Into the west

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:47 THF:75 WAR:74 RNG:44 DRK:33

Yay, I still have my job. I don't know how but it's there.
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In the game I have finished getting my skill to 250 so that I can open the Inheritance quest to get Ground Strike. I have talked to WARs and they say Ground Strike is better than Spinning Slash and if that's true then it will be WELL worth the effort to get it since everything else in GSD land is rank. Now I have not only my Subduer to unlock but the Sword of Trials. Thats a lot of weaponskills. I need 500 pts for the Subduer and 300 for the Sword of Trials. The stats on the Subduer though are top notch. Even the Ragnarok GSD doesn't beat it by too much after the sword is unlocked. To boot, I have leveled my DRK up to 37 so that he can sub DRK and use GSD better for ws.
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I have invested some in DRK/BLM btw so now I end up getting people pissed that I don't play DRK/WAR. But if you have max elem skill and your Wizard's Earring gives you +5 Elemental Magic on top of that, then you basically have a BLM with A+ skill weapon, and honestly once you get to level 40 when you can cast Absorb-VIT and Choke on the same mob before weaponskill you are gonna wonder why everyone doesn't play DRK that way. Prob with BLMs is though that many people overdo it and when people overdo it, the first thing people think is "we need to nerf BLM". Like they nerfed RNG? Bah!
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It's in people's nature to fear what they don't understand and try to "just get rid of it" as they say. People don't wanna learn and they don't like inventions and usu when faced with a new problem they wonder how they got on the "wrong" path, as if any path is wrong.
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Today I have to bring potluck for my new team and hope they are well with my presence there but honestly after being absent from work for a week and having all of my IDs reset and missing and even having my badge deactivated, I wonder if this is really a fresh start this time.
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I have been eating too much and I really have to get back in shape somehow. Most of what I wanna do though is just get back in bed and sleep till I feel better, but my stomach just keeps doing what it does in a very eery way.
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Tomorrow, I have a big day in store I think. I don't know quite what to do.

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I am learning the words to "Into the West" by Annie Lennox. It's a very sad song. The words aren't sad though but still it brings me down. It makes me want to protect someone but there is noone to protect.

Wanna be me?

BLM:75 WHM:75 SMN:47 THF:75 WAR:74 RNG:44 DRK:26

Not a lot more going on. I am still losing my job. If you like being told you have one more chance to improve quality and then you get a zero so you know you are going to lose it but then you apply for a new position and get called for an interview and then get told sorry you are still not meeting quality but then get told you are moving to a new team which means you still have a chance but then get shipped off to the Mgrs office to explain why you keep "threatening" associates that harass you at work and wonder if tmw is even going to have anything positive come out of it, then you wanna be me. If you like going to the bar to do that same thing you have done for the last 10 years and honestly "in a retarded sort of way" believe maybe you will find a girl, then you wanna be me. If you like driving in a great car that has everything going wrong with it and know that it's gonna cost a crapload of money to fix even though you know you shouldn't fix it, then you wanna be me. If you like being out of breath cuz you smoke too much, then you wanna be me. If you like being fat and skinny in an "anima" sort of way, then you wanna be me.
On the other hand, at least I have money saved. I have great friends even if I don't hang out with them so much. I have a good time online and a good time just talking with ppl at the bar.
Count your blessings, I guess.