Painfully aware?

BLM:90 WHM:90 SMN:90 THF:90 WAR:90 DRK:90 RNG:90 PLD:90

I was sitting outside some days ago reading as I usually do and I felt something on my leg. I moved my hand down to figure out what it was and it felt like a bunch of shrubs or moss. Then I noticed a big yellowjacket wasp on the floor missing a wing.

It could still crawl and was proudly moving away from me with all it's legs intact but missing the one thing that could take it back to its nest. It was sad to watch but I was oddly satisfied that I got out of messing with it and not getting stung. I have been stung before and this wasp was the size of a cockroach. It was big.

It crawled for a while and I wondered if there was any insect alive that would face up to it even in this broken form. It looked like a snowflake in some ways but it was deifinitely missing a wing.

Suddenly it stopped on the rubber rail that is supposed to seal the garage. I wondered what happened to it since i didn't see no insect or creature near it. Then it seemed to convulse and it flipped down two lengths to the area THAT side of the garage.

Nevertheless, it continued to crawl down the edge of the rubber thing and after a while I stopped paying it attention. I was so afraid of it before and now this was like the second time in my life that I felt remorse for something I had done. I didn't mean to take it's wing but it happened.

The first time was when I tried to take an ant off of a bird's leg and accidentally broke it's neck. It just chirped and chirped and it felt like I was the one dying but I wasn't.