Missing Link

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So I went to watch Apocalypse and first 10 minutes into the movie, someone is coughing up a storm.  Keep in mind that I was ALL THE WAY up front in the whiplash seats and someone had to cough EXTRA loud to get my attention and ruin my movie.  Thanks a lot.

Still I was able to spell off his domination "tactics" as it were and pay attention to the movie and it was a really good movie.  At one point we get to wolverine, oops spoiler and as he starts hacking and slashing it becomes obvious how mutants get like they are and later at some point we see Charles(Charlie Brown) stand up for himself for a change and despite being angry and resentful of "how things are" he is not up to fight that Apocalypse brings him.  Apocalypse grows as the hatred gets poured in and even though he makes mutants stronger, it's this IDEA of strongness that really fast forwards the Apocalypse.  Better people get rewards right?  And maybe they should right?  I mean they are TRYING harder right?  Well, like in Silent Hill, the only thing that leads to is "the reaper".  You can try hard at FARMING but not try hard at hunting or hurting people.  So how does this movie end right?  Who the hell can beat the Apocalypse or the idea of it?

Well, go out see the move, love it, be scared and then go "aha" and you will understand ALL religions... just like that.

So, ( I love starting a sentence with that word as you can tell... NOT) today's message is the Missing Link.  Yesterday for some reason I was not able to watch Joel.  It seems the ENTIRE CABLE company didn't work for a while and I was not able to even record it.   And for some reason it seems the repeats are nowhere to be found.  

Hmmf.

Ok so the message about the Missing Link is my take on Evolution.  Evolution is a myth.  People think we are crazy for thinking the theory of creation is not real... but it IS real.  There is a theory out there that states we evolved from the apes AND since some really ugly people have like BIG noses... (JEWS, I like saying Jews because it's prejudiced but I actually have no idea what a Jew looks like and if they all look like SarahK... well then, wth is WRONG with people!) then we can see how we MIGHT have come from the apes.

But that is BS.  We were NEVER like the apes.  And if ugly is a tuning fork for stupidity then that doesn't explain the Indians or the Asians... what? I am not prejudiced and since there are no forbidden words then I am going to spout off theories even about red-heads to my heart's content.  Now foremost, in my mind is the thought that Americans don't have a race and shouldn't.  In my mind Indians should be THROWN off their land and then put back on their land as Americans.  What the hell is this you have your own laws but live as part of OUR laws... that's just crazy.  The whole point of having a country is to have equality, and the whole point of equality is rules.  Rules give us an understanding so that even if we are at home on our computer, my BIG NOSE(what?) doesn't scare off people with their prejudices, but my NIGERIAN nose, should.  People with different laws are a BANE to actions.  How long do you think it would take for Congress to inform everyone that Sunday was now Monday?  Well that's how difficult it is to maintain an understanding.  That's we we all need to have the same laws... as much as possible.  Lost my point... oh so as we were never like the apes.  Ugly has nothing to do with perfection.  We are all perfect now and we ALWAYS WERE perfect.  The only thing that can be said of evolution and apes is that THAT was "interesting view"... (speaks into recorder)  "I said INTERESTING VIEW".

Everyone with Petroleum Jelly at the ready... you know what to do.

So since we were NEVER apes, that means we were humans right from the start.  We were humans since our creation.  And that means we have always been normal.  There is no MISSING LINK and this myth that we will find these BONES of missing link humans(homo-erectus) and that THEREFORE we will evolve into little space aliens that fly around in wheel chairs with double-sized heads... it's a fraud.

Remember this is my blog.

Now to figure out what normal is you have to go into statistics.  Remember the normal curve.  Nothing in life will save you as often as this one piece of mathematics.  The more you try something the better you get at it and then that excellence... gets smaller and smaller.(diminishing returns... confusion=you are learning).  That's why people are trying to stop the CTBS scores or whatnot is because this early form of scoring was what first made me think I was superior to other people is because my scores were higher.  But the scores have little to do with intellect, and more to do with what you have learned.  It has to do with how active your brain is as opposed to the rest of your body, and it has to do with TIME INVESTED in learning.  Now if you stop the tests then people will have no idea who studied hard and the upside is that they will all be less conscious of superiority among intelligent people, and the downside is that they will, despite being less intelligent, believe that it is OK to be less intelligent.  They will believe that higher intellect means those people can be trusted... and this is not true.

People are 50/50.  Doctors, Vice-Presidents, "trusted" African sign-languagers, policemen... ALL people are 50/50.  Nothing makes them trustworthy except what they are doing as a job and what they have to lose for NOT doing their job.  Getting rid of CTBS allows rich people to skate into power or into positions of trust without meeting even a first standard of quality.

If you walk into a mechanic's shop you are in HIS world.  If you are off center in any way, he becomes bigger.  It's best to ZIP IT, as much as possible when asking for help.  I perhaps have not been able to ZIP IT in the past and this might have cost me $6000.00 in car repairs.  Ok, so getting to my point today(sigh).  This is also true of doctors.  I was watching a terrible episode of Children's Hospital(reminding me of my father), and in it, the doctor does an operation but since another doctor is visiting and makes a comment, allows the visiting doctor to take over the operation.  Later in the show, the situation happens all again but this time there is a nurse there that TRIPS UP the doctor and causes the patient to die and when they all figure it out, they all laugh and the resident doctor finally fesses up and the IMPERTINENT doctor finally SHUCKS OFF the insult while the nurse pulls out the money she was paid and holds it up to the light to see how much it is...

This sort of thing coincidentally happened to me you see.  I was commenting at the hospital that my father was not being given enough sleep and that they should not interrupt his sleep to allow his body to regenerate or heal up faster.  Of course what I didn't know was that lapses in lung capacity occur more frequently at night.  Soon after this they do a broncoscopy which is a scraping of his lung to find if there is still an infection.  Apparently something went wrong because the next day he could not breathe right and had lapses in his ability to breathe.  About 6 days later we are still at the hospital and I make a comment that it is taking a very long time to heal him from his pneumonia and I make the comment that he should be going home soon.  So they go from 25 psi down to 5 psi, or whatever the measure of oxygen pressure is, and start to walk him around and they send him home the very same day... yes really.

#funnynotfunny

Oh, and in other news today is the 5th anniversary of my getting arrested for DUI.  Yes, it was Memorial Day and yes I was out celebrating a bit too much and yes they lied to the police officer by telling him that they tried to get me to leave the drive-thru 3 times and that I refused to leave, which gave him probable cause to walk up to me in a drive thru where they were yelling at me... trying to get me angry enough so that he would ALSO have to deal with someone angry.  Thanks to them ALL the rest of my 401k was spent in legal fees and court costs instead of at drive-thrus... good job.

You know I can't overstate it enough that Jesus was like Adam was like Moses was like me.  They came out of Eden because they FOUND OUT that being from hell is KNOWING.  If you watch the movie Jesus of Nazareth(do it now it's on Netflix, it's even free on YouTube) you see a scene where Judas sits down and tells him he is the relative of a banker and you see Jesus' eyes realize who he is.  Once you stop believing you can start knowing and once you start knowing you can never believe again... unless you are Jesus, unless you become perfection.  Perfection is knowing and not knowing, feeding and not becoming obese(like me... hey, perfection is hard).  Only someone that has been in hell can know why it exists because the fuel becomes apparent, the fuel behind hell.  The power.  Why do people treat others badly... is because they are paid.  Why are they getting paid is because each little GANG is a little country with its own rules that put MONEY above country and money above even God.  Someone like me could be said to be OF hell... a spawn of Satan... and why not... since the only thing that can happen now after they have ACTED on me is that I could act goofy and try to point them out and try to gather evidence... why not, right?  

...because spawns of Satan don't come in SINGLES! 

Should you be afraid of the truth?  Well, only one thing can happen once there is huge BEAST out there(=group of people that all act vs their own) you can watch people disappear and know why... cause you know... quality...  or you can call it God's will and say "ah well, accidents happen."(not quality)

And this is why you should watch Brotherhood of the Wolf is because rich people PUT A BEAST OUT THERE to protect themselves, and if they don't or if it is defeated(Ghandi) then soon the people just revolt and become the rich people and then they... put a beast out there... (India much?)

(Aka, Ghandi sacrifices himself and SAVES the people from Great Britain who pull out of there and WOO HOO democracy!  ...then fake Ghandi with same name blah blah etc. etc. and POOF India today.... kinda the same thing.)

Now your first instinct in this situation is to get out your pitchforks and haul ass to your congressman but if you think about it.  God TOLD them not to touch the tree of knowledge right?  He TOLD them it was forbidden.

Hillary said this before and it's like she read my mind that if we legalize marijuana then people will just move to another drug.  It's true.  People don't really love marijuana so much as they love the FORBIDDEN part of it.  Once again it's like the Enterprise whose engine is anti-matter, or the Romulan ship's engine which is a singularity(a black hole with bunches of gravity).

Do you see it now?  The world is binary.  Each person a one or a zero.  God's wrath needs these to be in balance.  Our group is like an amoeba.  It's outer physical part all exploring, feeling, and moving(the body politic)... its inner part a dark "confused" center... that powers it.  

And I am the missing link... trying to help you understand... and hopefully saving you... from losing hope.

PS. Oh, and like I said there is no missing link.  Confused yet?  Good. 

A Growth

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A man's word is his bond.  

Old saying ya?  Well, his word should not be bondage.  I have thought a lot about bondage over the years and slavery and wondered if it was done but it isn't is it?  We still have 30 year mortgages, 3o year marriages and even longer terms for paying off college and even medical debt.  

Should this exist?  

I read somewhere that debt was forbidden in Jewish law.  Am I right about this that Jews can only lend to non-Jews or something?  Good idea, right?  That'll teach em.  Most things you do with good intentions weren't meant to hold you prisoner.  College loans, while useful, are getting ridiculous and so are medical bills.  Soon your dentist and your mechanic are gonna want in on this action too, then what?   10k car repairs?  10k dental work?  10k roofs and pools?  How far should we take this INSURANCE business?  Because, you know, we got rid of the black people that were slaves so that we could INSTEAD replace them with US.  Now if you don't see this trend happening that's because you are not old enough to see that it's happening.  

Now I don't mind public healthcare but wth just happened with Obamacare?  Did we progress... or did we regress?  Are we a healthier society or are we damaged?  What I can tell you is that we don't have enough doctors.  And by that measure, doctors can do no wrong can they? Such are the thoughts of a philosopher-in-training.  Now I don't have all the answers because somewhere out there is a guy with a Doctorate in Philosophy that studied MANY scenarios about right and wrong much like I did for my MBA(which I didn't finish).  I have several books of business dealings and problems that they had and I wrote SEVERAL case studies that were graded and passed each at least 20 pages long.  I may not be the cream of the crop when it comes to education but I did complete PLENTY of it.  

For some reason, and I have to believe that it was for a good reason to start, the Catholics came up with the idea of confession.  Good idea.  You were selfish, you strayed from your husband maybe, or maybe you slapped your girlfriend, all these things you were sorry for so you came to your priest and he acknowledged it, told you how to right it and forgave you and gave you penance.  Maybe he used what you learned to explain things to everyone else.  Violence begets violence or addiction, even sex, turns you into a beast or maybe you stole and now it's time for a sermon about how society doesn't need any more holes... see, confession is not only useful to the person but good for society.  

Bankruptcy is like this.  You owed money but then had to break your promise.  So what?  There are plenty of people out there to lend to that WON'T break their promises and because they can borrow more often, they become richer sooner and can expand as their ideas and their PLANS become more realistic and frugal.  

You will find that people that WON'T forgive debt or who WON'T forgive wrongdoing, are the ones that want to possess you.  Puppetmasters.  People don't know THEIR secrets, like blackmail for one, but that ONE THING you did long ago, hah you cocksucker!   We can't forget the past, we SHOULDN'T, but we must forgive.  

That's the point of baptism.  A fresh start.  A reward for understanding.  You have achieved a nice bright spot in your heart, the priest will bear witness to it and through your priest or even the Pope, you can be reminded how to be holy, even if you forgot. You have an ENGINE of goodness that fights off infectious behavior, it fights off sin.  

~Oh COME all ye fAithful... joyful and triumphant... oh come let us adore him oh come let us adore him, oh come let us adore hiIM, Christ the lord.  

Marriages should be this way too.  Now I don't have a lot of experience in marriage.  I was too afraid to have a child and I even aborted one once.  But I was wrong... perhaps.  Having a child is  a serious thing.  I had two chances to be married and I turned them down because they already had children.  You see, I wanted to have my OWN children and if society would have made it NORMAL to me for one woman to have many different people's children, it would not been so wrong to me or so scary.  If you could have more wives, wives would be happier, fine women wouldn't be so taken or so "how in the world is she with THAT GUY".  People could have MANY interests and still have their main one to cuddle with.  It seems like this would be a better way, to have short term marriages, maybe ones that last 20 years like a post office job and its pension?  

Again these are ideas.  I am not trying to change the world.  Trump would certainly agree with me right?  We don't need to limit ourselves and I am sure we don't want to find out that people got tired of each other and started hitting each other because SOCIETY didn't allow them to separate.  But one thing that my sister taught me was that if you are in a relationship and you don't live together, it doesn't last.  It lasted for her during difficult times because they had a house together and during a difficult times for me, it didn't last. That's why I have my own rules for things.  If we live together, then you can't cheat and if we have a child together then we can't divorce until she's or he's grown or in a boarding school or something.  But to stay married when you don't like each other because SOCIETY wants it, it's not healthy in my opinion.  

Short term is better.  Change is better.  Short term presidents, short term loans, and short term promises and short term lies to your girlfriend, are better.  Now again, I don't condone lying and I am not a liar not one bit, but you know all is fair in love and war they say.  Old sayings like this are not famous without good reason.  Maybe the beginning of love should be a BIG FAT LIE which makes the fact that she told you she had a boyfriend or a husband and have that be a lie... not such a bad thing later.  If I didn't just walk off every time a girl told me she had a boyfriend(equals most of the time) maybe I would have spawned more girlfriends.  Maybe there needs to be NEBULA before the star is born.  Lies and conflict and confusion are a part of that.  There needs to be ENERGY to spark a new solar system or relationship or growth... jeez that sounded wrong. 

"hey girl, let's start a GROWTH... see you at seven?" (bring lies, plastic flowers, and spray pistols) 

One thing I do know is that I never lied to a woman and the few relationships I was in were WAY too serious and they didn't need to be but also remember that I am not very responsible.  Every time I came close to responsibility I lost faith.  I had fear.  And I ducked out of it.  It doesn't mean I am not older now and more responsible but it means I didn't have the opportunities that I might have had; so even though I have lessons that speak of disaster, I don't have the TRUST of those that have LIVED those great lives you hear about like Obama and Joel, that are daily and harsh and difficult to maintain.  I have spent most of my life drinking in a bar, piously hoping for some girl to be as desperate for love as I was and somehow single and drinking and good looking; it's really kind of ridiculous to think about my past self and wonder at what I was trying to achieve.  

But I was always a good soul.  

God is wrath.  If you do nothing, God speaks... to get you going.  If you wrong people, God acts. 

Silent Hill sort of

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Holy shit, I have pages and pages of notes to use on this blog.  I don't usually care about editing that much and frankly ever since my dad died, I don't do notes.   But I feel that finger starting to point at me from somewhere so here goes a better blog than most.   

One thing I learned from my time playing Dragon Age is that preachers and most holy people DO NOT BOW.  In the game, I tried to bribe a preacher and she did it, I tried talking to her nice and she did it, I let Leliana talk to her and she did it.  Remember when you had to try to get Sven out of that cage?  You had to save your game like the many times you had before and try all different scenarios where you get to see if he will get released.  

One thing that DOES NOT work, especially if you are a preacher, and didn't work on that lady in the game, is intimidation.  I have seen it in many other games and I have felt not just a few people try to intimidate me but it doesn't work.  Now this comes not because I was once in charge of $100,000 credit signing authority, it's not because once I had three of the best looking women in the bank all talking about me in close proximity to each other trying to vie for my attention RIGHT THERE in front of the whole call center, it's also not because of my ostensible faith, it's because I have(or used to have) people that depend on me.  One thing that cannot happen to preachers or even for drug-dealers, is that they BOW to intimidation.  

Remember I told you to FILL IN your house of cards? This is why. 

It's important to note that, I am not a drug-dealer, and never have been.  But because I respect people especially when I am in their "house" or "territory" and because of my missionary work, I have learned how people think in those places.  

Now this is not to say I understood those things then.  After I stopped going to the bar, years ago, I spent a lot of time decompiling trying to figure out who I offended and why this all happened and where it all started, etc. etc. 

Wow, none of ALL OF THAT STUFF is in my notes so you know this is gonna be long. 

It's all good. People will use that to justify attacking you.  If people start to say It's all good or just playing or just joking or chill out, that's domination working.  Real friends don't rile you up... therefore there is no need to CHILL OUT if you have good friends.  It's possible I am too sensitive to these things, it's also possible that many "religious" types are too sensitive.  Be that as it may, I do not do things with malice or malignment.  Domination is as much an anathema to me as is trying out our new Dead Baby Floats... how do you make a dead baby float you ask?  Really?  

Now I will admit especially in earnest that I have not been as peaceful with my posts of late.  There is not just a little anguish and cynicism over my father's death and I have been watching horror movies like Silent Hill, trying to understand how IT IS POSSIBLE for people to be cruel to their own people, ie. trying to understand where it started.  And we will cover the movie also in this blog which means PAGES of stuff to go.   

Insults can be useful.  Not long ago I was talking with my preacher about cursewords.  One guy would say dadgum it instead of using(GD it) the lord's name in vain and the preacher would still zing him for using a curse word.  It doesn't matter if the word is the N word or not, it matters if in the process of putting that out into the physical world it occurred to you that this might hurt some people.  You can't have forbidden words, and if we all agree that there SHOULD be forbidden words then there should be forbidden words like "communism" "nazi" "nigger" and "jew jugs" ... "bouncy bouncy jew jugs... baby got back... black black ~Black is the color of my true love's hair" ... what?   This has nothing to do with Sarah Silverman... nothing.  

I love Sarah, now just stop it and let me have this moment where I think she loves me back... there.  Now it's gone. 

Oh, so getting back to insults.  People that ASSUME we're friends can get away with anything and by that point they say to you "just joking" "I didn't mean to say your girlfriend is fine" or "CHILL OUT I was gonna give you your wallet back."  But life long friends are different.  I used to play poker with some friends of mine and soon we were all stealing each other's money, hitting and even sleeping with each other's ex-girlfriends... mostly mine... and insulting each other albeit playfully.  Once you're friends you know you pretty much don't have to worry about them wanting to hurt you and that's really the point of it right?  

Ok, getting off track, do you remember Captain Jellico.  "What a terrible captain", you think to yourself, HOW do people pick people like him for anything.  Ryker gets offended that Jellico wants to use Picard, who was taken prisoner, as a negotiation tactic to keep the enemy out one of it's systems.  Ryker of course disagrees and tells him "it's my duty to point out decisions that might be MISTAKES by my commanding officer, sir".  Noone told him to HOWL this, but he has a point... though he didn't need to howl.  

Picard is a great and wonderful captain all throughout the series but would he be useful in a war?  Would he sacrifice one of his officers for a whole system or colony of people... doubtful yes?  His ship is MORE important perhaps?  Dunno, I will let you chew on that for a while.  Jellico on the Enterprise is like Spock talking about Nixon going to China is like only a slimeball can negotiate with the enemy.  

Please feel free to call me a slimeball at this time.  

Ok, you can have an emotion of disdain, temporarily like liquor, but not hate.  You remember what HATE is right?  de TROy!  Good, you are learning.  The point of liquor is to go out and COME BACK to reality(like the prestige in the movie The Prestige), ie to appreciate how happy you are to be sane.  To be weak and appreciate how strong you were.  That's kind of the point of missionary work, yeah?  Ok good now try not to BELIEVE that shit too much because then you would wanna screw the chief's daughter and they all love ya and whattayaknow you like the taste of human flesh... WHO KNEW!  

Now again, I am not writing this for you guys.  This blog is for people that wanna read at their heart's content AFTER I am dead or maybe I wanna remember these days when I am 80 (but not 85 because people DIE at 80, thems the RULES!) If I become a politician and they find this blog well I will have to do like Donald Trump did and just hope people understand the importance of privacy.  In fact, it's a lesson he might be learning firsthand.  

Ok, page 2, we can't change everybody.  That's why when people go to the church you are at the preachers discretion. He is not going to change his message because Little Johnny likes to talk dirty and he likes dirty words and he needs to hear it like he likes it because what a great thing it would be to make Little Johnny convert to the preacher's religion.  If you are in the preacher's house you do what HE says, period.  Same goes for if we are in Mr. Obama's house or Obama's country.  He is our leader and, whether we like him or not, our SYSTEM is more important than our personal feelings.  Do you remember when Worf first had to deal with his wife?  He asked NOT to work with the ambassador.  And do you remember what Picard said to him? 

And, do you realize people have started calling Trump, MR. Trump?  And that we don't call Obama, MR. Obama?  Weird.  

It is my view that we should not tell people to stand up to evil.  A preacher is a different story and certainly if I had people that depended on me, there would be a WHOLE NOTHER thing going on in this city now, but... it's just me; and it's my opinion that we should not tell people to stand up to evil.  Evil, as I have said before is just a whole lot of people with different rules that ACT against you.  They can have their rules, their language, and even their own mathematics(yes really this exists) AND still be good people, but the minute they ACT on you, that's evil.  It is said in the Bible that the forces of evil are LEGION.  That's because there are a WHOLE LOT of groups out there all with their own ideas and probably all trying to make money ever so slightly outside of the rules. So people should RUN from evil.  RUN.  

You should not be humble while boiling in a pot.  

I'm not very grown up and all, but it occurs to me, that not many people know or have ANY IDEA what it's like... to boil in a pot.  Turning the other cheek instills dominance and is the WRONG thing to do.  Torture is infectious, and it must be avoided.  To suffer for no reason and to allow that to happen to others(you shitbirds), is to ALTER reality.  That HOLE is forming and things are warping around it.   This part is in Silent Hill but I will get to the movie maybe soon.  

I have tried eating an Oreo many different ways.  I eat one cookie first then bite some filling.  I have tried biting some cookie, then scrape some filling, then more cookie. Yesterday I bit into the cookie straight through for the first time I think then I wondered for a moment if I CAN'T do things the right way.  I wonder, through doubt if possibly I am OFF center.  I was eating a Big Mac recently and I turned it upside down and ate it that way.  Why?  Because that's where the sesame seeds are are, on the top.  You can't taste them if you don't turn the sandwich upside down.  Is that wrong?  Is that OFF?  

Remember that I am here to SHOW you what is wrong.  I am not here to add a hole.  I give you examples of when things went wrong for me, so that you avoid telling a cop that you can walk a straight line if he would let you.  This is what it means to GROW UP is to add to society without being a part of the problem.  Other people will say that to grow up is to be able to hunt, of course this lends to a reality where you should hunt what's available = outwit your fellow man = ok with Jesus. 

And if I was Jesus I would say "good idea let's hunt him, let's become fishermen of men...  and no, NOT outwit him" and then I would gong you on the head... "ROYAL earl of cheese, water of 10, skein of the rosary..."(Looney Tunes paraphrased).   A fisherman of men CONVERTS men, it doesn't shake him for loose change.  

Ok, I'll give you one example, a good one.  I am in a bar standing on a chair.  I was just dared by some guy to not drive so I showed him that I was fine.  The truth is I was NOT fine.  I did not take into account that rising up out of a chair and standing after you have been sitting there for hours might make you dizzy.  At this point, I am dizzy and the bartender tells me to leave.  What an asshole right?  You can see that I am drunk and you want me out in the parking lot for some reason... so PEOPLE people advise him to call me a taxi... a thank you to those people.  Out in the parking lot, after I "refused" to leave show up cop cars to handle me.  WTF right?  So they explain they called me a taxi and I go wait for it outside and one of the cops dares me to drive, so I counter that if I could pass his field test I should be allowed to drive and then he walks away.  It may seem I was ornery but as you can see they weren't very nice to me.  I didn't have any agenda or freakout, I was just sitting there and someone came over and thought I drank too much then decided to add poo to the world.  This same cop "co-incidentally" is the one that is waiting for me at a drive-thru a week later at 10pm when virtually NOONE is driving around drunk but somehow he is there waiting for drunk people.  

Yes, Joel I get it... ZIP IT!!  

So I understand things much more than people that haven't tripped up, and frankly that was not a trip up, that was people ganging up on me because I wanted to speak truth and all they HEARD... was defiance.  

Ok, so I am not trying to hurt people's feelings, please don't hurt mine.  

People take more time when they care.  I used to do outlines and notes for these blogs, now I just type it out and I don't edit it or outline it so much.  Rand Paul used to say that Rachel was out to get him for exposing his plagiarism but the truth is... is plagiarism so wrong, I mean he is a really great speaker in his own way and it's hard to have, at least it is getting that way, a person that has a lot of money that WANTS to be in the public eye.  Money is becoming more and more hidden and we are getting more and more PUPPETS.  And yet he was willing to quit.  I am sure it was not Rachel's intent to get him to quit.  Should I quit this blog?  Did I cause Alex to lose her job by being too "defiant" thereby making her defiant thereby making her followers "defiant".  Is this our new word for allowing dominance is to stave off "defiance"?  

An angel's company is worth far more than the wish he could grant you.  

Remember this.  It's hard and difficult to find people like you and soon you are at each other's throats over who uses the bathroom first but ALSO remember that the forces of evil are LEGION.  

~Noone here beside you, now you're on your own.  Noone there to guide you(like my dad), still your not alone... NOone is alOHne...~ 

"Witches can be right.  Giants can be good.  You decide what's right."  If you understand this, you are ready to lead.  You understand evil.  You can CHANGE evil.  Not quickly, obviously, but there is hope always, and that is the point, to be confused and not able to explain, but to have faith in the goodness of man.  

Remember also that you will need a war chest.  If you are young PLAN to be attacked when you get old.  It will happen and you want a war chest.  You will only need to make an example of one person but always ACT as though you have unlimited funds and that you could counter anyone at a moment's notice.  Bet you're really confused now arentcha?  Well, war chests get used up much faster if you attack first so if you have to worship money, at least do it right... ha ha Ha.  

These notes and this blog is like the diary of Anne Frank.  One day it will be valuable and after the apocolypse people will want to know what led UP to the apocolypse.  You are perhaps wondering why must there BE an apocolypse, right?  Well, that's why baseball is such a wonderful game because you have to go around the bases after you hit the ball.  The game can't continue until someone HITS the ball.  After a while, the players get tired, the audience gets tired, even the umpires get tired and mistakes happen... errors.  And that's the point of life is to score the system.  You risk, all the agents in place try to catch you RISKING it, and then you either win or lose based on how tired and experienced they are.  Football and basketball assume people want to be on one side or the other but people should like baseball more so that they understand and can explain it to their kids.  

You remember the movie Blast from the Past with Brendan Fraser and Alicia Silverberg right?  And Christopher Walken?  The son finally understands the apocolypse after he understands why the runner must go around the bases... "because he MUST."  

~Ring around the rosey, a pocketfull of posies, ashes, ashes, we all fall down.~ (for kids) 

So... Silent Hill.  Are you all ready for the"expert critique"? The movie starts with the daughter, an orphan, starting to cry out silent hill and the mother trying to quiet her thoughts.  The husband is very rich as he should be because Radha Mitchell is an EXCELLENT actress, especially in high definition... you will not be sorry to pause and play or slow motion this movie... what?  That's EXPERT advice man! 

So later we see her in the field with her daughter talking and contemplating visiting silent hill or better stated is to say they are deciding whether or not to "go there".  When people say this it usually means "going to hell".  You are deciding whether or not to fight it out which means you will enter hell and there will be lying and evil and fear, and people will ODDLY, not mind pulling up a chair to watch.  

So the movie at this point separates.  The mother and daughter leave without telling the husband who doesn't want them to go there.  Then they decide to "go there" to Silent Hill.  As they pull up to the outskirts they find a gas station.  Strangely, a cop there hears the child being unruly (because some drawings have appeared that her alter ego made that she doesn't recognize) and decides to invade someone's privacy...  It's strange but every time a cop dies in a movie if you pause and play and rewind you can see how straying from the rules got them, whatever(btw this should not happen to cops, I have said before that cops have a RIDICULOUS amount of power especially in their own city).   Now this is not to say that the cop's death in the end is her fault, she was just curious, which is not unlike the nurse that was too curious that had nothing to do with the whole vengeance thing.  I still have to watch it again to see if that is the case because I can't understand the nurse thing except that maybe there is no way to have a war without collateral damage.  There might be more that I am missing but I can't spell it yet.  

Now they get to the town and they dislike each other because the cop wanted to find out more or maybe warn her off of Silent Hill and the thanks she gets is to be disrespected... which is not unlike what happened between me and MY cop which was not my intention to disrespect him but ALL THESE OTHER THINGS had me on edge.  So they are walking and they are in a gray area visiting, having already arrived in Silent Hill, and they are cut off from civilization as you can see by the lack of sky yes?  No sky means you are in a bottle or a box.  The radio cuts off or you get static indicating no connection to the outside world.  They walk back to find a HUGE chasm, basically SHOWING them their reality.  As they continue to walk they find these beings that spray stuff.  They can't hurt you but they can poison you, much like people in TACO BELL can poison you... like I said... EXPERT critique.  This way you can take damage but the image of the town still being vibrant and alive still exists for everyone else like it does for the Lieutenant and the husband that show up later but in color and with a sky, meaning that they are NOT bottled or cut off... yet.  

So since she is a police officer she doesn't have to go find someone to BELIEVE HER that she was poisoned (like I had to) and she can just shoot the idiot which she does but which gives Radha Mitchell her chance to escape albeit with handcuffs now.  

In this strange world, she is able to do the impossible which means she can move her cuffs to the front.  I kept playing this over and over wondering what this scene was for ... maybe it was to show us she was somehow still in control of her reality at this point.  

So off she goes to a bus route and she finds another edge of the world and finds Dahlia.  Dahlia is not in charge.  She speaks ubiquitous truths much like I do simply because she is this quintessential player in the grand scheme of things mostly due to who she is related to, which may have something to do with why she lives at Nathan Drugs.  "Only the dark ones open and close the door to Silent Hill" she states as they ponder the extremity of the chasm before the two of them. Now you are gonna have to take mental note of this because you think that Dahlia is Alessa later in the movie because Alessa is grown up later in the movie but no, Dahlia is the main mother, the mother of Alessa.  Radha or Rose is also a mother but she is the foster mother of ALESSA'S daughter, not Dahlia's daughter.  Again, Alessa is Dahlia's daughter and Alessa's daughter is Sharon who also is the daughter of Rose who is the main character but who is only a foster mother.  This part of the movie is really what makes it hard to watch because there are two girls, two mothers and different timelines messing with you.  At this point, Sharon, who is Alessa's daughter, who is Radha's(the foster mother) daughter, is missing from the car and lost in Silent Hill.  We find out later in the movie that Dahlia took her and hid her to protect her because she knew who she was, she was her granddaughter, but at this point the foster mother shows her the locket picture and gets Dahlia to scare her back to the car.  

It's at this point that the foster mother finds the drawings all scrambled and re-drawn by Sharon's alter ego, the one that is telling her the past.  This whole world is the past, a recounting of it by the daughter who heard of it from the mother or the nurse maybe and who now is planting clues in this "place" to show her what she came to Silent Hill to find out.  So she finds a drawing of the school and follows the bus route to the school.   It's there she goes down some stairs and finds a guy strung up still breathing but crucified.  This guy is Colin, the guy that raped Alessa while she was still a girl.  This is just the prelude so we see little hellish little girls screaming in anguish asking for help maybe the ones damned by Alessa later in the movie but really just terrifying the foster mother which causes her to run away and soon it is light again, with no monsters around since they never come during the day. The song Ring of Fire comes on and coincidentally plays to remind her that she is in hell... kind of like it used to often play at the bar whenever I walked in after a while.  After a while of THAT, I liked to play Richard Marx' "Lord Have Mercy" song for some reason.  

Chris is the husband and apparently he is money bags and drives a BMW and it appears that that is why he is allowed to live is because he has so much money.  This is what I meant by war chest folks.  If you have a bunch of money somewhere, witches won't come near you which is perhaps why they didn't used to bother me so much when I was rich.  And you might think this is why I am poor is because I am too lazy but NO, I am not ALLOWED to get rich again, word to the wise.  So Chris is talking to the mechanic who is too scared to go into Silent Hill because of the toxic fumes that will kill you if you breathe them despite the fact that he is smoking a cigarette which means... well it means mechanics know EVERYTHING about hell and know how to stay out and can point the way if you so choose, not the least of which comes across the point that they can be bribed with no problem.  

So they wake up in a Bowling Alley which perhaps shows you where the moneyed people hang out that like to play Ring of Fire, then she goes to the Post Office following route 119 for some reason then she arrives at the school.  There she finds a flashlight and learns of the part of the story of Alessa being called a witch.  See at this point you can see how someone like ME can be called a witch by a group of people(ring around the rosie) except that witches don't come in SINGLES, only in groups.  It's interesting to note that on the chalkboard the order of worship is God - Loyalty - Home - Country.  This is exactly backwards.  Country comes first.  If God comes first then your preacher comes first and then loyalty to the preacher second means you are basically a slave and somewhere back there is your loyalty to family and then to the country.  No, your loyalty or better your devotion should come to your country first and then to God and then to your family.  And there should be NO loyalty.  This is why I like SarahK and Bill Maher and Trump and Ann Coulter, is because they are not loyal, they are at the top of their ideologies.  If they change their minds then that is fine but they are not LOYAL to the Republicans or to being Baptist or to I dunno, Scientology.  Reality changes so it's important to be able to change with it.  It's like I said before you must be able to hate your leaders, temporarily, while they adjust or YOU adjust.  Obviously this doesn't mean a lack of loyalty is a good thing, it means country FIRST is all.  Here at the school you find their symbol which means that the school is one of THEIR schools and perhaps that it is a PRIVATE school not a public school adding a specialness to the equation.  

A recurring theme here is that the town was burnt by a coal fire but the overwhelming theme should be that it was the "underground" part of it that caused it to collapse.  The cops father ran the barber shop and as we all know barber shops used to be a common place to spread gossip as perhaps it is done today with such places.  If you have seen it several times the Lt. is talking to Chris, the husband, in the "sky" world and mentions that perhaps some of the people that died in the coal fire "deserved" it "a little bit".  So here we see Chris pass Rose, the foster mother, in the same town and he can tell she has been there but can't find her and even though they are in the same place, Chris is wearing a mask, protected by the cop who is shielding him and who calls out to Rose to come to him but apparently she refuses to come to the cop or can't hear him until her purpose is done.  In any case, they are in two different worlds, even though they are in the same town.  Rose is getting followed at this point by some people in full body suits who carry a bird in a cage.  This bird warns them of when Pyramid head and his minions will arrive with their darkness and power, so I guess it's a good idea to have birds.  At the school she chases a girl that looks like her daughter and goes into the bathroom and gets led to a stall which is where Alessa was raped, we find out later, then there is this "colin" guy, a corpse, that has a message in his mouth.  She takes it which is a key to a hotel room which directs her to the hotel next.  

At this point, night falls and pyramid head shows up just in time since the men are about to get Rose but then finds out that pyramid head is not to friendly with ANYONE.  She is rescued by the girl cop and she takes the cuffs off and they join forces against pyramid head who is locked out of a room but then they escape him for some reason when light comes back.  

When they get to the hotel they find Anna who is a member of the church out on her own doing her own thing scavenging(probably because they are cut off like Cuba from the rest of the world) but hating Dahlia who was cast out.  This is important because Anna now fills in the details of how the church thinks and their relationship to the town and to Dahlia. After they find the room, that Rose had the key to, they find a big hole in the wall that leads to a factory.  In the factory they find Alessa or an alter-ego of her past self crying and then burning.  We learn later that this factory is the place where they burned Alessa alive to rid themselves of Dahlia's child which had no father or which was someone "that we don't speak of" too important to point to.  Their decision comes also at a time that she is being ostracized by society because of her "no-dad" status and because she becomes pregnant with the janitor's (Colin) baby which happened after the children didn't keep her safe or make her feel a welcomed part.  The grill where she was burned is in the shape of the church's symbol which gives a clue to what happened.  

Then nightfall again.  Everyone runs to the church and since they are with Anna they are about to enter the church with her help but Dahlia is there to warn them to be careful what they choose and that evil wakes in vengeance at which point Anna gets IRED up and starts throwing rocks at her again.  

This is important for you young people... DON'T believe everything.  That's why we have laws so that there is PROOF of wrongdoing.  You go off believing things, and you become a finger of death.  Pyramidhead does NOT LIKE finger of death, I am here to tell you.  So fast forward to pyramidhead picks up Anna, tears off all of her skin, and flings it at the church door as it closes.  She is probably dead at this point...

So in the church, these people immediately file up to dislike the strangers but since the cop has a GUN, and fires off a shot, it's time to be civil, lol.  AND... this is why we have guns.  So now we get to speak to the preacher and she likes us and btw do you know our rules? lol.  Now it's time to see the other side of the story.  The church finds out that Rose is looking for her daughter and that they THINK they want to fight the demon and the cop wises up to the preacher and can tell that they are no match for reality, and that they must stay in this church to be safe so they plan to send her to the demon thereby getting rid of them.  At this point we see the maps that were a major part of the game and she memorizes the way down and soon after the locket flies open with her daughter's picture on it, which is the exact image of Alessa, they attack them straight out and claim they were sent by the demon, which they know to be Alessa.  The cop stays back to fight them and to make sure Rose can make it to the bottom in time before they stop the elevator.  The cop is then forced to fight the church people and loses since she runs out of bullets.  At this point, the preacher realizes that the daughter is an avatar which is why the mother is here and sniffs out Dahlia's foul purpose and that of her daughter and goes to her house and finds Sharon and takes her into custody.  She plans to burn her but after she burns the girl cop.  

Rose has to fight past nurses to make it to Alessa which is in a hospital and even though there is one nurse that is protecting Alessa it makes me think that this whole hospital doesn't want people to speak to Alessa...  trying to think who this reminds me of.  

So welcome to the truth and the whole story gets told.  Alessa is found in a bed wrapped in bandages like the aeon figure Anima from Final Fantasy X.  All of those people did this to her and now the "rest" want revenge but since they can't get into the church they can't have it.  Now they talk to Rose and convince her to go back but with their blessing which means with their support.  Now she is not evil and only wants to find her daughter but she is told that the Preacher means to burn her and so her purpose is made true.  

At this point, we fast forward to they burn the cop and then begin proceedings to burn the daughter Sharon but they are interrupted by Rose.  Rose is like the second coming.  It can't happen unless enough people screw up, lol.  So here they all are with there hands up each other's butt and the preacher hamhandedly tells them not only to burn the cop and the child for legitimate reasons that play into their fear, now she makes up some charges .. heresy... talking too loud... burn her for something... lol. 

You see that is what happens to a star as it gets older.  Common sense tells you that an explosion gets larger and larger and then fades out as the energy fades but that is not true of stars or lives things or organizations.  One faulty leg and the structure FALLS on that leg with the weight of all the living things supported by it.  Stars implode as do organizations with people in them.  And if there is one thing that I can teach you with my sermon today is to watch out for that faulty leg.  Watch out if you have faith in a system that has a hole in it, because the wages of sin is death.  This means that what you get from adding a hole, is nothingness.  Collapse.  If you add killing people, like in the movie, or even hurting people to your organization... you just added a hole.  

YOUR FAITH BRINGS DEATH! 

PS. When I say religion or organization or the starship Enterprise, it's all the same, I mean gangs.  Giants can be good.  Remember that.  

Also there are TWO reasons to watch Erin... one because you already like her and want to stay that way and the other because you are looking for Erin... see, that's my purpose is not to keep you liking her, my purpose is to help you FIND her... to shoo you in... happy to help.

Yes I know, confusing... are you happy you're reading this?  Then good, you're learning, and hopefully I am charming you, now... as I tilt my head... lol, Imhotep... what? 

Now you can do colors

BLM WHM SMN SCH THF RNG BRD MNK WAR DRK PLD > 99

I missed Joel Osteen this week and so I thought I would add some comments about what I said.  Long ago I told you perhaps that judgment is a sword.  You divide a people with it.  You make them either FOR you or against you.  You could say then that when you are given a sword that it's time to wage war.  

It's time to decide who is on your side.  

Always in the past I have been on the side of noone.  A virtual Treebeard as they call it.  But if there is one thing that history has shown, especially to America, is that if you are powerful, you will not be allowed to sit THIS ONE out.  

Even in the first World War we tried to stay out of it and then that turned into we help the "good" people... that wanna destroy.  

You all know the old name for the devil is Beelzebub right?  It's in that popular song "Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, For Me, FOR MEEEE..." (air guitar solo!)  

Well, the name Beelzebub means "lord of flies" right, RIGHT ALL you Jews? It's hebrew.  But if you say it slowly you end up saying Lord of lies, see?  So it's like even his name is lying to you.  Well just think what if you say destroy slowly... it's like saying de-troy right, RIGHT ALL you stupid people?  Tay it wit me... deTRoy.  lol... 

Wasn't that fun?  

People that can't learn, people that can't be trusted, that's all they have to offer is their willingness to fight.  Small wonder that black people couldn't be trusted not so long ago... why?  Because there weren't that many of them educated and they couldn't be trusted because frankly... people were TOLD they couldn't be trusted.  That was the culture.  (Now's a good time to look up and read James Baldwin's Rage) That's why whenever you used to see some black person in power you could expect them to ACT right away, without considering options, without checking his subordinates, without looking stuff up in history or with historians, because basically if a black guy was in charge, he was PUT in charge to do what ethical people wouldn't do.  

But that is changing.  

We now have an educated black President.  We no longer can "just assume" black people are all the same.  And along with that doubt comes an age of trust and of leadership and of confusion.  You remember me saying that confusion is the goal, right?  Well now we can't be prejudiced.  Now all black children can see people of all different colors and not FEEL that they are that different or that they are SUPPOSED to steal stuff.  

But, like I said it's a new age.  As we prosper and want others to prosper and as we seek to let everyone live in this society of "wealth", we seek to allow more and more "LESSER" tropes qualify as deserving of equality.  

Now the handicapped deserve equality, gays deserve equality, and even trans-gendered people deserve equality... and even illegal aliens deserve equality.   See, it's important to deal with this stuff.  

I told you before that, like in the movie, achieving Serenity does not include fueling some psychotropic drug into the water supply like PAX right?  And even though it would be nice to have a BEER pipeline flowing past your house, like in Belgium(thanks CNN) that you could tap into, there is a drawback there right?  Too much equality lends an advantage to people that refuse to allow themselves the PAX.  

So now we have to ask ourselves SHOULD we allow gay people?  Should we allow transgenders and illegal aliens.  Where is the disadvantage there.  One sure thing you will find at the bar is prejudice.  And even though black people are free to go anywhere they want, you don't see a lot of black people in groups at certain bars.  They KNOW where they are welcome and where not.  It's kind of exciting and also NOT so exciting because you get the impression that it's not a very "egalitarian" environment and if you haven't learned this yet, then trust me on this... it's not a very egalitarian environment.  If "people we don't speak of" want your ass kicked, noone's gonna know WHY you got your ass kicked, even you.  Lucky/not lucky is the fact that they can just call the police and report you as a DUI and that is plenty of ass-kicking to your life, without the broken bones.  

Oh, so we were talking about how far we should go and about Joel.  Well, since I am going to church more, I am getting re-introduced to disliking gays.  Sad state of affairs and since I am not fond of msnbc atm, Rachel is foremost in my mind about that.  It's strange to watch her show because it's like a past self of me wants to be like I was and now I am not.  

Oh boy that reminds me of another ton of stuff I want to decompile regarding conservatism.  Ok so I am, at this point, not fond of gay people but it's weird because girls that are gay are not sodomists.  Sodomy is bad for you and addictive.  I think girls that are gay don't get that they are not gay but maybe they do.  In any case, homosexuality is frowned upon in religion probably because you are not rearing a child.  In my mind, rearing a child is the point so if you are gay and have a child, you're good.  And I don't care if you rear a child and teach them to be gay, just teach them to rear another child.  Remember, country first.  Ok so in this Utopia I just created I am actually a flawed individual because I have not reared children.  But it's because I am at the bottom that I can see the stacks, people at the top cannot see the stacks looking down.  

Transgenders are ok but please please don't teach your children to transgender.  If anything teach them that it's ok to be a snitch and then to DRESS as transgendered and then to betray shitbirds.  THAT'S OK!  Send in the CLOWNS!  Because... clowns keep the BETTER people at bay.  You are getting it ya?  So transgender = good , transgender children = no, pretend transgender child grows up to be in the CIA = OFFICER material... square peg into the round hole...  BINGO!  

Lessee, ok so you don't have to be religious to see that illegals shouldn't be here.  If we had umpteen million jobs I wouldn't be unemployed and they wouldn't have had a part in getting me unemployed.  Everything illegal begets more illegal stuff.  My mother said this yesterday, wages of sin are death and what she meant was it all goes to shit.  I mean if you are not building then you are destroying and that leads to nothing.  You can't build with illegal things.  

You can't ADD a hole.  

AND Abortion.  As you might imagine noone religious believes in abortion.  Me, on the other hand, do.  Me do.  How's my English?  Women control their bodies and if we don't want to start jailing people for cleaning their mouth full of living stuff(get a spit cup and watch that stuff grow and smell... poof, now you understand abortion), we better let women do whatever they want to their bodies before birth.  Abortion is not covered in the Bible and though I would  like to point out that drinking is covered in the Bible plenty... drinking and driving is not.  Losing my point... oh so abortion I believe should be allowed and drinking and driving should be allowed also and even though everyone righteous doesn't believe in drinking, I would like to point out that Jesus got drunk regularly, how do I know? 

~so you think you can stone me and spit in my eye... so you think you can love me and leave me to diIIEE... oh baby... ~

If there were a place out there worthy of being called a people's church, people would get drunk with each other, that's because they would all TRUST each other.  I am not saying orgy, no.  I am not saying do this every Sunday.  I am saying there is a balance and that balance must be probed and probed... not very deeply NO not very deeply ... trust me on this.  

You are supposed to "please clap" now.  

Ok so now that we got that out of the way I still got Joel and the other stuff.  Now you might wonder WHY it is that we SHRUG and SHIVER at the thought of communism.  I was totally set on people being the reason that systems fail and since I have had time to think on it and decompile and decompile... I have a new theory that is probably MORE true than just PEOPLE in power get corrupted/we can't help it/might as well quit now.

Communism is having a bunch of government.  It's a great idea like having a corporation with employees be equal shareholders is a great idea.  They want to grow the company and as soon as wage theft occurs via one manager wanting more than others, EVERYONE immediately looks at him.   

Good idea. 

Conservatism is the other side.  The idea of conservatism is that little government is better for society.  People that believe this make their podium out of lacquer with obsidian trimmings, it comes with a FAN attached and powered to elongate at the push of a button and you have some OFF-color people carry it for you when you give your speeches.  Without government oversight, he was allowed to collude.  You remember Donald Trump talking about collusion right?  Ted Cruz and Kasich were going to collude, which means they were going to gang up and basically outpower Donald.  Collusion is like price fixing.  The customer is paying more but since the customer can't go anywhere else they must pay it.  It is like price gouging.  Since customers can't go anywhere else and it's the apocolypse happening... they must PAY it.  lol.  Anytime companies work together, it's like your left hand wanting to do everything... it's stupid, but you can see how it's smart... but it's stupid.  In other words, the country suffers and you just added a hole.  That industry is now destroying the country.  That's the IDEA of conservatism.  That's extreme.  

So way over here, FAR from monopolies and rich families and off-shore accounts (because omg WHY, what could happen to our country) is communism.  Now the problem with communism is not that people can't be trusted, because it's possible they can be trusted but fact is, new people come along and are given power.  And that's the sad part.  Can have a nice system going along fully regulated and if you don't have good people, it's too much control.  Once people regulate an industry too much, they are the ones in charge.  And what do you know now such and such families always get elected and now they have their people working for the leading companies and whatdoyouknow... off-shore accounts... because what could happen?  So same thing ya?  Now communism is families in charge of industries = people find out and their children get sent to other countries with a HUGE bank account = Superman... what? 

And if people don't appreciate that, they come LOOKING for Superman, lol.  

So that's the IDEA of liberalism.  At one end one ideology and at the other, the other.  Now, it's ok to have parties that have those ideas, but to PURSUE those ideas like a religion is to be extreme.  That's the problem with ideology.  Religion is the same.  I have said this before that fundamentalism is how a nation begins.  I learned this in Civilization Revolutions the game.  It's a great game that teaches you NOT JUST A LITTLE about government.  BTW, a new one is coming out and I totally recommend it.  

Now, I am a practicing Baptist.  I used to be an atheist.  But consider, that everyone and I mean everyone that is raised religious should pursue missionary work.  You are after all one of the FEW that were protected from the only option there is besides religion for a child... domination.  Even dogs practice biting each other thereby preparing for the day they will learn to hunt or preparing for adulthood.  And as such, you might think to yourself, like Bill Maher, oh woe is me I was raised Catholic and I was lied to(most adult atheists probably think they were lied to).  But consider, you were taught how to be civilized.  See that?  The only other option was to raise you Muslim = not so bad or Jewish = not so bad or TV ministry like Joel = not so bad.

Atheist = bad?  

Yeah, atheist is bad.  Not for adults but for children.  Transgender is not bad for adults but for children is bad.  Confusion is not bad for adults but for children = suicide.  Children need something or else they get nothing or worse(maybe not worse because at least they not suicidal) they simply learn domination, like many orphans.  You see first you have to learn religion and then you must understand religion.  And the signs are all around us TEACHING us how to behave or perhaps re-inforcing our civility.  At least I hope so... at least I HOPE the CIA or NSA or whoever has a good heart.  Once you understand that the enemies of society are addiction and domination and insanity, you understand WHY we are here and who is a threat.  God put us on this Earth to grow, not to destroy.  

Logic is the beginning of wisdom, Valerus, not the end - Spock

And even though you might think I am at the church looking to supplant what they believe,  the truth is I need their basic knowledge to be the foundation of my vision for the world.  Obviously, that means I will be attacked and that has it's use because...  you know... quality.  

OH, and finally, Joel, I love you man.  It's all good.  

One good thing about living a solid life "without regrets" is that you did everything with good intentions.  Acting with malice might even have been an option once or twice, especially if provoked, but the reality of who you are comes when you confess your sins and are forgiven by God.  That's the reality of "it's all good."  By that token, people that realize, AS ADULTS, that they were led by addiction or by selfishness and can consciously AWAKEN to being civilized and free of malignment can be said to be in NEED of baptism.  Once they devote their lives to a preacher, hopefully someone TRAINED and who is worthy, they can be lowered into a river or into RUNNING WATER, so that they can understand that sins can be washed away and that with constant cleansing that addiction, self-destruction, and bloodlust... is not possible.  

And also that they can trust their preacher not to drown them... it's also incumbent upon the preacher to make that point known.  I choked at my first baptism cuz the preacher's fingers slipped... because... you know... quality. 

Besides if there is one thing that my "missionary" work taught me was that ALL minions need a handler(aka all magic-users that are NOT in a circle, are apostate - Dragon Age) and, by the same token, all people need a preacher.  People need to be able to say "well if he goes ape-shit we will take it out on his preacher"  or "if that drug-dealer goes ape-shit we will take it out on his drug lord", lol.

... what?  See, now you can do colors.

If you see Pan btw you get a good idea of the Bible.  It has a lot in common with Silent Hill also but you will have to "expert critique" Silent Hill to know what I mean.  It's really a great movie with Rooney Mara who is probably the only reason I watched it but some parts of it where she is like a regal queen and then she is like tee-hee I'm girly = stupid.  I know what you're thinking ... 

PROPHETS aren't supposed to like women... especially twenty-somethings and they aren't supposed to pause and play the video in slow motion... it's not PROPHETIC.  

Hey, I am ALL ABOUT slow. 

PS. Doh, I forgot to deal with the handicapped oh and btw I was supposed to tell you that we should all choose a party close to the center, not the extremes, NOT ideological but I guess you guys get that. They can still lean a certain direction but people that wanna preach extremes are kinda tearing apart their own group aka making their group smaller, which is not wise.  I would say stupid but stupid is the inability to learn which is like someone mentally affected by an ape-mentality, being not wise is kinder and is to be expected because NOONE knows all that much, I even just had to look up WWI just now and learned that I didn't remember that much about it. 

I have a LONG explanation of Silent Hill coming up so watch it, hate it, then come back here to get your A-ha moments. The director was immaculate so you might think it awful but if you struggle you can appreciate how complex it was.  He also directing one other movie called Brotherhood of the Wolf that is a good textbook for society also despite how long it is.  And if your old man likes fight movies, like mine, he will love it.