Just sayin

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So it's been weeks since I have been able to sit down and watch Alex at 4pm and as such, and mostly because I am mad at MSNBC, I have stopped watching the news and tweeting like I used to.  Now it seems to me that this may have been the plan all along is to get me to stop tweeting and basically interacting with people.  But that's just a little paranoid yeah?  Well I am also missing Bill Maher.  Since we don't have enough to buy lottery tickets AND watch cable then we settle for lottery tickets.  NOW (shameless plug) with Gee no GTE, would be my choice for a NEW show at 4pm.  

The purpose of writing today is that I was just outside having my first cigarette and I thought of the word intrigue.  It's something just less of scandal and it's what happens when there is more to the story that what is being said.  I was recalling one time on Bill Maher's show when Sean Penn got up and walked out just seconds before the end of the show.  WHAT were you thinking?  What regular follower of his show would watch this, knowing he still had his OVERTIME bit to do and that you just WALKED OUT on part of his show; what follower of his would watch your movie now?   Hmm?  Why were you there, oh yeah it was to promote your movie and there you sit through the whole show and basically take away people from the ones that might have watched it.  

I started thinking about him because I was thinking of Samson in the Bible.  He gets betrayed but his has one final day of grace before he takes it out on the Philistines. And this made me think of the word Samson and how it could mean Son of Sam, whatever that means.  And this is the one movie Sean is perhaps remembered for even though I didn't watch it.  Any of you know anyone named Sam?  

So I was thinking of tweeting this unfortunate truth to Bill on Twitter and ending it with the hashtag #justsayin.  I know it urks Bill to say it because he used it on his show once.  He said that people that end their sentences with this are telling truths that they know are annoying in an effort to annoy you.  Now this is the important part right?  Because that is ALL he does.  His WHOLE SHOW is unfortunate truths which, if you're an outstanding comic, is your skill and trade; in other words your skill is to take something out of the ether and perhaps make it real, like an unfortunate truth.  So accordingly, I would deign to advise that walking off the show of Bill Maher is like shooting yourself in the foot and having to go to the hospital.  You did it to YOURSELF... just saying.  You know, he ought to start that hashtag for his show because I am sure people love to annoy comics and this is one way that it could be constructive for his show, and still alloy people to subliminally annoy him.  

It's like what SarahK exclaimed about Jonah Hill is that how wrong would I be to be annoyed at old jokes after I came up with a bunch of fat jokes... it's a ROAST.  But that's what it means to be a comic I think is that you are always getting annoyed by people that want to point out unfortunate truths to YOU just like you point those out in other people.  It's like catching the police speeding.  What's going on there?  What are you convincing me of exactly? (Kill Bill)

And all this and still no Alex.  There's no way I can go back to MSNBC even for Rachel but I just have noone else to watch and get that righteous feel that I used to get, and maybe that's for the best.  

I have begun playing Diablo3 a great deal now.  There are difficulty levels ranging from Master to Torment 1 all the way up to Torment 6.  I, of course went up to Torment 6 and tried it out first thing because I liked to get stomped that way and sure enough it's ridiculous.   I even get stomped on 5 and 4 and 3 and this is on my maxed out character with all legendary items.  I played it rarely a while back since I had Destiny to contend with and Dragon Age 3 which I haven't even gotten half of the story played out yet,  and all the while I thought these people that play at that level must ALL have hacked characters.  This I say because rarely I would follow one of them around the map and they would just BFG(stand for BIG EFFING GUN from DOOM) stuff and I would collect some great loot which was would be totally like cheating, except that I don't work for him, and that I had to take time to SWALLOW... that it was cheating.  

So there you go kids, it's not cheating until the second or third time or even the fourth, because it takes time to UNDERSTAND what you are doing when you are cheating with friends.  

#funnynotfunny

Anyways,  sometimes those characters get kicked out and I get kicked out along with them and XBOX Live likes to revoke letting you sign in and play with others for a while which makes sense I guess even though I am not the one cheating but I am.  Hmmf.  

Oh, anyways so now, even though my character can safely kill stuff on Master and I used to have NO FUN killing stuff on Torment, I am finding more stuff that gives you abilities on the items that make you just a little bit stronger.  And the funny thing is that you have to put together the skills to max out your favorite spells.  This item will add 20% spell damage over here, that item will add 20% to fire damage in general and another might give you critical chance which if you want to make it at all useful should be at 20% but is probably best at 33% if you can get it that high. Critical hits double your damage but are rare and yet this ability is totally tweekable.  The problem is that items have only so many different abilities, a max of 6.  And three of them that you should invest in is Intelligence, Vitality, and Armor.  At least that was my first thought since more hit points(Vitality gives you this) keep you from getting one shotted and allow you bounce around the map dropping spells without taking damage, etcetera, etcetera.  Now I saw something in YouTube that said that it is better to invest in some pieces for defense than others.  So like your head and chest pieces should have armor up and Vitality and your hand and wrist pieces should have speed or critical chance.  So basically once you really start to go through the gear(ie. buying gear and replacing and tweeking abilities) you can really up your damage and survivability.  The problem is that WAY BACK HERE before buying gear you need to get your play style down.  Your gear is gonna have spell damage and elemental damage up modifiers and what not.  After you perfect your gear though, you won't be able to just decide to start using explosive blast after you were all about the meteor spell.  So if you are following my advice, then get used to a play style and then buy gear for it and then prepare to ditch it all once REALLY good gear comes out that requires this spell or that spell because of OMG bonus to such and such spell or ability.  

At this point I can solo in dungeons at Torment 2 and maybe 3, so when I look for parties I look for level 3.  If I go at level 4 it's embarassing to see people destroying mobs and here you are with your DISINTEGRATE spell flowing full blast and you are running out of Mana and the monster is like laughing at you along with the other guys that are wondering WHEN you first learned to LEECH, lol.  Leeching is basically the practice of joining a group and picking up all the treasure without really contributing to the group.  

I sometimes wonder if I am a leech.  That GEICO commercial came out with the PIG hangin out of the window crying WEEEE, as in the little pigggy who cried weeee all the way home but really its about being a leech and being along for the ride.  But if I was a leech, what was I leeching by hanging out at the bar with the band and my sister among all of those OTHER girls and their guy friends?  What was I leeching when I went over to their houses and they told me that I wasn't welcome even though I didn't feel like I had wronged them in any way?  So if I have any enemies out there that don't like me for some reason that noone can explain I want you to answer one question for me? 

What are you trying to convince me of exactly? 

Redundancies

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So last night I had a recurring thought that the FBI was going to be betrayed by their own, by the Department of Homeland Security.  I thought to myself surely this was crazy but this morning I am not so sure.  Most of the time I don't think of the world as evil or as degenerate but as self-refreshing.  I once thought to myself that if ocean liners continued to pour waste into the oceans soon everyone would come to just live on ocean liners and sure enough the prices have gone down and there are more ocean liners than you can shake your fist at.  It's one of the world's great equalizers because, you know, international waters and all, means that you don't have to be from any sort of GOVERNMENT to run one of these ships.  Well I am getting off topic quickly today but what I mean is that there IS an invisible hand out there but it's not the hand of selfishness as Adam Smith projected but it IS the hand of GOD that corrects for human trespasses on the natural order of things.  Now you might think that this is like a loop right?  Isn't the natural order what we seek to forego when we choose to be civilized?  Yes.  But we can never get too far away from it no matter what your heart commands.  We can't spare the chickens.  We were MEANT to eat chickens and so we must.  We were meant to continue the carbon cycle and so we must.  We were meant to overthrow dictators and so we must.  We can't be kind about it or forgive some of them over and over or even pardon the turkeys too much, we must BOW to the natural order if not sooner then definitely later.  But natural order is what is commanded by GOD.  Just as time must march on, so must the whole Earth bow to the circle of life.  It's like having two parents that we all live under, Mother Nature and Father Time.  

They rule us, without question. 

Ok so way back there I was going to mention how a betrayal would take place.  So in my mind most things are like sands of the hourglass.  They are hugely important but mostly insignificant.  It's binary in some ways.  All we can do is all work together but IF SO then we must act in concert against someone.  There's no escaping the need to feed.  So by that measure... you know what I love about coffee?  I love that it doesn't condense moisture.  I sometimes like to drink a regular drink out of a coffee cup since most of my life I have drunk it and drank it and always there is moisture if I drink something besides coffee.  I have to wipe it up.  Of course this moisture is much more present if I use ice in my drink which I often do, and it's then that I realize the need to bring a napkin with me to sit down to help wipe up the moisture.  Today for example I was awoken for some reason.  I think it is something to do with my liver or maybe the crack of my ass(not what you think) which unsettled my stomach while I was sleeping.   For some reason I am able to eat much more than normal and this always puts me in danger at night.  While I am sitting there eating it is not apparent that I am overdoing it, but as the food starts to settle it really makes me toss and turn so as to face my stomach in such a way as to not by pinched in my body somehow.  Yes, I know I should probably go see a doctor and once I get my old job back and have medical insurance again I will be sure to check on that... (smiling because this is too funny but NOT funny).  

Oh, so redundancies.  Well in my world there are many examples of things that occur that are redundant like four wheels or like two ears or like two sides to your mouth.  You know recently, I cracked a molar and this caused my whole mouth to become different.  I used to clack my jaws when I chewed and one day people mentioned it to me because I was completely oblivious to it.   This is like a whole nother topic now but I have to address it now that it is in my head.   A long time ago ALL my family started to mention that I needed to see the doctor to have my jaw fixed.  One day even my Uncle from another country put his two cents in and mentioned it to me.  I was distraught.  I wondered if maybe I really should go have an operation to fix it.  What an incredible procedure that would have been right?  How would I look as they "fixed" my jaw I wonder?  Ha!  The terror of it grips me even now.  But I ignored them and started to struggle to chew more softly.  This of course led so less pleasure in chewing since before I could CRUSH the food and now I sort of bit it and licked it and softly chewed it so as to not make my jaws clack.  But let me get next to steak or some tough food that was really GOOD and there I was again clacking my jaws and people all looking at me like I was a retard.  Hmmf.  So many years of this go by and as I see it now it was probably the beginning of their rule over me because I remember how confident I used to be and this was probably where my confidence started to go, and not for obvious reasons right?  So fast forward to I crack off a chunk of my molar and begin to chew MUCH more carefully and I have to keep a toothbrush and spit cup next to my chair and I get no pleasure in chewing like I once did because most of my chewing is now done on the opposite side of where I was used to which is totally like HALF the pleasure of chewing where I had always chewed and whatdayaknow...  my jaws don't clack anymore.  Everyone's happy... hmmf.  

Oh yeah, the fall of the FBI.  I guess that's important.  So remember that because I am not getting paid for any of this, you can rest assured that I am earnest.  I don't have ties to another country or to some organized crime unit or even to my old job or the military, though I could see how you would think that, ha!  So when you have redundancies, it's usually not an accident.  If you have TWO brothers, one of them is the good one.  Two JFKs, one of them's gotta go.  Two wives?  One of them is the childrens wife the other one is the sex wife.  Two cars, well you get the idea.  It's like a backup.  Always a use for a backup mostly for when you get bored but maybe because there is a real danger of the system falling apart if the primary fails.  Now this reminds me now of what my father said.  He said to me, AFTER I had bought my second car to replace my old one which still ran well so I kept my old one.  He said, "you cannot have TWO cars".  I explained it to him the usefulness of a backup and that the old car had a CD changer and that the new car would not have problems if I used the old car more frequently... but for some reason... he went back to saying "yes but son, you canNOT have two cars."  I still don't get it but maybe today I get it because soon I took my old car to the mechanic and he charged my a whopping two grand for a repair that began as 600.  Later I lent my car out and some people took care of it some people didn't.  Eventually it got crashed by someone and water started to leak into the trunk and since I didn't want to replace it, I gave it to goodwill, despite the 2k in good parts it had somewhere in there with a rebuilt whatever.  

But I guess that's my message for you today is that you cannot have two FBI's.  I was dreaming about the FBI and Star Wars you see?  I was dreaming that I went there and asked them to let me work in their FBI building and that I started to follow some of them around much like Joe Pesci followed around Mel Gibson... what was that saying he used to say?  Something something SOMETHING in the drive thru?  Anyways... it occurred to me then the Jedi were betrayed.  They were leading all of their clones in the war against whoever else that didn't matter and were insignificant, and all along the WAR was against the Jedi.  It weren't but some fool obstreperants that were concocting the whole notion of fear.  And just then it occurred to me that the TSA and the DHS were created for just this role... to become the clones... to become the redundancies that would un-hinge the FBI.  Sound real?  Hey man, that's why I'm here.  Now that I don't have a JOB, my job is to prophecize.  Don't blame me for speaking, think about it for yourselves, and prepare accordingly.  

It's like when they come for Duke Lito in the movie DUNE and the wives are all part of these witches that help each other but ultimately bow to their own ends but still tell each other everything... sort of.  

"What can be done has been done".  

So guys... yeah.  Get it done.  Prepare, not for war but for what normally happens.  Prepare for God.  

PS. God if you've been bad, GALACTUS if you've been very bad... :) maybe they already came and left right?  Rapture already happened maybe?  Oh now this reminds me of something else I wanted to capture on text is about the rapture.  I already told you that to be in Heaven is not to fear death but to acknowledge it as fateful and logical.  If you can sleep at night, you are in Heaven, your MIND is in heaven.  SO this take of all the good people being taken up to heaven during the Rapture without death, is incorrect.  The Rapture is simply the zombie apocalypse happening.  People will all either embrace fear or will lose it and become zombies, or they will understand that the loss of christianity in the world had to happen someday and then they will be overwhelmed.  This is opinion of course and obviously a great movie would make this terrible to behold but it's just another way of expressing that dictators are overturned violently and "nature" takes over, soon after a little of it takes over our leaders.  

Trees

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You might think that it has been a long time since I wrote anything but often I get ideas only after weeks of doldruming it out in my mind what the world needs to hear.  I have watched a lot of youtube recently about destiny and piano stuffs and it's nice to see people there reacting just like I do, with concern for their fellow man.  After some regular conversation on say the best strategy for learning piano and conquering crucible, we get to a "helpful" video on how to address our personal concerns.  Not dissimilarly, comedians often have adroit responses for people problems much like I do.  But therein lies the irony yes?  Because how can you start to help people without SOME people perceiving that as arrogance.  Even in one Staind song there is a verse about helping a parent who's child committed suicide to their song.  It's a dangerous road to help people.  Bill Maher I remember during the beginning of his rise had real problems with the audience wanting to make his show a pep rally, something militant.  SarahK and other comedians often have this happen to them that they are insulted or offended because "helpful" people want to take over the comedy, probably not in the vain that they see(like competition) but as "help".   It's important then to note how treacherous those waters are of "helping" the masses.  I once thought about becoming a rock star.  I used to be very good at karaoke and for a while I started to ponder arranging my selections around a theme.  I could do 2 sad songs then an upbeat one and then a finale.  What a job right?  FOUR SONGS, man, someone wipe my forehead!  But we all got problems.  In time, since my sister coincidentally started dating a singer for a local band, I was content to just promote their shows and not serve as competition.  But I also learned a lot because they would try to find something to disturb the audience rather than help it.  Then it occurred to me that they were using the old Elvis mentality of leave them wanting more.  It's work to simplify things.  People grow all scraggly-like, much like a plant, next to a house BENDING towards the light and away from the house.  People are wild but NOT so wild.  

That's fate.  

The more we have fate the more we are slaves to our masters that form our environment.  Our masters form their houses and us little people are forced to BEND out of the way for our sunlight.  We have choice but we have a lot more of it when we are smaller or younger.  I have a big huge tree for example sitting in my front yard shows the reality of it.  My parents' house was the first built in the area.  It was barren and devoid of trees at the time.  The tree that was planted at the time was just a sapling and yet now it is the tallest tree in a neighborhood full of trees.  

Losing my point now but I reckon we all have to balance our freedom with our spirit.  We want to be free but we also want to have healthy roots and space to grow.  We want to help our neighbors but not so much that they intrude in our lives.  Sometimes they can intrude A GREAT DEAL.  Such is my take on God.  God is wrath.  The people always find a way to repair intrusions.  You could say that the people, once enslaved, find a way to freedom.  The more the rich oppress, the sooner the revolution.  I wonder if Marie Antoinette realized how serious her situation was as the people started to WIN their revolution.  Surely they wouldn't chop my head off she must have thought.  I remember thinking that too as I was losing my job and such.  Being poor is normal and if I lost my job then maybe I wasn't supposed to have so much money.  I was making a lot of money.  But in retrospect, God decides.  God is wrath.  If you are working hard, people leave you alone but if people notice you, then they start to wonder about acting against you I guess.  Losing my point again.  Oh so, I think it is safe to say that people should watch out when they try to help humanity.  I noticed that good rock bands care nothing about the audience.  Sarah and Bill give opinions on their own time but keep that separate from their act so as to fuel their following but never to "help" them.  Such was my fate when I tried to sing particular songs or improvise lyrics.  At first it was applauded and after a few weeks of it, people became really irritated perhaps because I looked rather arrogant doing it yeah?  One time people asked me if I could yodel and so I did it and they applauded it and some weeks later NO WAY was I gonna yodel on stage because frankly it started to feel vain to do fancy singing.  

So I lost my point, oh so wrath is something that God is in charge of.  A revolution is simply a bunch of people correcting for people that have over-estimated.  Usually you might think that rebels and terrorists lead the march to revolution but in reality it's the comedians that do it.  Through free speech and irony they are the first to signal unrest and by that token should be taken seriously, or relatively seriously so as to make the best of impending whatevers.  As you might guess, it's hard to pinpoint who or what or where this might happen but if you have a good system, like we do, we can hopefully trust that people will signal their distrust.  It's funny because SarahK and Bill are probably single because they are... I wish I knew.  There is something there that is going to keep them single and ME single and I don't want to be single but it's depressing to look back and try to figure out how I became like this, like a prima donna or whatever.  Do I have some sort of complex?  I honestly don't think so.  Put me next to some good-looking girl and I am sure going to try for her and soon after some sessions of whatever we are probably going to be in love.  

But will my psyche allow that?  Or will I do what I always do and wonder if she is after my money or working with THOSE people or if she is just the wrong this or that?  Will I worry that THIS GUY banged her once or that she's got too many children or that her problems aren't my problems.  

It's much easier to grow, when you are small.