusation for a rainy day?  Well, we're gonna either have to make it worthless by not caring or make it remove the President... just as harmful given what happened, imo, that the ONLY way we could win, was by using something that ALSO takes down a President.  So the change we need is in culture.  We have to make it work next time and let whatever happened this time... pass.

Now rest assured I have in the back of my mind the AMAZING coincidences all lining up to Russia runs the country, kind of like New Jersey runs New York or Palestine runs Israel.  The world is binary.  One group is a BATTERY for the other, just like I am a battery for all the bad people.  People everywhere dislike me but not because they have reason but because of gossip that they just "know" to be true.  But it's just me.  I am not some gang or some virus.  It's just me and because I am not corrupt, that makes what I am doing, noble.  It's like what Worf did for the Klingon Empire.  If the bad people outnumber the good then the good people are a battery for the bad people.  Like MSNBC and CNN now, they are the battery.  If the bad people are LESS than the good then THEY become the battery, like Fox was for Obama and the "bad" press people.  But after reading this, and knowing my feelings on the matter you can see what the goal is right?  You get what we should do?

The goal is grace.  God is balance.  Congress should be stifled.  The government should run itself or on automatic pilot.  The hatred should be limited to things not based in malice.  Violence and harassment should not just be outlawed, it should SEEM profane to people.  Just why?  Ever ask yourself that when some terrible thing is happening on the screen, like a person getting shot by their own bodyguard, just why?

In FFXI, there is a little known technique for the killing of the four Ark Angels.  They are ultimately powerful and if you don't know the technique its a very difficult battle.  One is a super black mage with MAXED out spells, the other a white mage that can insta-heal the other angels, then there's a warrior with an obvious penchant for one-shotting people and I forget the last one.  The battle is quite impossible... unless you have a supertank.

Normally you go in with your party of 18 people and try to take on all four angels one party on each and maybe have thief(with high evasion) run around with the fourth until one of the others are killed but the angels are very powerful and usually it's much harder that most people realize but if you use a PALADIN to "kite" it works much better.  You might think to yourself "this is stupid".  A paladin has lousy evasion and he's gonna get hit like crazy.  Well, what you do is you give the paladin a bunch of armor and setup a party of white mages instead of a regular party.  Instead of provoking the angels, he aggroes them.  This means that they attack him, but it also means that they can't heal each other because they aren't in normal combat mode.  This means also that, one at a time EACH angel can be pulled from the group and dealt with by the other 2 parties, which is much easier.  Then, one at a time, the ark angels are brought down.  This paladin is called a SUPER-tank, because he is tanking all the angels but really he is merely taking damage for the sake of the group, while the rest of society is relatively safe, as opposed to what would happen if they were all provoked all at once.

So you see from this, I am not Napoleon, like in Bugs Bunny, and I am not SuperMAN either, I am a SuperTANK(applause)...  Of course, in time, I might be a LICH!(hushed whispers).  You know what a lich is right? He's the supreme undead and well, if everyone hates you, you are evil... not lawful evil because laws don't apply if they are willing to LIFT the laws to arrest you... not chaotic evil because this lich DEFINITELY is sane... he would be neutral evil... willing to attack others... through no fault of his own... or so they say...

Now let me ask you... what part of that was crazy, huh? 

PS. This is what religion does is teach you about your feelings and those of others.  People don't respond well to "do it like I say" so for those people the Bible is full of examples of why things turn out as they do in real life.  So full circle, yeah?  We don't need the Bible or religion or psychiatry to tell us our levels of sanity, we can self-psychoanalyze; and yet, we need friends and community and it helps if they were raised, as YOU were raised. 

Not just any girl

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As you might think there is nary a reason for me to be a preacher.  I would build it, and, and ... they would not come.  I am not saying this about women but because they definitely WOULD come, but just "other" people.

Joel Joel Joel

Yep, he mentions that a preacher might not be the preacher on his show and suddenly my pastor is hinting that maybe someone in HIS congregation might be willing to do his job... which may mean he wants ME to try preaching.

Houston reaches out to Jacksonville.

But now it's time to put something "out there".   I would make a lousy preacher.  I am more a prophet than a preacher.  My followers would become militant and I would be like... let's TRY it?  That's because I am curious and sort of, well, wise.  Most preachers are NOT wise, obviously.  Either they have NO IDEA people are in charge of the city or they are IN LEAGUE with the people that control other people.  This is a necessary part of the city perhaps, I honestly have no clue about that... but I do know that this is why that Rutger Hauer cardinal was up there in charge in the movie SIN CITY.

"They were just whores."

Yeah if there is some CONTROL group out there in charge of people, I am the furthest thing from someone that should be near that.  I would never preach "they were just whores" or "just black people" or "just transients" or some such.  A city is growing living thing that needs sustenance.  It needs oil and government dollars and it needs control.  But not so much control as it needs structure.  And sacrifice is... ugh, I hate talking about this stuff because everytime I have an ambitious moment now, like I should be running the city, I remember that my father is dead.  It's quite the hit to lose your father let me tell you.  Especially MY father that was always sort of lacking in the "expressing" love department.

OK, so why we don't like TV Ministries is that there is a serious imbalance there.  They inspire you but what do you get out of it?  Well, you get books and pamphlets and calls but are they ever going to show up at your hospital or funeral?  No.  Are they ever going to put in a good word to the judge or to the police doing your criminal investigation?  No.  Are they going to say ONE THING to you?  No.  They receive your money and you get nothing but the music.  They are like an album.

Now I have to say he does an awesome job.  I cannot stand other TV ministries for the most part because there is something missing in most of them but my mother signed me up to Joel just like she signed me up to Trump just like she signed me up to that church I have been going to.  And I have this need to help her think she did a good job even though in the past I haven't done a very good job and she herself might not think so.

TV Ministries can't speak for you.  They don't see how you are, they don't shake your hand and look into your eyes and they can't say THIS guy has been coming here for years.  I haven't needed that in the past.  As soon as I got arrested for DUI after spending a year in the bar drinking most of the time after I was fired, I retreated to my house.  I needed for that anger to fade away.  People set me up to be arrested and not only was it because I wasn't buying whores or drugs, it's because I was in the way.

That bar was my church/community for years and despite hoping to find a girl there somehow single without kids, I was sectioned or perhaps betrayed.  Now you would think oh after a couple of months and his license back he will go back to the bar but no.  People started to follow me around and show up at gas stations expressing their hate and even online somehow people knew who I was and harassed me there.  It's like they WANTED me to blow up.  I obviously could not go back to the bar because where ELSE did this hate come from?  Right?  What planet of aliens dropped down like V and started making the world hell?

Well, little by little I realized that I had to fight back and if I went to the police they would just think I was crazy so I had to have evidence so I started amassing some and it's funny ... they could tell I was doing that and they stopped the harassement to some degree.  I would call them zombies or retards, if they weren't so smart.  Still, every so often as I got to a level where I was going to go back to the bar because I was happy or close to it, another wave of the "fun police" would show to harass me back down to impiety either online or driving around somewhere.

At some point, I am going to need PEOPLE people to speak for me, oh and I haven't told you, they are in my room.  Yep.  Just what you heard.  If I pitch a fit the phone rings, if I am pausing and playing Erin and tripping out, the cable will cut off or something.  But I also noticed that if I made threats to call the FBI, they shut down.  I honestly don't think they care if I call the FBI, I think they just want to "play" until I verbalize that I have had enough.  Now I have searched everywhere for whatever thing it is, this "eye" and I just don't have the energy and besides I remember seeing in one movie where they can simply point an infrared thingy and see your movements, while listening from some tiny speaker godknowswhere.  And this was 20 years ago, so you know that stuff is easily affordable nowadays.

I need to find a new girl though, a new placeholder, a new "Wilson".  I liked Rachel for a while, then omg SECupp, and then Alex.  I really really liked Alex because she was truly happy and I could feel her heart across the screen.  Nowadays notsomuch but it's still nice and I guess I am old.  But Erin is like "there" I guess.  I had a moment once in college.  I remember sitting against the wall in line for the admissions officer or something and I was staring at this girl Ronda.  I mean just HOW ...  HOW.

She looked back at me after a while and smiled and asked me "why ya grinnin" ... I didn't realize I was grinning... and I was totally embarassed.

What... was my point?  Oh so yeah, it's coming up soon here where I gotta find someone new because like this church and Joel and CNN and MSNBC and the bar and my parents house maybe... I use up things... then it's time for me to go.

Btw, I'm not sure what she said to "motivate" that Marine Corps General but then I thought instead of how fragile she was, I thought for a moment about HIS fragility... and then, you know, I MIGHT have thought about Paula Broadwell... lol.  You know not only would I make a not so good preacher, I would make a not so good General... I WOULD be better than most, but a girl, just a girl, would be my undoing... ... ... but not just ANY girl. 

Jesus, Joey

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So today we talk about witchcraft.  I have mentioned it before that there are spells that people use to damage you without others knowing it.  It's BECAUSE you don't know they are doing it that they work and even if you do know, if you are not WILLING to damage others, say because you are a CHRISTIAN, these "spells" can drive you mad.  This is a messed up way of saying this because if you are not a witch then you don't know what it means to drive people mad and that's sort of a good thing, right?  I mean you don't WANT stupid people out there able to damage others just like you don't want them to be able to make a bomb or something.  That's why it's called forbidden knowledge because if you don't know about it, then it can't hurt you.

Well, I'm here to tell you that it can and that it sort of never happens to good people because good people can just shrug it off since they are strong willed and can continue to heal their psyche over time.  But at the end of the day, if witches want to KEEP GOING, they can and if you don't know they are pouring hatred on you or if you "ignore it" like people tell you to, you are going to get "cracked".  This is what they mean by driving people crazy.  It's logical and makes sense if you explain it but people don't want you to know so as to lessen the conflict between good people and bad.  After all, bad people get tired and go home and good people heal, and it's like my father used to say "it takes two roosters, to start a fight".  That means BOTH have to be willing and if one party doesn't believe in fights then there won't be fights and the world is better off... even if one of them is a "loser".

Now that you understand this you can see why it's so important, especially on TV, to not allow people to do witchcraft on Rachel's show or on Alex's show.  The stars do something that disturbs others because they are all about the truth and how it's funny and for no reason at all, Alex might find herself annoyed on a camera that was supposed to be shut off that coincidentally happens to happen the day the telepromptor has messed up words... remember that?  Or Rachel might have someone "coughing" through her jokes, taking away that famous gelatinous vibe that she is so famous for(do you like that gelantinous vibe?) and it's all OK, PAY NO MIND that the star is "losing it" and doesn't know it.  See that?  Do you see what LOSING it is now?  You are getting attacked.

Now, Jesus came to give us solutions to these problems.  I said in my last blog that we are often faced with rule-breakers.  They find out "how it is" and then they do it their way because that's where the money is is to destroy and be the first one to make money through the "shortcut".  So while you are on your show doing your everyday job, people are sending their mercenaries to destroy you, psychically.  They are doing what they can, can, can.  It's just mob psychology.  Flood the gatekeepers and such.

Now I have spelled out for you before simple spells and how they work.  I know how they work not because I pulled out Manafort's Black Grimoire of possessed people, no.  But you start to see how that works right?  Possessed people do what they're told or else they get "harassed" which is a nice way of saying they get smacked with what they don't like, like a high rent payment or a call to their wife or a virus on their computer or business.  It sounds so EVIL, until you realize that this stuff is going on everyday and that ALL those magical stories are real and are just a way of showing you how "the game of golf was invented at the same time" - Gandalf

I am not evil.  If anything I am like Rachel and honestly there are so FEW lawful and good people out there that are good looking and that are leaders that I get unnaturally attracted to them because they are so rare.

Last night I was watching Rachel and Erin and Lawrence, ugh Lawrence I don't like him but he IS funny and since he is telling the truth, I can't stop myself after I have started watching.  Plus I love good comedy.  Good comedy is hard to find.  It's one thing to make fun of people but it's not domination and evil, if it's true.  That's part of why I like gross comics like Sarah and Megan because even though it's gross, it's true.  Or like Bill Maher, who despite being clearly against the Republicans, which is not hard since I am HONESTLY just like "what were you thinking" so often, still manages to be respectful of his guests, despite simply just talking about the truth, which turns out to be funny.

Ok, I have to do my apology now since I used Trump's forbidden statement yesterday to further my own agenda.  I apologize.  I apologize to everyone.  It's not nice to use other people's statements and it's probably not a good idea to used statements that are illegally recorded without their consent.  He just might be damning us all because he is pretty SHARP like that.  We should have nothing to say about people who have had their private conversation's recorded because then we don't have a country.  We are all ok with illegal activity when it suits us and the rest of the world is like uh huh, they think they are in charge when they slide and lift the laws for the BETTER people.  See, everyone is watching or listening to something forbidden, do you see that?

That's part of why I can't go to police right?  I can't say help me with this and they ask me stuff under oath and I have to spill the beans on everyone.  That's why there are two worlds out there, one where you CAN go to police and one where you go to the FUN police, which is basically a mob of people that exile you because of what they "heard you did", and as soon as they find out you are having "fun", it's time to hit you with some more stress.  Of course I am stuck though right because I CAN'T go to the fun police, because I don't believe in the fun police... I mean WITALF is the fun police?!!!

I would laugh if this wasn't so ridiculously true.

Ok, so back there somewhere, literally somewhere maybe nowhere, I learned how spells work because they have been tried on me so many times.  Here goes the first one and I think I mentioned these in a previous blog.

The fireball.  A fireball is something that is true but it's not.  You can fireball me to my face or you can talk about me while I'm standing right there or you can spread gossip.  If you lie to my face you are fireballing me, you are messing up my understanding of things and that fireball damages me MORE, if I trust you.  All of this is like poison, you can't do any of this, you can't poison me if I don't trust you.  That's why if I point out this one bartender that liked to "special" my drinks, he will NEVER work again! Of course, that might be why I am not working and it might be why it's ME that will never work again because you know, reality.  And if he starts to spread gossip with help of his friends, that's DRAGON breath! Aren't you just happy silly giggly to be reading this?

The lightning bolt.  It's so simple but it's so effective.  Just start talking and I will finish your sentences, right?  We love each other so much and know what each other is going to say... nothing but LOVE going on there... when people interrupt you.

The frost spell.  Like before people that love each other, like me and Erin, don't know what the heck is going on when that love stops.  One person thinks it's mutual and the other is kinda like, what's he think is going on here?  Souring the milk is something I have had happen MANY times people so try not to get worried when I get soured up and take a long break.  Like I said before you have to have trust for this to work and it worked best between an ex-girlfriend and me.  She did it to me at a bar, smiled  me up, got me talking and getting ready to kiss her, and then she froze there with a straight face literally shutting me down and making me scared of her and women forever.(in all fairness, I was perhaps wrong to talk to her parents to try to get back with her.)  It has a more devastating effect the more you love the person so you could be safe and not love anyone, or you could just not believe in witchcraft, like me in this scene that actually happened... or you could do like Rachel and say it with me...

"it's ALWAYS better to know."

This is what Jesus was talking about when he said to turn the other check.  You have to ASK them to hurt you.  The reality where you AGREE to be hurt, because the subject matter has not been discussed, has to disappear.  Just ask them to excuse themselves.  It's all about manners really.  You don't want to have it come to blows so ask them to excuse themselves.

"Sorry, I was lying about what I did but really it was an exaggeration; I didn't realize that I was trying to ungainfully earn your trust"  or "I heard you did this but I don't believe you did this" or "sorry for ignoring you but you stepped on my foot this one time" or some such like that are all examples of manners or attempts to dispel hatred.

Interrupting people, is also something you can simply dispel with an "excuse me".  Some people do it and... New Yorkers... well, I will leave it you New Yorkers to decide if you need to have manners.

People will slap you naturally, it's in our blood.  I forgot to bathe this one time after I got back from gym at work because I ran out of time and this black guy next to me REALLY let me have it one day because he thought I did that on purpose.  I worked in the desk next to him and it was weeks later that I realized that maybe him not bathing was intentional because it never happened again.  Black guys STINK let me tell you!  And you see there now we have another example of a fireball, lol.  Sorry guys, that was like an exaggeration... perhaps a slight one... what?

And you see that's another thing I need to bring to light is that my comedy shouldn't hurt people.  I don't dislike anyone so ALL this stuff should be taken as words from a history book not like an indication that this person is walking around mistreating people, that's not me, trust me on this.

But only friends can be funny so if you don't know me, don't say funny things about me, but if you like me and you have my back and would defend my character in court, then yes feel free to talk about me and um, let me just get that in writing from ya...

Ok, so I think I said it all.  Oh, so Jesus said to turn the other cheek and that's so as to dispel the magic, the hatred.  Hatred is natural, and to stop it from happening it takes something UN-natural like Jesus to stop it.  Noone has hatred for long, it wears off, unless it's something truly terrible that's been done to you, but for everyday things to keep the world clean a simple turn of the cheek, a simple excuse me, keeps the world FREE of witchcraft and of hatred.

One last thing, if people don't excuse themselves and feel that this is a good moment to OWN you, like a demon that possesses someone, which should be a hint as to how evil that is to even think about, it's appropriate to use the words "God bless you".  After all, we are all on the same side, right?  Right??

And if they do something questionable like ask questions AT you or something, it's ok to say thank you.  Thank you solves everything also.  "If it's hatred you intended, thank you for your attention, I must have been doing something I didn't know was wrong, I release you from your hatred" is one thought. 

That's what Trump does, do you see that?  People come at him with hatred and questions and things he doesn't want to answer and he says "thank you" which is a lot like saying "God bless you" because not only does that indicate that he heard you(frost spell) and that he appreciates you and would answer truthfully(fireball) and that he didn't interrupt you(lightning)  but it saves him from having all those "attacks" stack up in his mind, as attacks.  If you do things with good will AT the President, it doesn't damage him and that's what we should all be trying to do is grow things, grow our understanding, communicate with each other, and compile.

COMPILE COMPILE COMPILE

Last night on Rachel, she was trying to defend someone that was asking questions AT the Russian prime minister, who asked about the reporters manners... so see even RACHEL can be wrong.  Rachel you are wrong... but hey, we are still on the same side and if I honestly believe you are wrong... it's not a fireball, it's not hatred, it's not witchcraft.

If we are not compiling, we are trying to hurt each other.  Now don't me take for a babe in the woods, (I love it when Rachel says that btw, no mental images here, nope, nada...(comedy)) I realize that way back there somewhere there is proof that Russia and Trump want some kind of friendship where they make a bunch of money and that is truly scary but meh, if they are terrible but they are surrounded by good people, it kinda makes sense, and if that is what's happening in Russia, some terrible guy surrounded by good people, well, I'm not so scared of them then, what would be worse is to have some billionaire out there free to do as he wishes with all of that "trust/money" in secret instead of working right out there in front of everyone, to improve our lives.

So if you ever get "spelled" by someone, it's ok to wait for them to have manners but if you turn the other cheek and they DON'T excuse themselves, then it's ok to say "God bless you" or "thank you" and that dispels the magic too.

If it's particularly painful, the spell you are forced to endure, like the one time people made Erin tear up on camera, it's appropriate to say "JESUS" which is another way of saying "stop the insanity".

And if you are feeling slightly prophetic and scary, you might try "Jesus, Joey" - History of Violence

PS. Btw, let Spicer have his job folks.  As you can see from this blog WHO KNOWS what kind of witchcraft is going there that he has no clue is going on, people in higher places, like Mrs Obama think they can take the "high road" and that's just foolish imo, the witchcraft stacks and stacks until you crack or you can just dispel it like I showed you how to do here.  People think witchcraft should be forbidden but no, hatred is every day and natural and if you are not aware of it and how to cure it, it can destroy you. 

Spice of life

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 So last night we saw Sean Spicer talk about Hitler and I wondered at how people can be so upset about such a well known subject so today I guess we will TALK about it.

The world is binary.  We know that brothers never turn out the same that leaders that are terrible have docile followers and docile leaders have terrible followers.  For the most part people admire who they like but I believe that always there is a center in them that wants to do what is forbidden which is HIT ON that girl on TV or tweet their favorite comic some comedy or maybe even fight with Kirk(aka William Shatner ((thanks to Fight Club)).

That's not something I do but as I tweet stuff on his twitter feed I know I am one block button away from not being able to talk to him so I better not be TOO funny with my comedy.

This past week at church we have been talking about Paul and his trip to the Galatians.  It's a nice story that tells the age old tale of bullies.  People want to do what the bullies want, aka the Jews but also want to be as free as the Gentiles, aka the uncircumcised, and then come up with their OWN set of rules... some NEW rules(thanks Bill Maher).

It talks about people that take their religion too seriously and warns them not to lose their divine nature in rules.  The Bible is all about keeping yourself free of Satan but if you make people follow rules too much, you might SINGLE OUT people that you deem are not following the rules and are THEREFORE following Satan.  See that?  You become like God... but not in a good way.  You got circumcised.  Good job, nobody would do this to themselves so in the old days it was a way of proving that you could control yourself... sort of like the Klingon rite of ascension with pain sticks... it's kinda stupid.

But you can see for yourself that making that distinction is worth it if you want to people to be easily recognized as "trustworthy".  This couldn't have anything to do with the mark of the beast though right?  Ha ha, nah.  This is a "good" mark, a permanent mark and one made with the BEST of intentions.

So as you might guess the story is that if you follow too many rules, you refine yourself right out of being normal and free of sin.  If you say, arrest people that show the signs of Satan, you're pretty much out there in Jim Jones territory, where he asks people to drink the poisoned Kool-Aid to reach heaven.

There is a serious problem with people's understanding of heaven.  They think it is some goal or achievement or paradise.  It's not this.  To be in heaven is to be WITH God.  God is balance.  You achieve heaven or your path to heaven everyday.  It's very easy to lose, but also very easy to regain.  The Bible talks about it being easier to go to hell but like circumcision, it might be slightly out of date with regard to the meaning.  Now a big problem with getting to heaven is death.  Yeah... that... you shouldn't want death.  Death is not something slight or simple or necessary.  Death is like the apocalypse, you shouldn't want that.  You should fear it just as you should fear judgement or fear the return of Christ but you should not WANT to get to heaven.  I think this has been twisted most especially by Muslims when they say virgins are waiting for you in heaven or that your miserable life is going to have some value to others after you die.  No.  It's not.  You shouldn't want people to be like you... and then you die.  A person willing to die to get to heaven is like the very definition of dumbfounded.  Stop yourself from this belief because that is Satan talking.  Doctors, military leaders, and rich people(and perhaps some drug dealers) all want you to THINK you are better off dead.  Think about insurance how we buy it so that our family will be okay when we die.  That is stupid.  They will cheat you out of the insurance.  They HAVE cheated me out of it by not paying me for an accident just because I was past due.  I was paying a BUNCH of insurance money and somehow that month it wasn't paid on time.(I don't or I CAN'T call people liars so I don't fight stuff much, it's a flaw)  Death is a horrible thing and as a society we should shun it as much as possible.  There is no OKAY death or quality of life death or death for the country death that is ok.  Death is the very meaning of God.  You CHOOSE death, you don't agree to it or submit to it or cave in to it.  Noone should have any ILLUSION that because it is noble, therefore they must do it.  People do it because they love others and they might choose it but we should not talk about it and it's about the holiest thing there is in life is the taking of someone's life.

And make no mistake it is ALWAYS taken, noone would give their life... after the pain starts.

Now I want to talk about life now, instead of death because just like talking about death is holy so is life.   Your happiness is life.  The people you love are life.  Taking away someone's happiness is, well it's like being a vampire or like wage theft.  You are in charge of this budget and here come the yearly raises and you can make yourself look good if save the company money... good job.  People can be busting their asses and you just gonna take some of that ponderous wealth for yourself and your bosses and they are gonna reward you based on some statistic which we all know can be manipulated to no end because rules right?  People always trying to break rules so if you are like this you have no trouble making your stats look good while you steal your subordinates wages.

People think I am slightly backwards.  I kinda am.  I like to draw the poison OUT of people for all to see.  That is my mission in life.  I may not have a job or a girlfriend or a purpose but one thing I do good is draw out Satan in people.  I don't do it intentionally and there is no pleasure involved but I can take solace in one fact is that NO WAY should I be sitting in this room typing as broke as I am.  I have a lot of energy but there is no way to use enough of that energy to get me out of this predicament.  If I go to work and people are going to harass me like they did when I had a job then it's not worth going.  And what's more I am not even bothering anyone, sitting at home and people still find a way to harass me online.

This past week I went to church group.  This is the group that meets outside of church and usually it includes older men and such.  Last week, I warned them that they might have infiltrators at the church because some of them espouse negative connotations as they greet you.  Now, if it's your ONE JOB in life to greet people... "how do you FUCK that up?" - History of Violence

Well, I'm here to tell you, it's possible.  Some of them tell you lies like "you are my favorite person" or "are you doing well, THIS WEEK"... as opposed to what?  It's irritation and they know it and they try it and they watch you week after week to see if you are irritated the next time you see them.  It's witchcraft, and it's going on at the church.  Good job.  And that's not the least of it.  This past week at men's group a guy showed up there coughing up a storm with the "scratch in my throat" he said he had and he drove me crazy.  Soon I was trying to interpret the Bible and midsentence, a sharp cough.  He did for at least an hour.  It's awful.  What's more awful is having to think about it for the next couple of days.  What was the meaning of this harassment?   Why is this person here?  What do they expect me to do?  Even more awful was that this was not at church so it's not like I am going to object about something in someone's home, way out in the middle of nowhere.  So I am at a loss now, the backup pastor was there and I can't believe he couldn't see what the guy was doing?

It troubles me.

So that's today's message is that whatever is forbidden is what people do.  This past week or so I caught the cat sitting in the computer chair.  Now the bed is right behind the chair and I often caught him sitting on the bed and stopped caring about that since my father used to use that bed but now he's dead.  But this past week, he started sitting in my chair and I coaxed him to get out of it.  I was gentle but he wouldn't budge I pointed and pointed, and he wouldn't budge.  I tilted the chair somewhat, and he wouldn't budge.  I finally had to use my hands to get him to move and he made me physically move him out of the chair.  I can't be too mad at him because he's cute for some reason, now that my dad's dead.  He wasn't cute before but now he's cute... now that my dad's dead.  

I'm not even sure if that makes any sense.

Well, fast forward to now I have to make him move every time.  I walk into the room and now it's his favorite spot to be in and I always find him in the spot.  It's like I don't pay him any attetion unless he grabs my chair and I have to move him out of it.  The other day I finally used my foot and since then he gets out of it quicker.  Why?  Why is this?  Why do I have to MAKE him move?  Can't we just have an understanding and you don't hurt my feelings and I won't hurt yours... or ruin the reputation... of your SO CALLED church?   Where people go to be FREE of harassment?

So that's Sean Spicer.  He knew he shouldn't talk about Hitler but he just had to "grab em by the pussy" cuz sometimes they let you... see that?

So, because YOU'RE famous ... you can grab ME by the pussy... that's normal now... and I am simply upset for NO reason whatsoever. I mean ...so you got bloodsuckers at your church, there are worse things...

PS.  "...what does incompetent mean, what does BAFFLED mean?" - Highlander

Unbelievable Faith

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When you travel to Vegas sometimes you think to yourself that you can do what you want since "what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas."  Our pastor said this in church.  He was there for a pastor meeting and meted out some comedy regarding gambling.  He said it was ok to gamble but also he said it's only a sin if you lose.  And if you win, you have to give 10%.  He also mentioned that he was only kidding because his wife taught him that you have to SAY that you're kidding when you do it.

This is what comedy is all about.  Comedy is like a nucleaus formed to attract people and then you can push them away with the YOUR truth.  I found myself clapping at the wrong time during that monologue, agreeing with him that you had to tithe if you won... despite having gambled, which of course you shouldn't do to start with.  But it was fun to "get caught".  This is comedy.  It's a ying yang of emotion where you think terrible things but only in fun and then you have to take a moment to judge your OWN character.

That's what Bill Maher and Sarah Silverman do.  You don't have to ACTUALLY lock eyes with your dog during sex, but you do have to decide if you might.  You don't have to actually write some new rules for the stupid people, but you MIGHT want to.

I watched several new movies recently.  I had seen Dakota Fanning in several movies and since I didn't want to see her go away, I decided to watch her new one.  Jennifer Connelly was in it too along with some other actors, I forget their names... I don't watch movies for the guys, that's like a sausage party to me.  Even while I was watching Star Trek, the Wrath of Khan recently I wondered about Kirstie Alley and how good looking she was.  I caught myself over and over again thinking "wow, she's good looking".  I wonder how much less the movie would have been without her there... oh that's right the Search for Spock kind of displays that for us...

I just thought of CNN for some reason.

In the movie, you find out early on that "the Swede" was a hero and his father had a glove factory.  He employs black people but it seems benign since the main story centers around the Swede's daughter and how his and her life unfolds.  She grows up lonely despite being incredibly smart and beautiful and she hits on her dad, unnaturally.  This... doesn't remind me... of anyone.  But the story continues on and she becomes a terrorist.  As you watch the story unfold, we start to try to guess at who the real terrorist might be.  The mother works with everyone to try to get her daughter back, after the daughter bombs a post office/gas station with dynamite.  She doesn't believe her daughter capable of it and believes her daughter must be under the influence of others.  But as you pay more attention, indeed you will have to watch it several times to fully understand it, you will notice the background more, the HELL they live in.

Hell is not someplace you go to after death.  I am not a preacher so I can speak it to you plainly.  Hell is having to live somewhere you are not wanted.  Hell is excommunication.  Remember what they said in Silent Hill, "we are called upon to cleanse this filth".  Yeah... that...

People start to feel that righteousness and even the children can be "targets".  How do the doctors get rid of cancer?  Well, they use poison don't they?  They pour irritation into your body until nothing but the cells that are alive and oblivious to pain and that have strong purpose can survive.  Do you see that?  Curing cancer with radiation is poison.  You shouldn't use poison on your body but if you want to keep other cells from becoming crazy, you pour this "fire" into your body so that the cells without a purpose expire.

I have explained cancer to you all before.  It's like terrorism.  You look and see where the money(blood)  is coming from and you cut off the supply of money.  Such is how you treat these wounds except that in your body you can't just laser out the bad cells(actually you can) without doing damage to your whole body. And the knowledge is still there.  Whatever crazy idea these cells passed on to other cells about being crazy, it still lives, even if some of the really bad cells are lasered out. 

Cancer cells are created through radiation.  They receive MORE energy than they are supposed to know about and they CRAVE that boost, and go crazy.  Usually the best thing to do is to stop what you are doing everyday and remove ALL radiation from your life.  But we talked about this at the weekly group meeting that addiction is like porn is like gluttony.  It's VERY hard to lose weight.  I have tried it.  I know.  It's VERY hard to get rid of porn.  I have tried it.  I know.  It's very hard to stop going to the bar everyday once you get used to it.  I have tried it.  I know.

The addictive part of the bar is not that oh wow the people there are so great, no.  The addictive part comes in all the unnatural respect they give you ... right up until they can get you out of there.  It's no secret that most people are there to work their deals with others looking for deals, so when you go there to "drink beer and eat BBQ", you might be in someone's way that doesn't want you to SEE them doing their deals or frequenting the bar like it's THEIR territory, but it's not. 

It's your territory, it's my territory... they're just rentin' it - Reign of Fire

It's like that policeman from Texas said once on CNN, "you can tell they weren't there to drink beer and eat BBQ". Because of that, it seems clear to me that I am not the only one that happened into a bar and got treated like they stepped on someone's foot.

So there you go, I have cured cancer for ya.  Good luck getting people to agree though because the industry of medicine or dealing drugs or, indeed any industry, is about asking you to trust them while they pull your arm around your back and pin you to some wall.  But I have lost weight! With considerable effort I have been able to switch my need to eat with some vision of some excellent girl I want to get into bed.  If you have enough "hope", you can do anything.  Such is the way with porn.  I have "hope" that I will find some girl and start a family and to do that I can't have people mention or believe that I watch porn so I have gotten rid of all of it and honestly you can't fake that.  If you watch porn, you REALLY have trouble looking at women and they can probably tell that you don't NEED women, even though you do... but you might not.

Lost my point... oh, so in the movie we find that Merry(Meredith but coincidentally Merry(happiness) and the hero are like Mary and Jesus, aka. people WORTHY of worship) is unhappy despite being incredibly beautiful and incredibly gifted and even learned.  It takes a lot to read philosophy and in the movie she talks about reading Marx which I haven't done but it tells me she is PAST my level of everyday reading.  It's people like this that can move planets but the only thing that really happens is that gravity shifts and people ask for a sacrifice.

After you watch the movie twice, you notice more things.  The Klu Klux Klan leader, the black lady sidekick that is militant but the hero can't see it, the big and loose mouth his father has about "little people" Republicans, you even notice the psychiatrist who is played by Molly Parker who if you are like the little kid in Last Action Hero, you know her role is to play some whore, which is what she does in the movie is trade the daughter's soul on to some terrible people but she comes away clean because of who she is in this "community".

So in parting I will ask you some simple questions she was asking at 12, that I am asking at the age of 50 or so and that still have no answers...

"why are the apes here?"  "why are Kangaroos here?"

It's sad that her father didn't or didn't seem to understand his daughter while she was "alive". My father didn't fully understand ME while he was alive.  He often asked me to talk to a psychiatrist which as you can see in this movie is exactly what NOT to do.  Let me explain it plainly.  If there is some DIVISION in the city, where some people believe I am insane, only two things can be true.  Either I am right about being sane or everyone that thinks I an insane... is insane.  

Those are the only two possibilities.

(Definition of life from the movie, from Merry, who is besieged): Life is a short SPACE of time... in WITCH we live...

PS. Did the little girl have unbelievable faith?  See the movie, then watch as both sides POUR their "faith" into her.