As the whore moans

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It's time to cut my hair.  

Thankfully it's getting cold and all of the raging hormones from spring are about to be spent.  This is good so that I don't go flirting/not flirting with people on Twitter.  

I just got finished coming back from the store and one guy calls out to this girl "what's your name" and I turn and look and WOW there's this girl with an ACE body wearing a skin tight dress.  I was slightly offended about a minute later after I finished agreeing with his sentiment that she was REALLY good-looking.  

But for some reason I didn't need to call out and get her attention.  Yeah, having been subject to harassment enough times I don't like to "compliment" people in public too much anymore.  

But on Twitter it's different.  I like people to know I am thinking about them or that I look forward to seeing them on TV or what have you so I don't consider that harassment.  

There are times that after a good show or something it occurs to me that she may or may not know how GREAT she was so that's when I send out "applause" tweets, not as harassment, but as applause.  

I have a back problem.  I don't know how it happened.  I slept on my bed with a sinkhole in it for one too many nights and now my back is twisted.  Every time I try to get up from bed now, one half of my body feels like it is about to pop or something.  I walk forward and, I kid you not, it looks like I am a hunchback.  I don't know how it happened but after a week, I changed out the mattress and finally got me a bed with no dip in it and things got back to normal slowly but every once in a while, I wake up with that feeling like I have a hernia somewhere... a huge one.  

When I changed the box spring I found that one of the wooden supports were warped WAY out of proportion which seems incredible but I guess maybe I threw a dumbbell on the bed or something once maybe.  What a disaster though.  I literally couldn't walk right for days.  I hope that it all heals up soon.  Better to mention it now I guess since, who knows how long I will have this... condition. 

I have started to use these shoes that are like slippers but shoes(loafers) and because they are so easy to use, I have stopped using tennis shoes which saves a lot of time putting them on.  Oddly, the tennis shoes I had to use with socks but these shoes I don't have to.  I mean I can still use them with socks but they are kinda thick so it gets sort of contrained in there if I do.  

The downside, of using these without socks, is that sometimes I get this infection right on the corner of my big toes.  I use powder in my shoes, old habit, but I can't tell if it's the fungus that does it or if the powder is getting in there and irritating my toenails.  Recently I tried smothering the area with alcohol and putting some on my feet and that seemed to cure all the problems but now I don't know whether to go back to powder or to start using alcohol for that.  

I could go back to tennis schoes I suppose, with socks, but with my back the way it is, I don't like to sit high on the bed like I have to because it pinches the small of my back somehow.  

I cleaned the XBOX yesterday.  It got cold so I turned off the fan that I had directly on the power supply and STILL it overheated.  I took the plastic pieces off and resolved to dismantle the whole thing but since I found SO MUCH DUST, I simply hit it with the vacuum cleaner and reassembled it and now it seems to be ok.  It's lucky I have a backup XBOX with it's backup power supply that let it work fine.  

Politics don't bother me so much anymore.  I wonder if that is a good thing.  I used to get so riled up with Crossfire but now it's like meh, Democrats losing, so, it's time to quit.  

I think noone has any idea why gas prices are going down.  I have an idea why.  I think it has to do with people knowing what an ass-kicking a Republican president is going to have on the world.  Maybe they know what's comin with Republicans in charge yeah?  

Putin's all changin the map and we sitting here on our hands like Coswell Cogs and Spacely Sprockets... 

"m-m-m-move it?" he said. "MOVE IT!" I said.

So with Rick Scott as governor and people all ok with Christie keeping his Sandy money and Wall Street all having bought this election, maybe it's time to fire up those sacrificial temples for the Republicans so that the world can get ready for the ass-kicking they deserve.  

After all, one of the proofs of sanity is that... 
"He CAN be taught." 

Baby chair

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You are such a child.  

Has anyone ever told you guys that before?  One time I was about to drive off with my sister and this one girl, and then this girl that has a striking resemblance to Sarah Silverman said similar words to me.  In fact, one time she was doing impersonations and SarahK said "watch me do this one of Neve Campbell" and then she just sat there, lol.  Yeah, like that.  She looks like this girl, too.  Anyways so I get into her car and she points to the baby chair and says would you like to ride there?  

Yeah, that's not getting old anytime soon.  

I spend years trying to earn her affection and I find out I am "baby chair" material.  Thanks a lot. 

So today I'm going to explain to you today about instinct.  Instinct is not very hard.  Civility is, well it's intentional.  You are sort of "stopping yourself" from doing things if you are civil.  

All of humanity, (don't you love when I start a sentence like that?), has it withing their power to save themselves from destruction.  In the Bible, it says that if we find only 10 people out of the morass of others that are corrupt, we can still all be saved.  I'm not sure how it goes but I think Noah or Sodom or Gomorra or one of those, what?  I'm not Jewish ok? But I can play one on a TV... lol. 

Ok back to writing... so you only need these few faithful people to keep up the pillars of society because otherwise they would just eat each other and there would be nothing left.  All of them would attack each other first and with NOONE to complain to, it becomes just a flood of chess moves and blood until only 2 Kings and some pawns are left... probably not 2 kings either, just some pawns are left.  

But to stop that you need civil people.  Instinctively we dominate others.  We make harems, because women can't defend themselves, we make territories because SUPERMAN can't be everywhere at once, and we make children because the proof of your excellence comes in the eyes of your child and knowing that he will live on thinking like you do when you are gone.  It's like immortality-lite because well, because civility messes all of that up.  

Your child might not like your new wife for example or he might listen to too many people at school that say this and this is abuse and such and such is RICH and if anything happens well you're a kid and even if you are lying... Just say, "I'm just a kid."(The Changeling)  

No harm done.  

In an instinctual world we wouldn't have to worry about that.  Kids would misbehave right up until push came to shove and they realized there was nothing else but their parents to learn from.  

In society, we have a much larger "family".  Our goal is to "familiarize" everyone with the law and hopefully do that at an early age.  We get confused when it comes to children because we love them so much and they don't necessarily love us back because they don't understand love yet, they only understand need.  MHP(Melissa Harris Perry) had it right when she said that society's children should all be treated like everyone's children.  I believe this is so that they could all be looked after with care rather than suspicion and of course to avert or correct any abuse.  

But this gets me back to my original point, is that instinctively we are not civilized.  I don't need a baby chair when I act out or cry for help.  I don't lie.  People expect me to just be kidding until slowly I stop kidding and then I am serious.  I don't do kidding.  I am only serious. I am either seriously trying to be funny or seriously not trying to be funny but if I am playing around with you, it, at least in my mind, should be obvious to you because I am always so serious.  

I think I have lost my point now.  

Oh, the baby chair, well at that point she was probably waiting for me to ask her out and I was probably waiting for her to act like she was single and interested, so that never happened.  

When people ask me to stop being so childish you have to remember that instinctively as children we work together and trust everyone we know... and then as grown ups we learn to hunt... so maybe that's the lesson they are trying to teach me is for me to learn to hunt! Or maybe just to grow up, yeah, grow up, that's it! I should learn to grow up because lying is what grown ups do, especially when they are trying to be impressive.  Pfft. 

Or maybe... the girl could just earn my trust and my affection, SHE COULD TOUCH ME,  so I don't feel that my feelings are at risk, when I ask her out.  

You women don't like to be scorned, yeah? Well who do you think taught the men to scorn?

PS. This is sorta painful to relive but truth is she never was that interested in me so meh.  Which is SO ANNOYING because I am so good-looking, lol.  Society is weird... instinctively, if we all acted on instinct, my life would be different. 

EDIT: Ok so it's early and I still feel like writing so, yesterday I watched Interstellar.  It was a good movie about the end of the world much like the episode Inner Light from TNG in which Picard gets put on this dying world and realizes the COST of being a Captain and perhaps that every life is beautiful, EVEN if it is simple and without risk.  So Mcconaughey, (had to teach myself to spell that name) has these children and oddly enough it's about a guy whose wife died which is very much like the end of the world for a guy and halfway through the movie he is convinced to go off and try to save the world and leave his children behind which sounds like it really could be the way to go.  The whole movie focuses on whether this dimensional rift that opens up in Saturn(the god of WINE I think aka: the BAR) allows humanity to survive but he has to go explore and FIND other POSSIBLE worlds and in so doing he has to do it with this old man's daughter and some other scientologists.  It doesn't escape me that this whole movie could be about some guys and a girl "friend" and a couple of bars.  some of the bars, turn out not to be so "hospitable" to human life as it turns out.  WHO KNEW.  But in an effort to escape the one bad bar, he sacrifices himself to save his girl "friend" who was in love with another guy at the time and then goes into the black hole and finds out the whole universe is about himself and that instead of being destroyed, he could go back in time and briefly change some things about his past(aka. learning from your mistakes) and with clues he gives his daughter just enough clues to save humanity and then... for some reason... he wakes up.  It's kinda stupid. 

Ok, that was a little unfair and it's fair to say I will get much more of the movie once I have watched it many more times, which I plan to do when I can stop and rewind here at home on Netflix.  Anne Hathaway is beautiful btw. It's nice to see that people can get past seeing someone completely naked and not say OH she's over.  The whole movie, unlike others where I can't wait to see them undress, I was kind of "satisfied" with already having seen her naked. In fact that reminds me of Sandra Bullock in Gravity where in her case, I thnk she probably looks better with her clothes on.  I say that now, sure, and then one day she plops down next to me in a bikini and I have to like swallow my words for the next 10 minutes as she watches me burn with desire... lol.

It's funny, I used to be SO into blue-eyed chicks.  I wonder what happened to that. 

Intelligent Life

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I think it is neat that they got a spacecraft to land on a Comet.  And I hear it was done at a significantly discounted cost.  

One of the things that should be obvious to all young people, as it is to me, is that labor will ALWAYS be a factor in making someone rich.  You take labor that is intensive and difficult, make it easy, then replace the worker, sort of like a rinse repeat thing except that sometimes the worker wises up and cannibalizes the business by opening up a NEW business competing with the same business he was about to get replaced in.  

This spacecraft probably didn't require Ph'Ds from the best schools overseeing its launch and frankly I don't think there is really very hard work involved in plotting graphs.  It's the sort of thing that once programmed need never be touched again.  It's like an abacus or a slide rule.  Totally obselete today with calculators but say you run out of batteries one day... 

Ah!  That's why they taught us how to use those in college calculus anyways.  

In fact I sort of doubt that space travel is possible.  As you have read in one of my previous blogs, there is no resistance in space so waving your hands HARD at the wall is similar to what would happen when someone tries to use an exhaust in a void, but meh I relegate reality to the people in charge.  

What would be funny is if they zeroed in on a uniquely red white and blue object that at first sign would appear to be purposely ridged which would prove there was intelligent life out in the cosmos... and then have it turn out to be a Pepsi-Cola bottle cap.   

PS. You guys DO know how to use an abacus yeah? Me neither. 

Righteousness is a bifurcation

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Writing a song that makes people feel good is like dipping into a well of feelings.  My thoughts today are about the song by Janet Jackson called the Knowledge or one of those.  What she wrote talked about children "living in a world they didn't make".  In the last blog I wrote about true devils that make rules that they don't follow.  See?  That's what we have to look forward to is devils everywhere.  Children forced to follow rules that change.  Unless we begin to understand that WE are the ones that stop moving that make them giddyup burro us into caring about the government. 

Now I'm already losing track of my message but what I want to bring to light is that Janet was SO righteous when she started out.  I was all about her "Rhythm Nation" movement/not movement... but it didn't last did it?  Soon the very children that she was claiming to be "living in a world where grown ups make the rules" turned out to be the ones that put Michael Jackson, her brother, in the poor house.  A betrayal.  And more important to note is the scheme of events that led up to that.  MC Hammer putting a bounty out for Michael's glove... that guy should never work again... or rappers talking about the street life and feeling good about it... that's kind of AT ODDS with the Jacksons' message isn't it... and the Jacksons kind of LOST their will to sing it didn't they?  

Such is the way of the world, we are COMPETING for the minds of our young people.  Some believe they should be rich and dominate others, some believe we all should be trusting and faithful and that ALL people can be saved and deserve forgiveness.  

But you can see that Janet changed her mind about leading the nation real quick didn't she?  Despite calls from many people to continue her movement she went from I'm too young and special and "someday is tonight" kind of girl to HELLO BOBBY BROWN, lol.  She still has some of her old message but she lost much of it WAY back there somewhere.  

He probably did too.  I used to love his songs... "I made this money you didn't." (It's my prerogative.)   

So whatdayaknow, Joan Rivers is doing her comedy special and calling those children "little shits" that each got 35 million dollars for being "inappropriately" handled by the single black millionaire that BELIEVED so much in trust that he wasn't ready for the ATTACK that he had coming.  

Joan probably wasn't ready either.  

So the message today is that, like Rachel, and like Janet when younger, you might be trusting and BELIEVE that you can change the world if they only will listen and understand things like you do because they just don't have enough time or enough intellect to understand complex things, OR you can be 50/50... that means expecting attacks, knowing some people are rotten, putting a little Sarah Silverman into your personality maybe, and knowing that WAY over here are some amazing clear transparent people that shine civility like a beacon... and WAY over there are the same number of people that "always listen to that voice"(Rob Lowe in Bad Influence), who can't wait to find MORE calm people to obfuscate from their purpose, that they don't realize they have, because their goal in LIFE should be just that... to have EVERYONE work together and not need each other and have everything anticipated and to be all of us civilized and devoid of our instincts to dominate others.  We should ALL want to be part of ONE big country where noone goes hungry and has a purpose to fulfill that coincides with the needs of civilization.  

Janet ended up marrying a billionaire, having no children I expect, or wanting any, and probably if she could, would probably sing things more to the tune of Oprah than Tom Cruise.  Righteousness, any explanation of it, creates people that want to believe and having a belief is what makes... well it's what makes a country.  It's the unexplained center of every group.  It makes blind people into GODS and that may or may not be better for society because righteousness feels SO GOOD, MMMh MMh!  It's always a good day for a hangin'!

Making people feel righteous is a bifurcation. 

PS. At the same time that I write this to clear your thoughts there are people who already have this mapped out and DON'T want you to understand things, be wary of people who before having had time to digest what it means, already DISAGREE with new ideas.  That's the quality of a lesser being.  Oh and btw Lawrence can keep his show... yeah it's ok you can have it, lol, ALL of you keep your jobs... not like we are in this together anyways, it's all 50/50. 

EDIT: Btw, it was nice to hear that lady saying on Chris' show that Obama was a very principled man.  I needed to hear that.  Thank you. I sometimes think that, like Rachel, he ALSO is working out there alone.  

Alex Wagner's cameraguy

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Why?

Why did we lose all of those states to Republicans? 

It's times like these that I wonder, was it MY fault? I mean was listening to me what got everyone on the wrong end of an onslaught?  

At this point, I have to ask myself and you, what is wrong with you, MSNBC? 

It should be obvious that there are "plants" at MSNBC that were put there to sabotage their goodwill.  I mean this past week, NOONE can pronounce Rachel's last name correctly it seems.  Steve's sound seems to come on whenever it feels like it and if I were going to go troll the right with a new "plant" of my own on twitter I would call myself... what would I call myself?  Hmmm. 

Alex Wagner's cameraguy! 

I mean those three are the very essence of what good about the network and noone seems to be defending them very much.  The Cycle is a royal mess without SECupp and Steve Kornacki.  These 4 people are who our young Democrats should emulate?  And in like vein people are wondering why Rachel and Lawrence talk to each other.  Just stop it.  You tried it, didn't like it, both of you, so stop it.  You can bet Lawrence doesn't have problems with HIS crew because people know they are on their way out if they do.  He's not very likable but he sure does put out a quality show, so just leave him alone to do his show.  He likes Ari Melber... fine let them have their 30 minutes of likability then check the feeds and see if they really ARE popular or if they tax EVERYONE'S goodwill there.  I personally sit there and watch Melber hurt people's feelings all day long.  It's distressing and I guess other people don't see that.  You think, What is he doing?  But he's just feeding, you know it, I know it, people know it but noone can quite put their finger on it.  

Small wonder people run around wondering what happened to the pinnacle of the democratic movement? It's unorganized.  At this point, you should get SECupp to run her own show, INSTEAD of Lawrence or in contrast of Rachel.  I can't tell what went wrong but I see Rachel like ALONE out there, I don't see people helping her.  It's distressing.  

I am sad today for them because they failed.  Their one job in this world is to get people to feel good about being a Democrat and, well, they failed.  

Recommendation? 

Fire some people. 

PS. I used to feel that noone should be fired but they didn't have any trouble firing me, FOR QUALITY, after almost 19 years of doing a cake job that a 14 year old could do.  So FIRE some people, trust me when I say, they probably deserve it more than I did. Who's idea was it to put Ari in charge after everyone else was gone I wonder? 

EDIT: One more thing, if you are against Rachel, you are WITH GW Bush... Oh you get it now! 

Wishing well

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I just got finished watching A Million Ways to Die in the West which included Sarah Silverman in it and was quite well-made but not so refined as I would have liked.  The music was great though.  Part of me thinks that the early monologues were maybe intentional because, you know, that's Seth McFarlane's style is to irritate you until you realize he's doing it intentionally... but nah, it came across as rookie, which he IS a rookie so maybe the next movie will be more refined.  

A couple of things I took away, and I'm about to see it again so it will be MANY more things I take away from watching it a second time(which I am dreading to do) is that "people die in the west".  

Some other points, that I'd like to point out:

1. Some people are willing to forgive others' faults mostly because they feel worthless

2. Some people, that's all they know is dominating others, and these people can show up right out of nowhere, but a BIG CLUE is that they are from out of town

3. The finest woman, has been through some tough times and even though she wants to settle down with say, MY BROTHER, it seems clear from the movie that they will ALWAYS want to push men around thinking they are all that

4. Keeping no.3 in mind, the whole movie was worth it to see Charlize Theron in a bridal gown looking back at you... OUCH... that's a life worth living! 

5. whores are messed up people too, with hearts and minds that click to little things while denying the big picture of what those little things mean(How do I know? Don't ask.)

OK. That's enough outtakes for one viewing.  I am sure there are deeper messages in there somewhere but since it was a comedy, I know it wasn't made to be an epic movie about innocence lost or some such, I know it's meant to be easily understood.  

Ok so now let's talk about 3 wishes.  You might think WOW what if I found a bag of money.  

Wish#1: I wish I found a huge amount of money.  

Wishing for it and having it are two different things right? But let's say this happens.  One thing that young people frequently don't understand about the world is that, some old people are old and worthless, depend on their children or some such and live in nursing homes or in bedrooms in someone's house somewhere.  Other old people, took the same risks and are RICH, and their children are just waiting for them to die so they get their share but not because they helped in any sort of way.  Still others, like my parents, have given everything they have to their children.  When I was in college, they sent me thousands to cover costs.  They've always let me stay with them whenever I found myself in need.  And my mother cooks ceaselessly as though I were still unable to cook for myself.  It's families like this that mostly keep to themselves. 

Ok so again sidetracked, those other old people, the ones that involve themselves in others' lives, are the ones ALLOWING you to keep the money.  They are involved in OTHER people's business and that's what is called domination.  It's a risk.  If they are found out they are out but if not then they ride the wave of insider trading all the way up to the top where other people like them could all keep the secret.  

Rich people should not exist.  That should be obvious to you.  To have some people making double maybe triple or 5 times the wealth of another sounds justifiable and controlled, someone making 30k and his boss making 60k sounds like a promotion worth waiting 20 years for.  It's doable and patient and everyone would agree to let you keep that 60k a year.  

But to have someone making 300million...  what's that? Where does letting one person keep this money correspond to giving other people hope for retirement? 

Well, I got off track again, ok so back to the bag of money.  People, most especially other people that are as broke as you that didn't go to school, are watching to see trends so that they can ride a wave like a gold rush to richness.  If you find a bag of money, first thing that is going to happen is, you are going to want to keep it secret.  And I am TELLING you that you can't.  Especially not today.  And I am TELLING you that people out there are going to make a play for it if you do.  You don't FIND things in this world, you grow them or you steal them, that's all that can happen.  And what's worse is that this bag of money is a HUGE bag of money, because then it's SOMEONE'S money, who is going to want it back and pay people to get it back.  

Now at the legal end of this you might ask the cops to watch it for weeks and weeks and you might get to keep the money and maybe start small business of donuts for the cops that helped you "earn" the money... hahahaha. 

Well, the world doesn't work that way, the money will be someone else's and that person, because he has so much OTHER money will probably send people to MESS UP your life for a while till he gets satisfied he's taken a "bag of money"s worth out of your life.  

So wishing for money, might seem like a good idea but money that is not grown is taken, and once taken, it is usually taken by the strongest and the most wild person out in the cosmos.  It's better to grow it.  

Wish#2: I wish SUCH and SUCH girl would fall in love with me.  

What's wrong with this you ask?  Well, only someone like me that is 40+ years old can tell you. You have to have the examples of rejection and EVEN acceptance to understand that you won't want to steal love.  

I have been "in love" quite a few times in my life.  Usually it is with some karaoke queen or a really pretty girl at work.  Wishing her to be with me, I would sing karaoke back to her or try to talk to her on cigarette break or maybe even sit next to her somehow while doing my job.  It's creepy maybe but asking a girl out that I barely know... is worse, it's stupid and even now it sounds like harassment or worse a risk of rejection that is untenable because she's going to reject you, HOW can she say yes if she doesn't know the first thing about you?  Hmmf.  Food for thought.  

Still, you could try EVEN harder to dress up your existence and BOY have I tried to do that! You could try to help her with her karaoke gear like I used to do for this one girl at the end of the night.  It was nice I thought and we were slowly getting to know each other but one day she stopped me from helping her because some OTHER guy started to help her and he dropped her stuff... which was NOT her stuff btw.  Or you could get a table full of guys to sit around and do shots while they sing and in time maybe she will sit with you which happened once but as you might guess... table full of guys.  When's my chance to talk to her in all of this?  One night I actually got to go to her house and we spent all night talking about her boyfriend so I remained pleasant company till morning and the table full of guys were like NAME NAME NAME(insert my name) like I didn't know what I was doin.   I didn't.  Girl has a boyfriend, what logic thinks "screw that boyfriend she much want me to TAKE HER!" 

Still another method I tried was to be friends with her friends.  Yeah, because karaoke chicks have the BEST of friends.  So I did.  And truth is no matter how bad people say "other people" are, people are always nice and respectful to you if you understand how they think.  I got to know a great many people that were plugging away at life while doing "questionable things" that I really never found out about.  

But that changed one day.  

One day some people became AFRAID of me or at least apprehensive.  Soon, NEW people showed up that were suddenly "old friends" of the people I knew and didn't like me. My dream of having probably the biggest wedding in Jacksonville has changed to everyone knows my name and face and would piss in my soup.  That's because that is what fear does and I can't control fear because I don't have a band full of people to tell my side of stories.  

Soon it was obvious to everyone that I was only friends with them because I wanted to be with one of THEIR women and poof, now we got what we got.  We got me wishing for the girl, and she probably DOES like me a whole lot, but with the side dish of everyone is suspicious of me and wouldn't lend me their sofa let alone their secrets or let me into their group.  

Which is ok I didn't want to be in their group, I wanted to take the girl away from that... which is ALSO a problem yes?  Bad idea?  Right. 

And I didn't wish for a cow.  For some reason, cows keep showing up like, "I'm available!" lol... oh lord.  

Ok, so I don't know how to get an excellent girl now STILL, but at least I know several ways NOT to do it.  

Wish#3: I wish to be famous

Ok, so all that that I just said, that's what happend after all those years spent earning influence and spending time with bunches of people.  In my mind, I was earning their trust and their votes; but in their mind, eventually, I became just some other guy that didn't belong.  Remember that scene with Robert Downey Jr in what's it called, Natural Born Killers, yeah that! Eventually, playtime was over and the killers realized Downey Jr wasn't helping so he had to go... that! 

You can't just meet a bunch of people and think "these people will vote for me", no.  And what's worse, is believing all people want every other person to be like them, it's a HUGE mess of people that you don't realize exists when you are sitting with the same people like I was for like 5 years.  Every bar has a HUGE mess of people associated with it somehow.  Still, I have hope that my legacy is not altogether used up since that WAS a bunch of goodwill on my part.  

Ok, that sums up today's lesson.  Wishing for things is cheating. You know it, the Genie knows it, and people watching you know it, and they can't wait for the oppotunity to "get in on" the wronging of your wishes.  Everyone all around you is growing things like, women, fame, and fortune, and NOONE thinks you should be able to wish for them, and NOONE is going to let that happen while they sit there watching you... trying to steal.  

PS: One thing that I will tell you for cheap/free(you like free?) is that I LOVE me some yellow cheesecake, its 2 good.