Anyone see a pattern?

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Can you believe that 70% of the spending on intelligence spending goes to private contractors? I realize smart people created this little realm of BS but 70%!? On intelligence?!

What is necessary for someone to be a reliable assassin? Well he needs to have belief. I know, I watched too much of the movie Serenity but fact is, a person that is opportunistic is the opposite of someone with belief. Someone with belief acts without thought of himself, he acts as a torch-bearer, he is immune to money.

Now lessee, hmm, how much of our assassination(aka. intelligence) should go to private individuals? Yeah, it's exactly backwards isn't it?!

You know you can do this with zeros and ones and it's much simpler to explain. I think you know what I mean.

Kamikazees! and ONE-dollar bills of course!

Anyways, I am watching CSPAN now and they are talking about Snowden and now this fact plops out and wow, doesn't everyone in the military feel like a tool now. How hard is it keep secrets now that our people with the secrets get "promoted" to PRIVATE companies.

You FOOLS! You do it to yourself. NOW! It's time to have a talk about intelligence.

How to smoke

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Last night I got my Rachel fix and then right after her I got me some Alex.

OUCH!

Well I guess that's why you don't put Rachel next to Alex that often... why you ask? Well they might start talking politics and in your mind they start to tilt their heads and grab each other's shoulders and then.. and then... and THEN....

Whew. Ok segue into what I want to talk about. Good news though cuz I guess I am past all that juvenile blue eyed blonde dynamic I used to have about dating. I used to think that girls with brown eyes reminded me too much of my mother's side of the family, and girls with dark skin reminded me too much of by dad's side but whattayaknow... HAPPY MEDIUM. Hah!

I can finally be ok with dating my cousins!

In other news, YES I am still sane thanks for asking, I wanted explain about how to smoke better. Yep. It's legal and if you are gonna try it and like it first you must accept that it is evil or rather frowned upon. It's a big deal to do something that is frowned upon because even though you may be like me and not talk to a lot of people because, what could they TEACH you, truth is they could teach you not to do things that are frowned upon. I have said this before, it bears repeating, BRING HELP.

Now smoking at first is totally rejected by your body. People laugh at you when they see you cough because there is not mistaking your naivete once you let people see you cough. But as you become more resistant to the "evil" of the smoke, you are able to enjoy it more. You get in deeper.

Obviously you should first know of the different levels of power of smoking. 100s are the least powerful. These are the long thick cigarettes that seem to accidently burn most people. Be prepared for accidental burns and maybe even getting a cinder caught on your shirt or jeans with these cigarettes. It bears noting that ever since they started adding the FSC label to the cigarettes, the tobacco doesn't seem to want to clump together very much. This causes a lot more of the ash and cinders to come off which may seem off little consequence but I have had a lot of trouble with cinders burning my fingers while I am driving. I am just waiting for the day that I read about some guy that got one in the eye and was made a millionaire because of FSC(Fire Safery Content). I also don't like the idea that I have to relight the cig because that puts more butane in my lungs right? That means more chances of cancer. Be very careful of inhaling the butane because nothing dead belongs in your body, least of all somcthing that is made from "FOSSIL" fuels. It seems like they save some people just to infect a whole lot of other people with cancer. Hmmf.

But you STILL WANNA SMOKE dontcha! You are like millions in debt or you know your wife is cheating on you but you still want her or you have discovered porn and no longer enjoy talking to women SO, NOW THAT YOU ARE DOOMED, it's time to smoke.

Now after you have got yourself all nice and comfortable smoking 100s. Your "next level" of power comes by upgrading to shorts. Now it is assumed you chose to pick the lights becasue they put less tobacco in those. But the shorts have a shorter filter so you will get same level of tobacco but less filter. This is a big step. You are REALLY gonna like smoking at this point.

Next comes switching to the regulars. Regular cigarettes are meant for cowboys and indians. People that work out all day can smoke thses and still survive. You, mr. 8-hour cubicle guy, are not gonna survive these.. I used to do maintenace work all day long and my friend smoked these non-stop and I tried to also smoke these and only thing that happened was I became less-productive.

This is really too much power for a cubicle guy. If you want a slight decrease you could switch to regular 100s. Winston 100s was my favorite till they messed with the flavor then I went back to Marlboro Light shorts.

In an act of lust for power and maybe just to show off to your friends, after having smoked regular shorts for a while, you could opt for unfiltered. Yep, it's out there like the moonshine of cigs it is the MOST powerful of all. To smoke these is like swallowing some tobacco chew. Some people can withstand it, but noone believes that they are doing it because they like it. Still, there is a time and place where blowing a cloud of smoke SO THICK that it stains your shirt, is useful.

HOw do you know you have taking this little habit too far?

Well your first indication will come when your teeth start to yellow. Unoincidentally, smoking short regulars is like raising a flag that you don't like people, or that your intent is to use them or at least that you have so many demons that THIS MUCH smoking is all that will quiet them.

The smell on your clothes is another indication. You will have to wash your clothes after having worn them only once. This may seem normal except that people in Europe don't even bathe every day and here you are washing clothes more often than they bathe, and... you are STILL LESS HEALTHY than they are. Makes you feel like a moron doesn't it?

The most effective indication, which I have shared with my brother is coughing. Overnight, your body is doing all the same work you do during the day but healing your body. Your overfilled stomach gets regulat, your overstrained eyes get some much needed attention in the form of crust and puss. Your sores become all hardened and ready to pick, your nose is full of boogers and is ready to be flushed out. AND your lungs are filled with little cluster boogers just waiting for their turn to be coughed out of your system.

Now if you want my experience, I have come all the way down to smoking light 100s again. Why? Because only those cigarettes are SO light that they produce ZERO coughing the day after. If I smoke lights, I go back to coughing the next morning ever so slightly.

Now it bears noting here that the more you smoke the more you want to. I go up and down smoking a whole lot and then stopping it altogether, and then smoking a whole lot. When I have stopped for a while I enjoy that first breath of cigarette and by the time I get to the end I can't take it so much because the filter is used up at that point. But as I start to smoke more often, I start to enjoy lighting up more often. I only enjoy the cigarette as it is about to be put out, and then I have to light another one which gives me no satisfaction until I am up to the end of the cigarette again... and then I have to light up another one!

See. This is the addiction. The taste you get is actually the hit of smoke that is clearing a big hole in your throat that gets ever slightly bigger. So you need more of a hit, so you need more smoke or more nicotine.

This must be what it's like for girls who want big dicks. They can still get off without it but they are stuck in a loop. They want their hole to get larger even though they could be perfectly happy just fighting for that orgasm a little more.

This is what it must be like for fags. They must want more even though they already got plenty. It's no small wonder people want to look down on people like this but it is FAR more useful to understand, so that we can heal. UNDERSTAND.... so that we can heal.

Only a wounded physician can heal.

What I do is try not to think about fags and stupid people. I know it has nothing to do with me so I call up my friends and ask em who we gonna beat up tonight! Ya cuz when you beating on people you don't get curious about your ahole!

That last part was sarcasm.

So if you wanna understand what more is all about, what addiction is all about try smoking. Don't believe that crap that it's hard to quit. If you have the will you can do it. But stopping something you yourself like is like logrolling. Captain's logrolling.

Now, I will leave it to you to decide what is best.

For some guys it's mechanical

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I used to love Vanilla Sky. It reminded me of a very beautiful woman that I was once in love with. I never used to think so but then my father asked me once if I loved her and it occurred to me that I must be if he's asking me about it.

The downside is she was married. I won't say I was actively going after her but because a previous relationship was as friends that turned to something else, then I wondered if this was also.

Problem with me is that my first serious relationship was with a married woman who needed out of her marriage. He was cheating on her and the clues were everywhere and all this while she was working 50 hours a week at a restaurant.

Psychologically this made me a bitch-man. Because she made it obvious to me that she wanted me, I got programmed perhaps incorrectly, to wait for the woman to make it obvious. I had such a sense of pride in myself that if a woman was not dropping her pants after our first night out, then she must not be that interested because if she was she would act like this married woman acted.

I realize now that this is wrong because it's easy to drop your pants when you are already screwing someone, namely your husband. In fact you could say that this is why guys that are married are ALSO easily bedded because to them it's all mechanical and flavor oriented.

Feelings have nothing to do with it.

So while I am growing up (in my 20s, eek) I keep waiting and waiting and waiting for all these girls to give me eyes or hands or to touch me or at least smell nice and when some few of them do I react like a bitch-man. I put myself on the backup list and tell myself "alright now that I am on her list, all I have to do is wait for her to leave him", ...and you can guess how many times THAT happened!

Wow. I could actually keep complaining for AGES and I don't get tired of hearing myself, this is GREAT! Hmm, maybe not so good for my readers ya? Well, TOO BAD!

Fact is, I kept waiting for single women to pop up somewhere out of nowhere and they NEVER showed. I hung out at the same bars. I went to parties when I could. But I never saw some girl sitting there waiting for me to go up and talk to her. NEVER. So someone up there is either playing a trick on me or over time I got a bad reputation. But what can I do? Ask someone hey do I got a bad rep? No. I just have to keep guessing what is up and wondering where the cows are.

Well to be fair I want OMG girls. I am or was too arrogant. It's not meant to be off-putting, I developed it as a defense mechanism for when I was too scared to talk to a girl. It's like seeing your dead mother and then saying, "it's not her". To face your fear is a frightful thing.

Ok sidetracked, this reminds me of Lincoln. he said it would take days to prepare a good short speech, but he could come back and talk facts in about an hour with some certitude but that if you were really in a hurry he could give a rambling dreadfully long speech right NOW!

So back to Vanilla Sky, so in the movie he falls in love with Sofia but only after being careless with Julie's feelings. He was a REAL jerk to Julie I might add, and Cameron Diaz should charge Tom something extra for that role.

Once you scare someone, they never forget your face. For an actor to do it, is like signing your own retirement. But like most things it's a risk. My days of liking Cameron Diaz came to a quiet close after that movie, so that's why she needs to charge him something but meh I liked her in Knight and Day so I guess he got it right.

Anyways, I watched this movie over and over and if I wasn't in love at first, with that girl my father mentioned, I came closer to it after watching this movie. I started to dream that it was possible but that I lost my chance... or that my best days were behind me. I started to believe that I was doomed to not be with someone I actually loved, but to settle.  

I have it on DVD but recently I watched it on streaming video and I got a very different take on it. This time I saw someone that could not escape his bad reputation. (It's funny because I am now much cured of most previous desires I had.)  

Everywhere he turned, people seeing him, him looking at himself, and always this crushed face in the mirror that the first girl Julie caused to have happen to him. The only solution, to accept your father is dead that your friend was true to you and that at least you have a chance to fix all that after you come back to life. Good message TOM! Lessee if I got this right about someone in love.

"You're long dead, I'm frozen, and I love you" "It's a problem" " That's ok, I can find you again"

So what is next? OH I dunno, movie says to jump off a building...

Jerks. This means you Nancy Wilson. Don't think I don't know it was you that told them all this STUFF to put in the movie. Impeccable music btw, you know if you were a mermaid, and took your top off, and could play underwater...

I keep wanting to end this.. um lessee how to get back at Nancy Wilson... "don't run too fast like a shot from a gun// don't jump too high and knock out the sun// don't fly away to places unknown// cuz when you finally come knockin, when you finally come knockin there'll be nobody home// nobody home//

Ps. YOu know what's funny is that TOM Cruise was dating Penelope Cruz after the movie right? But in the very first part of the movie there is a scene with a front cover with Katie Holmes on it. A VERY FINE youngsomething Katie Holmes in shorts.  Wow. Kudos man, you might be unwittingly getting people to jump off of buildings, hah, but at least you know what you want.

Two for me, none for you! XD 

Oh and just to take some of that steam off, recently I pictured Helen Hunt getting stopped by someone who was curious to know if she knew at the time that she would be getting people killed by making the movie Twister? Food for thought(FFT)

AHHHH not again!

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Alex Wagner.  OUCH!

ps. I can go now.

What's this? WHAT'S this?

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I am totally against the bill to have private investigators brought in to investigate military abuses. Talk about 180. If I would have known that by advocating allowing them to serve the first thing they would do is "cry rape" to shake the very foundation of authority I would not have suggested they be allowed in.

When you take orders from people it's possible for them to abuse that trust. That's called "changing the contract". The image that comes to mind is Mel Gibson's Road Warrior. Mel is almost let go after beating his man in a "2 men enter, 1 man leaves" judgement. But later on the ruler yells to the crowd that she had something more to say before it was over. Her law says "break the deal, face the wheel".

On a personal note, wouldn't that be a great way to minimize prison time? I think people should be hauled off to the Empire State Building and strapped to the spire and told that if he survives 2 hours during a storm, he is free to go. This way it's up to god if he gets to leave. Of course, the fear of what he would do given this "chance" probably doesn't sit well with those that may have caused him to be arrested.

But that's how it is in the military. You get a chance based on "how useful" you are. There are no crimes unless you make them crimes. And some crimes are not even crimes. Bouncing a check is a court martial offense for example. Obviously, this means every officer follows a strict code of honor.

Now it is the height of arrogance to believe that some few people walk "above" this code. The more charged you duty and honor, the sexier you feel and the more engaging you are going to be.

I don't believe in criminals, I believe in culture. People do what they can get away with. They don't walk over a cliff when ordered. They don't understand what RIGHT is anymore than a teenager past his curfew.

I do believe in animals and in loss of faith. Sen. Chambliss had it right when he said what he said about hormones being responsible. People that do crimes for the most part, have no paycheck. People that are 20 are exceedingly young and trying things new and frayed from the norm. They aren't trying to hurt anyone unless they themselves have been hurt.

Ok that's enough defense for people accused of sexual assault. Now in defense of people being victimized, it's their charge to tell a great deal of people what has happened. Fact is, they can lie. That's why it's good to remember my famous age old motto from the bar.

BOTH MUST GO.

If your suffering is so much that you can't take it anymore or if some terrible thing happens, like rape, and you feel somebody's gotta die, well then you should have the right to have "harassment transfer."

It is everyone's right to kill one person. That's why guns are allowed because if someone is coming for you, then you can give up and kill yourself or you can help the world out and "take care" of him like the emperor from Star Wars would say. But you gotta pay for that so in an effort to minimize escalation in the military, you should have the right to claim exile instead of death. But to minimize victimization which rewards bad behavior with glory... you should have the right to exile your opponent.

It's not new. Duels date back to David and Goliath. You don't have to lose control to get satisfaction if you can just POOF this jerk and accept exile yourself. It's good for him since he won't like getting POOFED all over the country, and it's good for you since you avoided having to store any more of the hate the builds as you have to sit there and watch him/her that either got away with the rape or got away with accusing you of rape.

And it's good for society. People like closure. They like to know that people got what was coming to them. Everyone knows there are two sides to every story so why does ONE person go to JAIL?!

I believe we need to trust the leaders. I always believe in that. Trust engenders peace and even if you trust the wrong person, that person that wrongs you, eventually moves to somone else, and then someone else and then you get your day to speak out against them.

It would be faster to POOF them. Especially if you trap em. You know they can't help themselves, the poor suckers, so TRAP THEM!

I was trapped when they got me in the drive-thru. Still raw about it somewhat but now that I understand good and evil more, traps are what cops DO! Animals can't help themselves and the only way to stop it is to trap them.

You ever notice that in Chess, the Queen moves this way and that, the bishop moves diagonally but they all move consistently. All except the Knight. That's because Knights are SUPPOSED TO TRAP YOU if you are out of control. Pawns can trap too but its easy to see pawns ahead of time.

Was I out of control? I don't believe so but I am much better with it now that I realize what the other side was thinking. In my mind trapping people is evil, but fact is traps are made to catch animals. They are made to catch evil. They stop chaos. So meh, I accept what happened now, despite all the LYING that took place!

Ok I am so sidetracked now. I was supposed to make this quick. Lessee oh yeah, might is right is wrong. People should not be at the drive-thru trying to find out if they can get extra fries or pick up the window girl. Equal respect is what we expect from our civilians. So as civilians we should not have to stand up for ourselves because our role in life is to produce. TO PRODUCE. SAFETY IS A GIVEN!

This is far from what the norm should be in the military or in the family or on the wall. Producers produce, destroyers destroy. So children should be beaten up until they can beat you up and then they can go. They are adults. Harassment as a child is expected because you are bouncing this way and that trying to find out what you can get away with. That's family. Same thing goes for military. They aren't comtemplating their thoughts and wondering if orders are justified. They are following orders, period.

In the words of Patricles from the movie TROY, SOLDIERS OBEY.

Doesn't mean we can't hit somebody with a room full of smelly underwear when the rest of the men find out. You will find that my take on CODE REDS is much abridged now that I understand that self-righteousness has NO PLACE in the military. If you need a movie to remind you of what duty and military is and just what an enemy Captain is capable of, watch the movie U-571 where the acting captain cries out...

"This is not a democracy!"

ps. think of McCain telling some "trusted" and non-elected aide to keep his secrets while he makes another trip to Syria right after he meets with Gen. Petraus to remind him who's got his balls.  Do you really want to mix the public with the military?

Dumb blonde

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So recently I have put a bazaar message that states what the meaning of Sakura is.  It's a hidden meaning.  It is referred to somewhat in the movie Mulan.  It's difficult to tell in the movie if it is about an old Japanese adage or if it is Chinese since the parable of the "blossom" is related to also in Samurai Showdown because Ukyo, my favorite character from the video game, is on that same quest, to find the blossom that blooms in the wilderness.  Mulan is about China, Samurais come from Japan.

Alex Wagner.  OUCH! 

I got that saying from Lacey Chabert in the movie Lost in Space.  At the time it was a reminder to me that yeah, even women have these "unattainable" goals in their heads about who they want to be with. 

It seems so unfair sometimes. 

But who are the people you want?  The ones surrounded by "proof" of your good decision-making skills.  Movie stars, rock stars and the people that throw the parties.  "Guilty as charged, your honor" "Thank you for playing."

I watched one movie with her in a desert.  It was an example of people that had it all and lost it based on one stupid decision or better yet by trusting someone careless.  It's sad she didn't become more popular in comedies because her "brand" is entertaining and fun to watch and charming I think (sometimes when I edit I become redundant).  Her brand is neurotic, unhappy, and genius but she turned out far too pretty to pull that genius thing off I think.  She has like the body of Bonanza with the face of Quincy if that even makes sense. 

I call it "the blonde syndrome".  People too good-looking cannot possibly have learned anything inciteful.  That's why Rachel (Rachel Maddow duh, again redundant) comes across as genius. That's why Jennifer Aniston comes across that way too.  She is not OMG beautiful but has like a balance of wit, anger, and dead beautiful eyes that could interrupt you from talking, but to look at her from a distance you would just pass her in the street not knowing who she was. 

Let's see, who is also like Lacey?  Um, Heather Graham.  Yup.  Gillian Anderson, double-yup.  Fact is the more I watch the reruns (of the X-Files:)) the less I believe she could be a doctor.  But I still love the show.  Kristen Stewart.  Maybe, but something is missing... some ye no se qua, but not genius.  Too pretty to be genius. 

I guess, to me, the most obvious exception is Sharon Stone.  Yeah, she is like a Jezebel.  That much beauty could rule the world. The only word for her is "unbelievable".  Angelina is another example maybe but she is too pretty also.  Ok, that said, I take that back about Sharon Stone.  She does not appear all that smart, hahaha. 

Funny huh? The better you look, the more opportunities you are capable of having, the more people perceive you as "a dumb blonde".

ps. Did anyone else notice that Krystal Ball's voice has gone from cheerleader to grown woman? And did anyone else expect Chris Hayes to be this good at his job?  Kudos to both of you.