I get around, no not really

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Bah! Sometimes I think my 55 year old friend gets more secks than I do. In fact, I know he does. And he's single too!

She called me back and asked me if I was upset or something cuz of my tone. So then later she cancelled cuz she was too tired from work. Me of course I was off all day looking forward to it and then she cancels. Ugh!

My own fault though, I should have acted like it wasn't important I guess.

Well tonight is Dynamis again and though I was gonna go out for a while I have decided to just stay here and catch up on my Jajuju time. Man, if I start thinking about my romantic situation a lot, I am about to get REALLY depressed so no more of that.

I bought the Elemental Torque and Arboryst Nails and just like my Magician's Earring they are going down in value and I am not sure I want them as much as I did. But I resolved to just keep them and count myself lucky. No Thunder Ring for me I guess. I just love the Nails though. They go great with my Black Cloak setup which is seriously over-enmity'd without them. Still, because the Elem Torque is SO good, I am thinking about tossing my Fenrir's Torque and scrapping my plans for the Uggalepih Pendant. I guess I will just have to wait and see.

I really do love pulling out my Weskit gear but it is TOTALLY not worth using in Dynamis. It is much to weak in armor and the bonuses are marginal compared to all of the uber-BLMs already there.

I finally got my Phantom Tathlum though and it makes my gear feel rather complete in some respects. The Anrin Obi would be nice also but that is a couple of weeks away before I get in that mood again to go to Sea.

I have a gob of points now in Dynamis and I am tempted to lot on stuff but I will wait. I must accomplish my goal of 30 pts and then hope for the stars to align to get me the gear I need. It far less stressful to just sit and play than to have to watch what is dropping all of the time. This is another of my problems cuz I don't always pay attention to the chat log if I am getting ready to work on a schedule of things like Cure, Nuke, cast Stoneskin, cast Barfira, Nuke again, Stun and Drain and maybe Aspir. If I have a number of things already planned out, I try to cast the spells successively with as little delay as possible but this means, I am not looking at the chat log.

Last week people were like "get ready to Ga some statues". Well I noticed that on another set of statues, a Stun on the lead statue allowed for some nice groupage, so I planned to Stun since I am a slow caster as it is. So I organized my spells and I notice a Yag in there starting to smite me after I had casted like they sed. I was the only one too. So I check the chat log and they had changed their minds and sed NO GA NO GA NO GA!

Well, sorry guys I missed that.

Did you already see this?

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I got a date tonight, I expect, but I don't know if I will have too many things on my mind to perform well on it. She is fantasticly good-looking btw. I had something of a cold yesterday and found that staying up late didn't help my constitution any. I feel sort of under the weather.

Still, I know she will have a good time. I just need to plan well and take this girl through a nice set of things to do and hope she really enjoys herself enough to want to see me again. This is sort of like a KS30 Double Draconian fight. I gotta get her WAR dragon out of the way so that her buffed up BRD Dragon doesn't put up too much of fight for too long. lol

Should I mention this to her?

I went to Dynamis-Windurst Friday and stayed up WAY too late that time but it's ok. I didn't want to leave too soon since a lot of people have been leaving sooner lately. I am always a bit confused playing as BLM. Usually, since I am BLM/WHM I stay and support the melees and help with Sleepga II but when I am with the BLM pt it is confusing sometimes when the lead BLM takes me out to go kill the Statues. I am so slow compared to the BLM/RDMs that I think it is rather pointless to have me there, except to Stun, which is a very good reason to have me there I guess, I dunno.

I just spent money on the Arborist Nails and an Elemental Torque and though I was happy at first to finally try them out on my Weskit gear and to use Weskit gear to some effect, I am going to just sell the stuff back. I am just not much of an Attack BLM without /RDM. I don't even like my Weskit gear and I am very ok happy with my role as BLM/WHM, which is support healer and sleeper. I need to work on getting my Anrin Obi and I might get serious about getting my Rajas Ring later this week. For now, I gotta try to get my money back.

What to buy, hmm?

What movie to watch, hmm?

This is another thing I don't mind telling yall is difficult for me cuz even though I love to watch a great new movie and have it turn out to be great, I don't feel it's appropriate to take a woman to what could be a lousy movie. But if you tell her you already saw it, then she won't want to see it. lol. Hence, choosing a movie is tough.

ps. hell no I'm not gonna tell her she is like a KS30 Double Draconian fight!

Misseu Francois, wha happan

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I finally get all set to get my life in gear and what happens, I almost get arrested for DUI. I am so lucky to have people that will come help me when I need them. I think that I am going to have to seriously cut back on the drinking if I plan to continue to go out. I have found also that at the end of our poker parties I am usually the only one that is sloshed. This is perhaps a clear indicator that perhaps I have a drinking problem.

It's funny though, cuz if I don't go out, I don't drink at all. So I don't consider myself an alcoholic unless I start drinking and then I guess I can't stop myself. It's weird. For now, I am going to have to cut back and stop drinking altogether at least for a month just to start over.

I spent much of yesterday doing KSNM 30 Double Draconian in Horlais Peak. I has two dragons, one WAR, and one BRD. They are both undead. They have an AOE Stonega-stomp move and also have an AOE Curse effect that makes keeping your tank alive pretty tough if he is not a PLD.

We got lucky. We went 5/6. We lost the first one due to trying to fight the dragons in the BC area and by me (as BLM) standing too close to the AOE damage which killed me. We had PLD WHM RDM BLM MNK DRK. We did a skillchain to Freeze II that worked out great. It was Asuran Fists > Cross Reaper for Darkness and then MB with Freeze II or Blizzaga III. At first I thought that the Undead Dragons would be strong to Ice since many of those types are. but I was still able to land Blizzard II once so it was full throttle Freeze MB after that. Wizard's Gloves + Black Cloak + Ice Staff + Druid's Slops = "I don't get resisted at all".

Our plan was to keep the BRD dragon slept while we killed of the WAR and it was working ok but somehow the BRD dragon went and took a chomp out of the PLD along with the WAR who after he hit his Mighty Strikes button really put the hurtin on.

We wiped.

For our second battle, we decided to keep the BRD in the BC and take the WAR dragon out to the area out front of the BC and that worked out great. I was able to look down on the dragon and it was easy peasy to land spells at will. The skillchain was hot too. I didn't over nuke and when it came time to MB I missed like the first couple but then my ICE merits started smacking the mob for 1600 dmg on MB.

After we got the skillchain down though and RDM got used to using Gravity and Sleeping the BRD dragon, the fight was easy. We set 3 records that day in time and cleared it in about 9 minutes once.

The drops were good also. I am probably looking at about 400k from my drop so I am thinking hard on getting a Penitent's Rope. But like anything else, I am not sure what I want. I also want Thunder Ring and Blessed Pants and Blessed Briault.

I am probably gonna be broke again soon but at least I won't be in jail for it. Time to go out and seriously buy that chair.

Almost but not quite out

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I have some more time on my hands now since I have secured my position in my job. I had problems with the one co-worker again recently and she really got on my nerves to the point I had to rat her out to a boss.

But what happened. "She's coughing too loudly." /point

Ya as you can imagine I got met with a look of amazement and even disdain for reacting to what seemed to be a normal bodily function. Next week, I am sitting away from fat ugly horse woman.

In the game, I finally got back to doing Dynamis on Friday but unlike other times, I logged off early in an effort to maintain my focus at work. I do a good job I think but often I mess up with stuff if I am short of sleep. People interrupting my train of thought with their coughing during calls don't help the situation any.

It was a good time but man now I gotta try to make it on Tuesday nights too which used to be a good night for me but now I am not so sure. My friends that I play poker with on Sunday nights have a Karaoke thing on Tuesdays now and I sort of want to make it to that also.

Decisions.

At least I am not so depressed as when I thought I was losing my job. The only thing I dread though is my Supervisor giving me more zeros for cramping his style again. The system there is so unabashedly unfair I wonder that anyone can sleep at night. It's probably unfair for the leaders too though I'm guessing.

When people get away with murder, it's cuz other people have already done so also.

I am thinking of buying another keyboard and taking up Beethoven again. I used to practice all of the time before when I had an apartment to myself but ever since I moved and a key broke off of it, I haven't practiced at all. But I SO want to settle down and be normal that I wonder if going back to my "technical" skills will make me a perfectionist jerk to everyone again.

On a better note though, I have upped my merits for my THF and think I might up my dagger skill some. I love meriting with THF. It's rather expensive though and I am quickly running out of Squid Sushi. Once I level up my dagger skill I should be able to merit with THF/WAR all of the time. I recently switched to my Crossbow and started to level that and found that my dmg output was MUCH lower than with the old Fire Arrows. As soon as Marksmanship is leveled I am going to switch back to Archery. I am thinking of maybe adding some merits to Archery too just so I hit more often. THF/RNG really does do a lot more damage overall, though THF/WAR upps my ws damage a lot with Berserk and Warcry. I also bought a stack of 12 quivers of Acid Bolts so even after I have maxed my skill, I am going to probably want to use up those quivers.

Hey look it's TWO spiders

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I hate this new Internet Explorer. OMG! What a screw up. It's totally different and I hate it. Well at least til I get used to it.

I have the sneaking suspicion I am going to be WHM 65 for a very long time. I also don't know how much I am going to play anymore. Last week I didn't play at all I think.

I had a great time last week though.

I got to go to this old friend's house and check out her stuff. It was great to be on her good side again. I tend to get on people's bad side sometimes and I honestly don't know how to get myself back out of there.

That was Tuesday.

That was supposed to be Dynamis night but I was REAL glad to have missed it that time. Wednesday came around and I hung around with old dart friends again. Thursday was Karaoke night. Friday I expected to come home and do Dynamis but my brother-in-law's band was playing that night and I had a holiday Saturday so I stayed out.

Saturday I slept ALL DAY and I tried to level a little bit of WHM but mostly I was happy to finally get a bunch of sleep.

I wonder constantly about work. I am an outcast there now and I don't even sit near people I know anymore. It sometimes is quiet but every once in a while people start acting up for whatever reason and annoy me. Trust me when I tell you that I am not a cretin. The ones that are intending to annoy me know full well what they are doing and are harassing me intentionally. So for standing up to them I am losing my job.

I guess that's only one of many things that are backwards in my life.

Mostly though, the sad fact is, my manager is about to do me in with more zeros probably. It's only a matter of time. Also, my words of mercy fell on deaf ears when I spoke to that HR person. Both of them were against me.

Why is it so hard to put me on another team?

I am playing through the THF guild in Oblivion. It's fun to play a game where there is no waiting. I actually used to mind all of the loading it did when changing cities but now I am indifferent to it.

I need to get a decent chair to play in. Once I do though I probably won't be all that active anymore so maybe I shouldn't. Of course there I go again giving myself reasons for not working harder. LOL.

My friend and his girlfriend had a big fight where she scratched his face some. People made it out to be a BIG deal and when he showed me it ws just some little scratches. lol. Last night though I talked to her and she said there is NO way she was getting back with him. I believed her. Then he started to really want to talk to her and the jig was up. HE was the one.

I wish them well and all but if he hurt her or made her scared, it's over. Still, last night she followed him over to poker.

Oh boy, I smell a bunch of trouble in the coming weeks. I get the feeling that somehow I am the cause of their trouble. I hope not. She is really good looking though and has some NICE looking... you know.

Where are you going?

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As it turns out, we weren't fighting the Dynamis Lord. It also turns out that the fully upgraded Relic Dagger Mandau was in fact almost fully upgraded. It also turns out that there is no map in Dynamis so if they lose you and you think POS is gonna help, think again. This me lost in Dynamis with thankfully few monsters left after we killed off most of the mobs in Xarcabard. The guy in charge did finally get his item from our defeat of the Animated Dagger and I can expect him to show off his Mercy Stroke ws probably at our next gathering which is tonight.

Nothing at work has changed. I got sick and went home yesterday. I told them to take me off of the team and they found out that the option as unavailable to me. The people there have figured out that it is very easy to annoy me and now it's commonplace to introduce yourself by coughing. Great! That's really funny!

I realize that the more I dislike stuff that's normal, like coughing, the more people are gonna do it.

Moreover, I have a supervisor that at the same time that he is proclaiming to want to help me through this tough time and pull me out of this "plank" situation, is harping on the side of the employees that harass me. He says he can't intervene but yet in front of the HR rep exclaimed his resolve to get me through this. I honestly don't know what to make of him. I tend to get along mainly with "good" people. The ones that are ethical at least. This guy is not so bad as the leader I had 2 years ago but he is almost as bad in a quiet way. Or maybe I just don't care so much as I once did. We have 20 people with 10 monitorings each and most of them with full 100 and 95 scores only. And he has me sitting next to them with 5 zeros for the month. Most of those people have been there less than 6 months and they are getting 100s? That's highly unlikely.

Well, I guess I deserve my fate if I am just unlikeable. They keep trying to convince me that maybe I am just not smart and that I am just not likeable and that maybe I have mental problems, but I know. They are the dumb ones, etc. I am just outnumbered. And it's not all of the people I don't get along with just the few. The sad fact is that I am so charismatic when I start to talk to people that everyone chimes in to the conversation especially when I get loud but it's just then that some people, let's call them anti-people, have to say something.

Gong!

Carefully backing up

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I didn't lose my job.

Thankfully the gods have set into motion a scheme where I don't piss off the wrong people anymore and everything keeps going along just as it did before. The only difference is I go full-time.

Thanks a lot guys. There goes my dream of dating a stripper.

On a positive note though, I am going to be able to make much more money so that's good. I really need to start working out though cuz my lungs are almost constantly full of fluid probably from some little known disease related to excess smoking and lack of sleep.

I just upgraded to Internet Explorer 7.0 and boy was that a bad idea. I lost all of my favorite links. Now I have to remember where to go to get them and I have to learn how to put them back up there. What an improvement!

Well tonight is the big Dynamis Lord fight. I expect it will be pretty cool to watch and I just know we are gonna win cuz people that are led by a guy with an upgraded relic weapon just have to be among the best of the best. Since I have joined this linkshell we haven't lost a single fight. Moreover, I think we have wiped only once or twice the entire time! Ha!

Later guys, I gotta say I am in a good mood now that I know I still have my job tomorrow.

A Night on the Town

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Well I waded thru Dynamis on Tuesday and found myself interested in groups again. I also went out Wednesday night and saw my old friends playing darts again. I am actually pretty good at darts again. Got my team through with some triples and a double bull once for the win.

Dynamis is fun too. I want to get my Anrin Obi quest finished but I have not logged in for several days. I enjoy partying and such but I just don't wanna waste time anymore. I want to be productive. I will log in again prob tomorrow night to go to Dynamis again. It's lucky they do it when they do cuz I am able to show up on both nights.

If I lose my job though, I probably won't be able to afford high speed internet anymore.

Rod was at the bar and asked me how the folks of Vana'diel were doing. He was a sackholder in this old ls and he introduced me to linkshells in general. I told him I had access to Sea and he was like "What's that?" Him and his wife used to be such experts at the game and now, lol, I even had to explain what Sky access was and what fighting the gods meant.

After I get enough points for my Assassin's Armlets I think I might try to join an HNMLS so I can lot on a Seiryu's Cote. It has an AGI +15 bonus on it and would be perfect for THF/RNG. I get all the good stuff for my THF even though I don't hardly use him, lol.

I did start switching gear though and when I maxed out his DEX and used Shark Bite and Dancing Edge on some mobs, I found that Dancing Edge must use AGI more cuz it hit for like 1200 when Shark Bite was only hitting for 1000 or so. I am so BLM oriented now though that I hardly use the Wide Scan feature like I used to. I have been taking out Jajuju again and she has hit level 40 and started to hit me up with Haste which is pretty cool. I take her out to the outpost in Eastern Altepa Desert and level against the gobs there. There are plenty of em too so exp for her must be pretty nice I am guessing.

She's got some funky clothes on though. I need to take her to Bastok controlled areas but there just aren't any with decent level mobs in it recently.

They have started up Karaoke again on Thursdays but not with someone different as a DJ other than my friend. It's cool cuz we are all like a circle of friends in some sense though some of them like each other a little less than others.